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she/her/hers 18+ please please please tag your triggering posts for those of us who are trying to recover!! this is my vent page. i do not wish any of the fucked up things i post upon you, this is just me being ferally ill on the internet repost, but do not save or otherwise use pictures of me.

[gorecorebaby]

hey fellas

i both unabashedly and rather shamefully incredibly raw and disgusting here

that being said, i would ask that minors do not browse my blog, please

this blog may talk about things that may be very triggering for a lot of people

these things might be..

• sexual assault

• self harm

• disordered eating

• familial trauma

• fucked up toxic adult romantic/sexual relationships

• dissociative themes

• a lot of trauma dumping and some really TMI shit

PLEASE TAG SELF HARM PHOTOS AND GURO

please tag all of your sensitive posts. i won’t ask you to not post them, please just tag them so i can censor/filter things that will really really not be good for me out

As for my blog, I ask that you please consider how this will affect you. I want you to take care of yourself. You do not deserve to feel so poor. You are loved; I have love for you.

[gorecorebaby]

the fucking brain worms want me to hurt myself so fucking bad oh my god i feel insane

i am PMSing so fucking hard

i haven’t been truly suicidal in monthssssss but i literally want to bash my head in with a hammer

i want to fucking die dear lord

i wanna hurt myself so fuckin bad

[gorecorebaby]

2 beers on an empty stomach, gay vampire show, & texting my ex 🤞

[gorecorebaby]

shoulda broken up with her the moment i found myself praying my coochie wouldn’t smell like hers after scissoring

[fairycosmos]

the way that the way youre rasied really does impact you forever. LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[kosmogrl]

I never got over anything. I miss everyone and everything. nostalgia and grief kill me every day. oh and I also love going on walks.

[kosmogrl]

[malibuklaus]

[gorecorebaby]

old pictures of my old body and my open cuts are so triggering in such an appealing way

it makes me want to cut again

it makes me so comfortable and so so scared to get so sick again

[knifeslidez]

THAT GIRL'S NOT RIGHT IN THE BRAIN

[hysblade]

Relationship where you're my God and I'm your favourite (and only) follower

[gorecorebaby]

at this point, i want someone who will beat my ass and then coddle and console me and love bomb and make me feel insane in that way

i have a very hard time understanding arguments without getting hit sometimes

and i KNOW i KNOW I KNOWWWW that that is something that needs to change, but there is a little, immature, child-like creature inside of me that just wants to be hit and get it over with

just tell me i’m being bad and punish me for it so we can move on

[gorecorebaby]

lesbianism is hell

dating is hell

these bitches are insane and make me feel absolutely insane

[gorecorebaby]

venting on the vent account, tw sex/sa mentions ?

i am a sugar baby & i only somewhat jokingly consider myself straight 4 pay, meaning, i am a lesbian, i have no particular interest in men, but i am willing to put up with this one for the great amount of financial support that he gives me

i don’t know if i would consider it sex work; sex is only a very small portion of the time that we spend together, and it is something that i willingly, if begrudgingly, consent to

but man

my coochie is so sore in such a non-sexy way

he wanted me to say freaky stuff to him last night, so i told him i wanted him to fuck me sore, but i meant like bruised inside. instead, i am just like rug burn sore on the outside because even after asking multiple times and telling him i needed better lubrication on the outside, he still just keep doing what was comfortable and seemed fine for him, and now i’m so sore on the outside and so so so uncomfortable

it’s already a weird thing to process having sex with a man and the dynamic of sugar dating, but usually i can just kinda remove myself from the sex parts of it. but now i have this disgusting and uncomfortable physical reminder, and i feel kind of violated

i don’t usually care about the whole “being used” thing, because it’s lowkey so straight forward, there’s not a whole lot of pussyfooting around it, but for whatever reason, this has me kind of actually upset

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

you are allowed to miss and love people who you’ll never go back to

[gorecorebaby]

the last 24hrs have been absolutely ridiculous and now i am single

[iluvsatc]

[pagliahater]

[art-is-art-is-art]

Chekhov wrote it before Camus

[andysambcrg]

- Douglas Adams, The Long Dark Tea-Time of the Soul