ʸᵒᵘ'ʳᵉ ᵗʰᵉ ᵇˡᵃᶜᵏ ˢʰᵉᵉᵖ !

independent ALICE MURPHY from the broadway musical, bright star.

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                   ❝ FACE IT, TIGER… YOU JUST HIT THE JACKPOT ! ❞

                                 independent mary jane watson, primarily mcu verse.                                                              penned by bee.

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SHIT MY THEATRE SQUAD SAID.

“ you’re trying to seduce him, not break his neck. ” “ he’s not gay. ” “ be catty. be flirty. be the opposite of your bitter, angry self. ” “ that looks like a trash bag. why are you wearing a trash bag? ” “ can you zip this up for me? ” “ that looks like a dildo. put it down. ” “ is that your evil laugh? you sound like joker on helium. ” “ i need a robin thicke kind of fuckboy. ” “ that british accent offends me & i’m not even british. ” “ if you touch my butt one more time i swear…. ” “ of course the lights seem too dark you’re wearing fucking sunglasses. ” “ HOLY SHIT THIS IS HEAVY. ” “ peter pan didn’t have such nice thighs though. ” “ no, you can’t say that. kids will be around so keep it PG-13. ” “ can someone help be carry this? PLEASE. ” “ isn’t this the song americans use in all high school movies? ” “ you can all be the stars of tonight. i’ll be THE FUCKING MOON. ” “ those sandals are so ugly they make jesus cry. ” “ who’s phone is ringing? i said VIBRATE ON. ” “ i didn’t break it. it broke all on it’s own. ” “ i’m allergic to dust i can’t do this. ” “ i’m not being dramatic. I AM dramatic. ” “ maybe i’m gay? ” “ no fireworks. we’re not americans. ” “ i hope you’re not making out in there! ” “ cinderella wouldn’t say ‘FUCKING HEELS’. neither can you. ” “ did you rip the dress? DID YOU RIP THE DRESS? ” “ you can’t say ‘i love you’ so violently. ” “ who carved a dick into the table? can the dick carver raise his hand? ” “ put your shirt on, you’re not chris evans. ” “ FOCUS AND STOP SINGING HAMILTON DAMNNIT. ” “ he’s her dad, not her daddy. ” “ you can’t say ‘bro’ to a king. ”

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ella ! 

    ❝ but, it’s what you love to do, isn’t it ? ❞ her eyes flickered in curiosity, a small smile finding her lips. ella wished, more than anything, that money didn’t play such a huge part in education——- and even life in general. all of the horror stories she had heard about people who were hiding their majors from their parents because it wasn’t a major that would make them a lot of money. her own struggles of finding ways to pay for her education. it all seemed so pointless to ella. in her own opinion, everyone deserved to have the education they wanted without having to worry about the consequences of money. ❝ at least you’ll be doing something you love——- and perhaps that’s better than being rich and doing something you don’t. ❞ 

                    ❝ yeah, SURE. ❞

and alice did -- she loved writing. she loved sharing her ideas, and expressing her opinions, and forming sentences... it was her PASSION.

            she was going to do everything             she could to SUCCEED.

still, sometimes... it all felt so pointless. could she let herself be so happy when she had lost the two people she loved the most ? what was happiness if she couldn't share it with them ?  

                     ❝ that's true. i couldn't imagine                          being a banker, or a lawyer,                          or an accountant. my brain                          would DIE. ❞

[goodstcry-blog]

even though i stumble, even though i fall, you’ll never see me crumble, you’ll never see me CRAWL. 

             INDEPENDENT AND SELECTIVE ALICE MURPHY FROM BRIGHT STAR.                             WRITTEN BY BEE, ESTABLISHED JULY OF 2016.

[goodstcry-blog]

russian guy ? 

“depends on what kind of HELP a girl’s looking for.”

he raises his chin just so as his eyebrows pique, defensive in his pride’s sake. he had a REPUTATION to protect, after all.

                    ❝ well, i'm not gon'na tell you                          unless you agree, 'cause if                         i tell you and you don't agree,                         that wouldn't be fair, huh ? ❞

yeah, alice is far too SNEAKY for her own good... you can take a girl out of zebulon, but you can't take the zebulon out of the girl. 

                     ❝ have you ever had a DREAM, sir ? ❞

SENTENCE MEMES FROM POPULAR TUMBLR TEXT POSTS :

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❛  but officer, they were fucking with my clique.  ❜ ❛  if you lose yourself, i will find you.  ❜ ❛  true friends don’t judge each other. they judge other people. together.  ❜ ❛  oh, you’re my friend? name three of my albums.  ❜ ❛  i’m sorry, but you must be at least a level four friend to unlock my tragic backstory.  ❜ ❛  fuck you but fuck me first.  ❜ ❛  you’re cute, what is your face html?  ❜ ❛  my life is one big ‘ wow, ok. ’  ❜ ❛  my life is just poorly made decisions with alternative music playing in the background.  ❜ ❛  i accidentally messed up my life, how do i start a new account?  ❜ ❛  my life is a joke and i’m not laughing anymore.  ❜ ❛  at myself, what the fuck are you doing.  ❜ ❛  if yahoo answers can’t solve your problem, then you’re in too deep.  ❜ ❛  this is the police. open up. tell me something about yourself, don’t be afraid.  ❜ ❛  how do you get a nice body without moving.  ❜ ❛  it’s so hard when you’re in a cuddly mood and don’t have anyone to cuddle with!! this is an outrage!!  ❜ ❛  ever wonder how different your life would be if that one thing never happened?  ❜ ❛  you ever just ugh really hard?  ❜ ❛  i’m a really affectionate person one you get past my five layers of shyness, awkwardness, fear, vague dislike and loneliness.  ❜ ❛  i was confident for like two minutes one time.  ❜ ❛  all i think about is sex and what i’m going to eat next.  ❜ ❛  i have my pencils and my tears ready.  ❜ ❛  i’m that kinda person who, between two choices, will always pick the wrong one.  ❜ ❛  i avoid everyone, including the people i like.  ❜ ❛  i always wonder why no one likes me and then i remember that i don’t even like me.  ❜ ❛  gosh golly! this beat is … whoo! this beat is … DANDY!  ❜ ❛  it’s hard being hilarious when everyone ignores you.  ❜ ❛  thinking about space fucks me up.  ❜ ❛  my biggest struggle in life is trying to make my eyeliner the same on both eyes.  ❜ ❛  i wish i could illegally download clothes.  ❜ ❛  heelys don’t have brakes because my swag don’t stop.  ❜ ❛  i know i make lots of jokes but i promise you, i’m a really sad person.  ❜ ❛  at least i can admit that i’m a piece of shit.  ❜ ❛  ‘ i’m not bitter ’ i say bitterly, with a bitter expression.  ❜ ❛  i’m fluent in talking shit.  ❜ ❛  it’s crazy how there are seven billion people on the planet and all of them are in love with me.  ❜ ❛  why am i better than everyone?  ❜ ❛  sometimes it physically pains me to hold back my sarcastic comments.  ❜ ❛  I SWEAR, I AM NOT CUTE OR SWEET. DON’T CALL ME THAT. I AM EVIL. I AM THE SHADOWS IN THE NIGHT. FEAR ME.  ❜ ❛  i don’t ‘ dress to impress. ’ i dress to depress. i wanna look so good that people hate themselves.  ❜ ❛  i love learning bad things about people i don’t like.  ❜ ❛  i bet you thought you’d seen the last of me.  ❜ ❛  i’m just an asshole with feelings.  ❜ ❛  there’s a special place in hell reserved for me. it’s called the throne.  ❜ ❛  damn boy, are you the terms and conditions? because i don’t give a fuck about what you have to say.  ❜ ❛  damn gurl, you flappy bird? because no one likes you.  ❜ ❛  your tattoo says ‘ only god can judge me, ’ yet here i am.  ❜ ❛  i’m not even sassy, i’m just an asshole.  ❜ ❛  i’m not a bitch, i am the bitch.  ❜ ❛  i like being obsessed with things so that i am distracted from how much i hate myself.  ❜ ❛  tips on talking to me when i’m pissed off: don’t.  ❜ ❛  my fashion sense is called ‘ i am cold and pissed off. ’  ❜ ❛  maybe ‘ fuck you ’ will be our always.  ❜ ❛  i believe in hate at first sight.  ❜ ❛  you hate me? wow, so much in common already.  ❜ ❛  i’m filled with hate and useless facts.  ❜ ❛  do you ever just wear headphones so people won’t talk to you?  ❜ ❛  i’d be such a good girlfriend, you’re all missing out.  ❜ ❛  getting into a relationship may seem tempting but so was getting on the titanic ship and look what happened there.  ❜ ❛  there’s always gonna be that one person who you can’t get out of your mind, no matter how hard you try.  ❜ ❛  i ship me and money.  ❜ ❛  have you ever met someone who’s smile looks like it could make flowers grow?  ❜ ❛  how do i get over someone i never dated?  ❜ ❛  i have a very big crush on you but sadly i am only a little bug and you are a garden.  ❜ ❛  if you grab my face right before you kiss me, i’ll definitely fall in love with you.  ❜ ❛  i don’t like your clothes, take them off.  ❜ ❛  put me in the coffin with both middle fingers up.  ❜ ❛  dying is taking too long.  ❜ ❛  being cremated is my last hope of getting a hot, smoking body.  ❜ ❛  don’t joke about murder. i was murdered once and it offends me.  ❜ ❛  you can’t spell school without ‘ i want to stab myself. ’  ❜ ❛  good news, everyone: dogs.  ❜ ❛  if you think it’s impossible to fall asleep to heavy metal, then you’re completely wrong.  ❜

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❝ I know heaven is real because I saw it and abducted an angel. ❞

                    ❝ talkin' 'bout motel, huh ?                        the two of you are real cute. ❞

alice lets a tiny laugh pass through her lips,shaking her head. she had once felt like that,with jimmy ray... but, years had passed, andso many things had happened, and she wasnot the young girl she used to be...

                 but, she still believed that her                 baby, wherever he was now,                  was from HEAVEN.

she just could never say that out loud.

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                            ❝ home isn’t a place   ;   it’s you. ❞

[goodstcry-blog]

beethoven ! 

@goodstcry     //     starter call.    ( no breaks. )

           ❛    i don’t give a shit if i even ever wake up in the morning.      ❜

                    ❝ and why's that ? ❞

her words sound a little detached, but alice is truly concerned -- that is a  terrifying thing to say to someone, after all, and she doesn't want him not to  wake up in the morning. 

[goodstcry-blog]

Profound Sentence Meme

"People care about you, too, you know."

"What, and it's alright for you to save us, but never the other way around? Why not?"

"Don't you know how much you're loved?"

"You're trying to get yourself killed! Ever since it happened, you've been trying!"

"It's like you have a death wish."

"You're addicted to the adrenaline and sooner or later it will get someone killed. You, probably."

"What happened to you? Why are you like this?"

"This ISN'T okay."

"You can't keep treating yourself like this."

"I hear you crying sometimes, when you think nobody is listening."

"Do you know how sad you look sometimes?"

"What are you hiding from me? Just TELL me!"

"Something is eating you up from the inside. Something happened, or you've done something, or someone left. You need to share. Otherwise you're never going to feel okay again."

"Why are you like this?"

"Since when was doing THIS okay?"

"It's okay to talk to people."

"I'm not fragile, I'm not going to break if you talk to me about it. I'll listen and I'll care. That's it. I promise."

"You can't run away from this."

"I'm not going to leave you the moment you do something I disagree with."

"You're not secretly an irredeemably awful person!"

"What's going on with you?"

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rosa ! 

   ❛    how   fascinating   !   I  don’t   believe   I’ve   ever  met  a woman   possessing   a   career   so  traditionally   masculine. though,   I   confess   —-   my  association with  ladies is quite limited  to  nuns and the young women who resided alongside myself at the seminary.   ❜

&&. @goodstcry

                    ❝ traditionally masculine ? ❞

alice can't help but raise her eyebrow at that. true, there aren't very many women in the workplace, particularly in her position -- she's one of the few female editors-in-chief in america --  but, STILL... she doesn't see herself as being masculine.

       she's just a person, doing her job.

                    ❝ i do believe that women can be                        just as efficient, hardworking and                         effective as men, in any job.  ❞

[goodstcry-blog]

even though i stumble, even though i fall, you’ll never see me crumble, you’ll never see me CRAWL. 

             INDEPENDENT AND SELECTIVE ALICE MURPHY FROM BRIGHT STAR.                             WRITTEN BY BEE, ESTABLISHED JULY OF 2016.

[goodstcry-blog]

anya ! 

   ❛    —— i don’t –

she trailed off, knowing that her situation was just a tad too complicated to explain to anyone, really.  better to just keep it to herself, and assume that it was the first time she had ever left russia.     for all   she knew, that was the case.

    ❛    —— yeah. it is. 

                    ❝ you're from russia, right ? what's it                        like, 'ya know... over there ? must                        be real different from here. ❞

alice was just a POOR COUNTRY GIRL from the backwaters of north carolina -- she had never even left the state before coming here.

she wanted to hear more about the  world, to explore places far beyond zebulon --

              and this was her CHANCE. 

[goodstcry-blog]

i'm making an indie for mary jane watson with a liza soberano fc !! my tags don't currently work and i haven't finished the pages and such, but follow @watsoniisms !!

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The Office sentence meme

❝ I’m going to make this way harder than it needs to be. ❞

❝ Who says exactly what they’re thinking? What kind of game is that? ❞

❝ Speaking of funerals… why don’t you go ahead and die? ❞

❝ You took a life here today. You did. The life of the party. ❞

❝ Please don’t throw garbage at me. ❞

❝ Well, well, well… how the turn tables. ❞

❝ Just Do It. You were the “it” that I was just doing. ❞

❝ Decent people everywhere will get offended. ❞

❝ I am running away from my responsibilities. And it feels good. ❞

❝ Who am I? I’m [name], the business bitch. ❞

❝ Oh, speaking of time machines… I just got back from the future and I went to your funeral, and guess what? Nobody came. ❞

❝ I never smile if I can help it. ❞

❝ This is a dream I’ve been having since lunch, and I am not giving up on it now. ❞

❝ If you pray enough, you can change yourself into a cat person. ❞

❝ Occasionally, I will hit someone with my car. So sue me. ❞

❝ I really enjoy being judged. ❞

❝ Friends joke with one another. ‘Hey, you’re poor.’ ‘Hey, your momma’s dead.’ That’s what friends do. ❞

❝ I don’t talk trash, I talk smack. They’re totally different. ❞

❝ They’re trying to make me an escape goat. ❞

❝ If I don’t have some cake soon I might die. ❞

❝ Your mom, you gay nerd! ❞

❝ I don’t want to blame anyone in particular… I think everyone’s to blame. ❞

❝ Do I need to be liked? Absolutely not. I like to be liked. I enjoy being liked. I have to be liked. But it’s not like this compulsive need to be liked. Like my need to be praised. ❞

❝ Is this a video conference you’re having with… “Drake” featuring “Swizz Beatz”? ❞

❝ Should have burned this place down when I had the chance. ❞

❝ Nobody does anything for me anymore unless I threaten to kill myself. ❞

❝ So everyone here knows pirate code? ❞

❝ Your internet searches were so filthy we had to throw out your computer. ❞

❝ I have the worst attitude of anyone here. ❞

❝ And I knew exactly what to do, but in a much more real sense I had no idea what to do.  ❞

❝ What is so stupid about wanting to name a baby Usher? ❞

❝ I have a lot of questions. Number one: how dare you?! ❞

❝ You’re always saying there’s something wrong with society, but maybe it’s something wrong with you. ❞

❝ I talk a lot, so I’ve learned to just tune myself out. ❞

[ellenpagehelps-blog]

Does your muse

eat pizza bites while they’re hot OR wait for them to cool

come to a complete stop at stop signs OR does a california roll

set their alarm clock for the time they actually will wake up OR set it early and hit snooze a bunch

fall asleep on their phone/laptop OR stop using electronics an hour before bedtime

floss twice a day OR only floss the week before they go to the dentist

hold their jacket in their lap until everyone is boarded OR put it into the overhead compartment right away

run straight into the ocean OR slowly let their body adjust to cold water

run marathons OR marathons TV shows

consider french fries to count as a veggie OR make sure they have something green on their plate

set a timer when cooking OR constantly check and taste until it seems good

[goodstcry-blog]

☼

❂ accepting ! 

☼ ;; favorite time of the day ! 

growing up in zebulon, alice always loved MORNINGS. she loved waking up to a new day, sitting on the porch with a biscuit and watching the sun rise over the fields. even though the rooster's morning wake up call was always a little annoying and the walk to school long and tiring, especially on bare feet, alice has always loved north carolina mornings. even as she grew older, in her dorm room in chapel hill and then as editor-in-chief at the asheville southern journal, she made it a point almost everyday to wake up early and watch the sun rise -- with a cup of black coffee in hand, of course.

there's a certain beauty to north carolina mornings that never fails to take her breath away. it's one of the many reasons why alice has never had the heart to leave.