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I'm just going to leave Tumblr

I likely won't be back

I genuinely forgot about what happened over a month back, and therefore hadn't accounted it.

But I have grown, learned, but now I should leave

I got online and still was inexperienced and hurtful

But still, not all the accusations are true

Ok, so I have been notified of the accusations, and first off, she actually started this all. I can't provide screenshots (unlike her, I actually respect her privacy. But if I have no choice, I will) but when I brought back up an idea, that she was actually ok with and even asked if she wanted to see it, she came at me with rage rants and all caps. The toxicity sparked from her, not me. And the accusation of being friends with someone's groomer genuinely made me sick, scared, and disgusting. Because the thing is, I have been groomed when I was the age of 12. And the thought of lying to someone and befriending someone's groomer just makes me feel like a monster, even though it isn't true.

Now another thing is I wasn't stealing Vian's work, I was inspired by people at my school having similar names to characters, and was following the multifandom crossover trend. As Vian's work wasn't the only one. There's other users to write things like they had, as multifandom crossovers are actual existing trends. But it only was wrong when I made one.

Another thing is it feels more like this is her taking out anger on me. Cause the entire ranting and blaming just felt so out of character. And might I add, she never actually told me what kinds of ideas she's ok with or not, so I genuinely didn't know. Cause she just said "ideas"

The person who sent her the screenshots is one I even trusted, and vented to. But it's actually fucked up how she went as far to take screenshots of a conversation I had with someone who I was venting to. Probably saying I was 'playing victim' but it's just I overly apologize. It's how I apologize, and I never knew it would be used against me.

And something I must say as well is how, because of her post of targeting me, I don't just feel unsafe online, but everywhere else. I even had to ask the few friends I have from before the argument they wouldn't turn on me. Because developing trust issues when I usually am very trusting should actually be saying something, as the accusations just got to my head, and I genuinely was afraid someone would believe them and I'll be hunted down.

Another reason I feel she's tracking me is how her post of how I'm "dangerous" was made in August 13. But only five hours after I made the first post on The Academy of Wonder sideblog, she linked it and put "don't harass" and "tell her how wrong it is" in the same line. Which for my mom, shouts planned assault.

I haven't even been doing well with trying not to overthink about everything, because unlike the monster she labels me, I actually have been getting sick and hungry. Because I felt dying would bring me peace, I honestly felt that. But now, instead, I aim to inform.

I hope this clears some stuff up. And if it's already not obvious enough, this post ONLY aims to just inform. Do not pester, harass, or anything like that of those I mentioned. Thank you for reading.

Hiatus

I'm going to take a break from Tumblr and likely my other social medias. I didn't mean to hurt anyone, steal anyone's idea, none of that. This was just my own idea, it popped into my head, it was my coping. It hurts being accused, but I will be honest, I didn't think I was actually stealing someone else's work. There's other storylines made by other people of crossovers, but that doesn't seem to matter.

I know this exact post is what could cause things to escalate, and maybe even give them what they want, but I don't care anymore.

Nothing even matters anymore, it doesn't matter if it's original, it doesn't matter if I try making it as separate as I can, it doesn't matter if it has it's own storyline and everything. Nothing.

So I will just write the storyline The Academy of Wonder was going to go through, since I'll likely won't continue it...

A deity created the academy, no one seems to remember why they were even there. This thing, The Principal, feeds on their memories. You arrived from reality, you couldn't believe you're there. But everyone... Is acting weird. You later find this thing feeds on their memories... But one night, the janitor found your sketchbook, and saw one of the sketches. He got a terrible headache, and remembered everything. No one has seen him, not even the crazy janitor. Then he finally showed up, only thing is, he seemed mad. And cue a rebellion against The Principal. But once defeated, the entire school collapsed, you tried saving him, the janitor, the first friend you made... But you wake up. It was really all a dream.

I hope this is what you want.