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I post whatever, whenever, its a free world 17|Malawi| wattpad writer Lana x The NBHD I stan Let's be friends:)

[goodgirlshady]

Progress. Don't forget it. Remember that it wasn't like this a few days/months ago. And if it is, you survived that day, surely you'll get through today.

[goodgirlshady]

Ain't this the truth

[lsseymiyake]

Virgo zodiac mood board

[anxietyproblem]

[dragonindigo245]

Well if this isn’t a mood I don’t know what is

[goodgirlshady]

Someone said I'm dragging out this depression thing, bitch it's dragging me.

[fightingborderline]

Lana Del Rey - How to disappear Live

[imsorryidc]

Just a reminder, for myself and others

[svnshades]

A list of 100 black owned businesses that you can check out and support! Feel free to add any black owned business that isn’t on this list.

List made by: @sarahmian on Instagram.

[awed-frog]

Just had my nth conversation with someone about mask-wearing today - yet another well-intentioned moron who was like 

‘But the virus is gone now’ (it isn’t) 

‘But the mask is uncomfortable’ (ventilators are worse)

‘But you’re young, you won’t die’ (having this thing could impact my health for decades to come + it’s my responsability to protect those who’re more vulnerable than I am because that’s how society works)

‘But are you going to live in fear for the rest of your life’ (taking concrete safety measures actually helps me feel more in control and less worried)

‘But are you going to give up everything and stay inside like a rat’ (no, but I’m definitely going to decide what’s worth risking my health for, and shopping for bread rolls is not very high on my list of literally-to-die-for activities)

‘But what if they never find a vaccine’ (then we’ll get used to the situation just like we got used to a thousand other things like seat belts, bike helmets, and increasingly weird true crime podcasts). 

I know it’s tiring to have people call you paranoid all the time - but you’re right and they’re wrong. Check the news, keep a safe distance from others whenever possible and keep wearing your mask!

(Btw that thread is full of interesting stuff.)

[goodgirlshady]

Am I the only one who sometimes just thinks fuck men, artificial insemination is the future, get rich and get that sperm donor money babyyy! But then I go, my ex is still cute though...

[goodgirlshady]

I never used to think like this but the thoughts becoming more and more aware in my brain like hey, you could just make it all go away you know. Keep on having bad dreams, I'm plagued with just horrible dreams, and I hate when you're dreaming, you just want to the narrative to continue despite the obvious signs of it being a dream, fucking sucks. Writing my thoughts here is my therapy, I almost feel like I'm breathing for the first time. Like I'm not living a lie, pretending I feel fine and pushing down the agony of depression. I want it to stop, really I do, I want to look forward to life, not dread it.

[goodgirlshady]

Woke up today, felt good. Felt okay, didn't go on social media until now. Saw something, got depressed. Whole moods been ruined. Not surprised. Happy, an emotion I haven't felt in a long time but I want it sooo bad.

[louckscreens]

Daddy Issues, Void - The Neighbourhood

like/reblog if you save

[emotitude]

[goodgirlshady]

Third day of my spell of depression and it's safe to say, I am easily triggered. Anything and everything hurts, I used to think my spells of sadness were a one time thing but as the years have gone by, I realize that this is persisting and it's not going away like I had thought it would. I'm not some fragile bomb of course, you can hurt my feelings and not everything will send my mental health spiraling. When I cry people just say I'm sensitive or that it's not something to cry about but I'm hurting. Today is the first day I've thought about the possibility of just making it all go away. Of just ending this hollowness I feel inside of me. I saw this tweet that said I feel like I've lost my personality, and honestly I'm just a shell of a person. Whenever I talk to people, which I rarely do, I feel like put on this front or lie to myself that I'm okay and happy when deep down I feel lost and hopeless.

I live in a country where mental health is surrounded by stigma and I'm scared that if I say something is wrong with me people will just think it'll go away or that I'm exaggerating. My mental health is a fucking disaster and right now it sucks to be me.

[theneighbourhooddaily-deactivat]

Jesse at the protest BlM

[goodgirlshady]

Tumblr is such a safe space, never opened up to an app so much in my life...