This is 100% me
if this is you, you absolutely NEED to start reading transfeminist theory and spending time with other trans women. your self esteem is this low because transmisogyny is an omnipresent danger that degrades and punishes our mere existence so much that you'll accept anyone who gives you the smallest crumb of affection, no matter how bad they are for you. this makes you extremely susceptible to being abused in all of your relationships, and possibly worse. you do not have to accept crumbs from people who don't genuinely care about you. you are a human being, and you deserve respect and dignity. people should not tolerate you; they should be grateful that you're willing to extend your time and attention to them. educate yourself on transmisogyny, ally with your sisters, and demand respect from others. this used to be me, and I promise you that when you begin standing up for yourself, you will form relationships with bonds so deep that you'll wonder how you ever used to let people walk all over you like this.
