A whole-ass essay on why I think thereās always been something going on between 2D and Murdoc. (I donāt really ship it though)
I donāt exactly ship 2D and Murdoc, as Iām well aware of how problematic the ship is. But I canāt help but observe some romantic undertones within their relationship. Some songs, particularly from Plastic Beach and The Now Now, albums written by Murdoc and 2D respectively, really imply something between these two, at least in my opinion. To reiterate I donāt ship it, I just find the relationship they have really interesting and complex and Iād like to share how I interpret some of their songs and why. Starting with Plastic Beach:
On Melancholy hill
āWhere you canāt get what you want, but you can get me.ā Murdoc has taken 2D to this island against his will. 2D canāt get what he wants anymore, his only company is Murdoc, so itās almost like Murdoc is saying āHey donāt be miserable youāve got me!ā. Again I know their relationship isnāt healthy, especially in this phase, I just see it as Murdoc desperately clinging to 2D. In a way, heās always clung to 2D. Not to discredit Noodle and Russel or their importance to Murdoc (Gorillaz wouldnāt be Gorillaz without them), but Murdoc replaces the both of them in phase three, Ā i.e. Cyborg Noodle and the drum machine. He replaces them with two machines. A lot of Plastic beach is about technology and its consumption of humanity. 2D is Murdocās only source of humanity anymore, heās the only thing Murdoc can cling to anymore, thatās why I believe a lot of these romantically tinged songs are about the two of them. On Melancholy hill, Broken and To Binge, all seem to be about Murdocās uncertainty and fear regarding his relationship with someone. He seems upset, almost hopeless; he knows heās ruining the only relationship he has left and he doesnāt know what to do. The only person heās in contact with during this phase is 2D.Ā
So with the line āSo letās set out to sea (love.)ā who else within the canon could he be referring to? Sure you could argue itās some unknown love interest but why would it be and whereās the fun in that? The only other meaningful relationships heās had (that WE know of) are with his band members. Not only that, but Plastic Beach was a very story-focused phase. So sure, it could be about some random woman, or it could just be something to do with Damon, but why would that be the case when the album was explicitly stated to have been written by Murdoc. Just because Damon wrote it, it doesnāt mean itās not about the characters as well. And I feel like On Melancholy hill, along with the music video is all heavily tied to Murdoc as a character, with the Plastic Beach imagery i.e. the āPlastic treeā
Ā So yeah, the only person Murdoc is setting out to sea with is 2D. His uncertainty and fear over losing 2D is clear in the line āAre you here with me?ā, almost like heās scared 2D will leave him (not that he can). And itās a bit of a stretch but Iāve always thought the way 2D sings āWhen youāre close to me,ā sounds a bit like āWhen youāre close, 2-D.ā
Theyāre dependent on each other to an unhealthy level. And with the romantic nature of the songs, combined other suggestive moments between the two, I canāt help but view them in a non-platonic way. Again I donāt ship it, I donāt think theyāre cute or that they should be together at all, I just think thereās something there thatās more than just friendship.
To Binge
This song is about Murdocās dependency on alcohol and how itās further damaged his relationship with someone.
āIāll wait to be forgiven, Maybe I never willā ā Murdoc knows heās treated this person badly, and to be fair, he could be referring to any of the bandmembers with only this line. However, heās notably treated 2D the worst. I think the rest of the song helps solidify it being about 2D though.
āMy star has left me. To take the bitter pillā ā 2D is the frontman of Gorillaz, the star, the āblue-haired, black-eyed god.ā And he has an addiction to painkillers; itās something brought up in this phase especially. Itās like Murdoc knows once Plastic beach is done, 2D will leave. At this point, Murdoc has well and truly screwed up their relationship.
āThat shattered feeling. Well, the cause of itās a lesson learnedā ā Murdoc regrets what he has done, he decides he wonāt make the same mistake again. Notably, Murdoc seems to have calmed down a lot in the following phases. He keeps saying heās a changed man, especially towards the end of phase 5 and in what weāve seen so far in phase 6. It could also be referring to his alcoholism during this phase, using the word āshatteredā and all, something that likely amped up his maltreatment of 2D, the only other person he was with at the time.
āIām caught again in the mystery. Youāre by my side but are you still with me?ā ā 2D is the only bandmember that is still with him, literally there by his side. But Murdoc is confused, heās asking if 2D still WANTS to be here. Deep down Murdoc probably knows that his band is falling apart, that 2D is only here because heās got no other choice. Deep down the thought of this hurts Murdoc. He may also be acknowledging 2Dās drugged up state. Heās probably high on painkillers, numb to emotions e.c.t., so does he really want to be here? Is the 2D he knew even in there anymore, or is he long gone because of drugs? Is he only here because he canāt be anywhere else in his intoxicated state?
āBut I just have to tell you that I love you so much these days. Have to tell you that I love you so much these days, itās trueā ā What are āthese daysā? Are they the days on Plastic Beach? We know 2D is the only person he can see/speak to anymore. Murdoc sounds almost desperate, heartbroken even; he knows heās messed things up. Before this, he seems fairly calm and collected, but this line comes across as really emotional like heās finally breaking down. The āitās trueā part sounds like heās only just realised what 2D really means to him, or like heās trying to convince 2D that he truly means what heās saying. Now that 2D seems to be drifting away from him heās realised what heās become, heās seen how his alcoholism has made things worse for them. Only now heās caught in a spiral. Heās overly dependant on 2D (he always has been to be fair), and alcohol, so heās stuck in this downward spiral of hurting others and himself because he canāt bring himself to let go of one of them. āMy heart is in economy. Due to this autonomy. Rolling in and caught again.ā
Broken
Broken is fairly similar to the previous two songs, in terms of its exploration of a relationship deteriorating. I wonāt get too deep into it as I think itās less connected to 2D and Murdoc compared to the other two, and Iāll just be covering the same ground anyway.
āThereās nothing you can say to him. He is in outer heart. And the space has been broken.ā ā Murdoc feels like heās well and truly driven this person away. He feels like he canāt say enough to undo the things he has done to them.
āItās Broken. Our love. Broken.ā ā Plastic Beach was hard on all the characters. 2Dās painkiller addiction, Murdocās alcoholism. Plastic Beach broke them. It reminds me of the line āDo I pick it up when I know that itās broken,ā in Humility. Here, Murdoc believes he cannot make it up to 2D, he thinks that theyāll never be the same again. However, in Humility, it seems as though 2D is actually considering mending their relationship.
Speaking of Humility, now Iām moving onto The Now Now:
Humility
This one is quite self-explanatory, with Murdoc gone 2D initially feels as though a weight has been lifted off his shoulders. But in the end itās not that simple.
āCause right now thatās the ball where we be chainedā ā A ball and chain is often used as an offensive term to describe someoneās relationship. It means that that person feels weighed down by their romantic partner. Not only that, but balls and chains are used to weigh down prisoners. And whose in prison during most of this album? Murdoc. So, I interpret this part of the song as 2D feeling as though heās finally free from his oppressive relationship with Murdoc (not saying they were explicitly in a romantic relationship, just that their relationship has a non-platonic element to it.)
āAnd if youāre coming back to find me, Youād better have good aimā āHe expects to meet this person again. To me, Murdoc is overly attached to his band, especially 2D, as Iāve argued was the case in phase three. So 2D knows Murdoc will hunt him down again, just as he always has. Only this time 2D wants to be treated better. And whoās been trying to appear as though heās changed in phase 6? Yup, so maybe Murdoc actually has taken 2Dās message to heart. And I got this from genius.com but this imagery of shooting i.e. āaimā and later on in the song āshoot it trueā, has connotations with Cupid, which only furthers this romantic element to the song.
āIām the lonely twin, the left hand. Reset myself and get back on track. Shoot it true, I need you in the picture. Thatās why Iām calling you.ā -2D feels lost, lonely, without this other person. Like a pair of hands, or twins, they work best together, they can cope without each other but as only the āleft handā 2D feels like heās missing something. Theyāve been with each other from the very beginning, even before Russel and Noodle joined and they were the only members present to make the album in phase three. Their relationship has always been at the forefront of things when the bandmembers are concerned; theyāre always together in interviews e.c.t. Ā so itās like theyāve formed this dependency on each other. And since only one person is absent during this phase and suddenly 2D is singing about missing someone, I donāt see how he could be referring to anybody else. Despite everything theyāve been through, he needs Murdoc back (I need you in the picture), but more importantly he WANTS Murdoc back (I want you in the picture), just so long as things change. He doesnāt want to drop Murdoc entirely (or at least he canāt bring himself to do it so frivolously), not after everything theyāve gone through. And so far, it seems as though Murdoc actually has been taking those steps to improve, which is interesting.
āIf I pick it up when I know that itās broken. Do I put it back. Or do I head out onto the lonesome trail and let you goā- Despite wanting this person back. 2D is still conflicted. He knows it might not be the best idea to let Murdoc back into his life because he knows their relationship is unhealthy, āBrokenā, but heās still attached to him. Does he want to go off on his own as the āleft handā without its right? Can he?
Of course, the song could have multiple other meanings too, but the good thing about music, or anything really, is that people who write it can be clever and make it so these meanings coexist.
Fire flies
This song really explores the ugly side of a relationship. A relationship 2D is desperately clinging to.
āYou were in the kind of game that put the force in meā -the person heās singing about was a forceful person? This line kind of confuses me, but thatās the main way I see it. This person maybe took him out of his comfort zone (uhh, kidnapped himā¦), made it so it was their way or the highway. 2D feels like theyāre playing some sort of game maybe? That the status of their relationship confuses him? Was any of it ever real to the other person?
āI was ever chasing firefliesā- The relationship is damaged, ugly even, but heās still clinging to these little glimmers of hope within the darkness. Despite everything, they have had good moments together. Interestingly enough, the line āSometimes I follow a firefly, It takes me into the nightā, in 2Dās journal is also written as āSometimes I follow a firefly HE takes me into the nightā. I dunno, I just find use of the male pronoun interesting, as though its hinting at the identity of the person heās singing about. 2D has only ever been in relationships with women, to our knowledge anyway and his most significant relationship with a male character is of course with Murdoc. So, given that Humility and Souk eye are more blatantly about Murdoc, I donāt think itās too big of a stretch to say this song is also likely about him too, especially now that their separation gives 2D space to reflect upon things.
Iām love drunk, Iām sorry. Am I losing you?- This line is written as āI got drunkā in 2Dās journal, so Iām not sure which version is right, maybe theyāre both right I donāt know. But from this version of the line, it seems as though the love 2D has for this person is clouding his judgment, heās begun to ignore their faults and blame himself for everything because heās so afraid of losing them. Some people believe 2D had something to do with Murdocās imprisonment, so the āsorryā could be in reference to that. The āAm I losing you?ā part could mean heās worried that now Murdoc is imprisoned the fate of them is sealed, heās lost him for good in a physical sense (i.e. maybe heāll never see Murdoc again). It could also be about how their relationship had deteriorated over the years, mostly because of the whole Plastic beach ordeal. He feels as though the person he loved, has slowly disappeared, which is why heās grasping at the good times, the āfireflies.ā
On the page for Fire Flies, 2D wrote āYou were/are ever-present.ā To me, this is in reference to how Murdoc has always been this looming omnipresent figure in his life. Ever since they met, theyāve never really been apart, not like this, with Murdoc locked up and 2D free to make his own album. Even now that Murdoc isnāt here, a lot of the songs in The Now Now are haunted by him; 2D cant get Murdoc out of his head, which is something further supported by the various pictures of Murdoc in his journal and him writing āWhere have you goneā under a broken Free Murdoc sticker. It could just be Murdoc being his self-obsessed self, but even he seems to realise that some of the album was inspired by his absence.
Souk eye
Okay, so Iām pretty sure most people agree that this song is about Murdoc. I mean, the visualizers during the live performances of Souk eye, depict Murdoc specifically. Thereās a lot to unpack in this song.
āLA why youāre so complicated for meā- If weāre looking at this as him really referring to a relationship then the word ācomplicatedā, couldnāt sum up what he and Murdoc are any better. Are they enemies? Colleagues? Friends? More? Does he still love Murdoc? If he does then he finds it difficult to grasp the idea of it against all the things Murdoc has put him through.
āWaiting on the planet to turn to me, dark sideā ā got this from genius again, but this person is his whole world, so heās waiting for them to acknowledge him. Itās like heās expecting this person to come back to him (Murdoc always comes back). Now the ādark sideā bit Iām not as sure on, maybe he means that this person has a dark side? Or that heās waiting for this person to turn to him, but heās the dark side of the moon, meaning heāll never truly be seen by them? Iām not entirely sure.
āIf loving youās a felony now, then Iām a renegade, ridingā- Now given he fact Murdoc is in prison at the time of him writing this, it strongly suggests that heās referring to Murdoc. In 2Dās journal, thereās a little drawing of a black car with two people in it and a drawing of what appears to be a shark. Iām sure this is a reference to Stylo, where the two of them were literally in a police chase, hence the āridingā part of the song. 2D knows loving Murdoc after everything theyāve gone through is wrong, he likens it to committing a felony, but he canāt help it, heād abandon everything to be with him again.
Ā āTrying to find tomorrow aināt easy ātil you dive in⦠Why you rolling waves over me now, thatās all I need, dreamingā -This imagery of water may be alluding to their time on Plastic beach. Everything was overwhelming and extreme there. 2D has to go to the extreme and ādive inā when it comes to Murdoc, because heās an intense person. Heās asking Murdoc why heās ārolling wavesā over him, why is he making things even more difficult than they already are? This could just be about Murdoc in general, or maybe about how the physical barrier of Murdoc being sent to prison has made it harder for them to resolve things. Still, it seems as though 2D is fighting through these waves because he wants to stay with him.
āWaiting on LA to come find me, be forgivenā -If weāre going with LA representing a person (i.e. LA why youāre so complicated to me), then it seems like 2D wants this person to find him again. Iāve gone on and on about Murdoc always finding his way back to 2D and the band over and over again. 2D wants to forgive Murdoc this time. Maybe heās telling Murdoc that heāll forgive him to GET him to come back. As established before, this person is his world, he feels lost without them, so all he feels as though he can do is wait until they return. Iām not saying this was for sure planned or anything but it makes me think back to the line āIāll wait to be forgivenā in To Binge.
āIāll be a regular guy for you, I never said Iād do that.āā Not entirely sure about the āregular guyā part, but maybe 2D is saying that he wonāt let everything go, he wonāt act regular, and pretend none of the bad things ever happened. He wants them to work through their issues. Alternatively, it could mean he wants this person back so badly that heās saying he WILL just forget about all the bad things, even though before he said he wouldnāt. This could possibly be a reference to the first song in the album, Humility, where he more clearly wants this person to change before they reunite. Maybe heās just gotten to a point where heās so desperate to see this person again, that he doesnāt care if theyāve changed or not.
āWhy you looking so beautiful to me now when you so sad?ā
2D sees this person as beautiful when they express their true emotions when they let themselves be emotionally vulnerable. I know this was written before Desole but itās interesting, that in a one-song gap, Murdoc cries. It may not have been intentional, but Murdoc does seem to express guilt over his treatment of 2D if the tweet below is anything is to go by.
2D wanted Murdoc to be sorry, and again thereās the fact that DĆ©solĆ© MEANS sorry⦠(Iām jus sayinā)⦠He sees it as ābeautifulā for godās sake. Itās not super relevant (as it was said like 15 years before this album was written) but surprisingly enough 2D has called Murdoc beautiful before, on an old forum he says, āEr⦠I donāt want to scare you Murdoc, but Iām locked in here with you. I do have a key somewhere but I canāt find it. Iāve been watching you⦠sleeping andā¦ā¦youāre quiteā¦.beautiful⦠when youāre quiet.ā Itās like 2D sees the beauty in Murdoc when heās vulnerable and not putting up some kind of front/being a dickhead.
Iāve also heard people say that the title āSouk eyeā could be a play on words for sāokay? So It could be 2D telling Murdoc that itās okay for him to express his emotions, that he wants to forgive him (be forgivenā¦) Ā
āI will always think about you. Thatās why Iām calling you back on my way throughā ā this reminds me of Humility and Fire flies. The fact 2D canāt stop thinking about this person reminds me of the āYou were/are ever-presentā in 2Dās journal. 2D canāt just forget this person, as much as he wants to sometimes. Theyāve had a huge impact on his life and haunt him even when theyāre not there physically. And it seems as though heās gotten over his indecision regarding whether or not he should keep this person in his life (as explored in Humility), because now, in the final song of the album, he IS calling them, Murdoc, back.
āI wanna stay with you for a long time; I wanna be stone, love. I wanna see LA in your eyes when Iām leaving with your loveā ā got part of this from genius- 2D wants him and the person he loves to be immortalised, he doesnāt want to be apart from them. Who else has he been separated from, for him to want to sing about this? Ā I donāt get anything super deep from the rest of it, just that this other person makes him happy, that he wants to see them happy and that he want his love for them to be reciprocated.
DƩsolƩ
Iām not sure whose perspective DĆ©solĆ© is written from, but Iām leaning towards it being from Murdocās. Anyway, the song seems to be about someone asking for forgiveness, theyāre still clinging onto a relationship despite knowing a lot has changed. Iām not sure how accurate these translations are as I used google translate. But Iām sure everybody knows by now that dĆ©solĆ© means sorry.
āDĆ©solĆ©, dĆ©solĆ©, contrebandeā- I hear contrebande, Iāve seen people say it says something else but it doesnāt sound like it to me. Anyway, contrebande means smuggling, and Murdoc was framed by El Mierda for smuggling. So itās safe to assume this song is about Murdoc in some way, at least partly. Maybe Murdoc is apologising for his misdeeds? Or if 2D had anything to do with Murdocās imprisonment, as some people theorise, it could be 2D apologising for whatever hand he had in it? We know by the end of The Now Now, that 2D seems to want Murdoc back.
āDĆ©solĆ©, Iām a long way from land. DĆ©solĆ©, I donāt knowā whatā to do. DĆ©solĆ©, dĆ©solĆ©,ā try to hold on to youā ā this line gives me Plastic beach vibes, the speaker is on water. If this is from Murdocās perspective he could be saying that he doesnāt know why heās still clinging onto this relationship. Because of the reference to water, maybe heās reflecting back upon his time on Plastic Beach, where his relationship with 2D took a turn for the worst. He screwed things up back there, but that was a long time ago, he doesnāt know why he canāt just let him go, even after all this time.
āDĆ©solĆ©, dĆ©solĆ©, compliquĆ©. DĆ©solĆ©, I donāt know what to say anymore DĆ©solĆ©, while everyone on the move. DĆ©solĆ©, dĆ©solĆ©, Iām tryinā to hold on to youā ā his relationship with this person/people is complicated. He doesnāt know where they stand anymore. Everybody seems to have moved on without him, he doesnāt know what to say to them anymore. Maybe he feels as though he canāt make anything right again, but even still, heās begging for their forgiveness. This theme of forgiveness has cropped up a lot. In āTo Bingeā, Murdoc knows that heās in the wrong, all he can do is hope that the other person forgives him, but he doesnāt know if that will ever happen. In āSouk Eyeā 2D is calling someone back into his life, someone he wants to forgive. I think you know what Iām getting at hereā¦
āDĆ©solĆ©, tous mes fantĆ“mes sont bleus. DĆ©solĆ©, dĆ©solĆ©, try to hold on to youā ā āall of my ghosts are blueāā This line really makes me feel as though itās not solely about Murdoc and the band as a whole. You could argue that this song is about Murdoc regretting how heās treated everyone in the band. About how he now feels isolated from them, like heās unneeded. And I think thatās right to a degree. I think Murdoc here is apologising to everyone, but to 2D in particular. His guilt has haunted him over the years, but his guilt, this ghost is blue. Why blue? Blue could symbolise his grief over his severed relationships, but blue is also a colour we all associate with 2D. 2D and Murdoc have always been the forefront of everything really, even in this video. Now that could be because the video is about Murdoc, and 2D just features in it a lot because heās the singer, but I think itās more than that. Itās 2D standing outside as we see the door close behind Murdoc, 2D wearing a hat like Murdocās from Plastic Beach. Then thereās On Melancholy Hill, To Binge, Broken, Humility, Fire Flies, SOUK EYE. I dunno I just feel like itās been building up to this really, or at the very least itās been building up to this since The Now Now. I think Souk Eye and DĆ©solĆ© are quite similar in a way. The word ācomplicatedā or ācompliquĆ©ā in DĆ©solĆ©ās case, are both used in regards to a relationship with someone. In both songs, 2D (or maybe Murdoc in DĆ©solĆ©), is ātrying to hold ontoā a person even though the relationship has been tough. Both songs refer to an illegal activity, i.e. a āfelonyā in Souk eye and ācontrebandeā (smuggling) in DĆ©solĆ©. I dunno I just feel like thereās something about these two.
In conclusion, I donāt ship them, at least not in the way I ship anything else. I just think the way theyāve developed as characters, together and separately is fascinating. Itās like thereās always been something more there, this underlying thing that resurfaces in weird interviews or comments or tweets or whatever, but itās this thing thatās been there a while. Theyāre not healthy, by any stretch, but that being said it looks as though theyāre on their way to mending. I dunno, Iām just interested in seeing where this thing goes, if anywhere at all. I hope you enjoyed reading this crazy mess of opinions. Again theyāre all just opinions, I could be completely wrong on everything. Anyways, I wrote over 4500 words in two days which is insane for me, Iām never motivated to write anything, I guess this has just been on my mind for a while. Good on you if you made it this far. Feel free to share your thoughts.
Aw man that was beautiful!
Dig all that you said, thanks for acknowledging that it isnāt healthy but still explaining your points well.






















