Adventures of a Modern Vampire

Spectre | 19 | shitposting cursebearer

[graveyardic]

spectre, he/it/fang. I'm 19. I'm neurodivergent.

i'm a vampire in all sense of the word. whilst most vampires appear human-ish, i'm not human and don't appreciate being referred to as such. if you wish to argue with me over it, don't! you will be landed on a block list so fast.

my rules: DNI proshippers and minors! on top of that, keep the bigotry outta here <3. again, i have a block button and no problem using it. if you feel you deserve an explanation to my rules, reach out to me! we'll see how nice i'm feeling depending on your message to me.

this blog is mostly for me to yap, think of it as a journal i share to the world. i may occasionally use it to write short stories/fanfics. if that interests you, very cool, but be respectful.

[graveyardic]

In my mind, I am at peace.

I roll in fields of flowers,

Laugh and twirl in the rain.

Externally, I’m a mess.

I have circles under my eyes,

Anxiety from seemingly nothing.

I am meant to be a shadow,

To wander the night and bathe under the moon.

To roam endlessly among the stars.

Set my soul free.

[graveyardic]

unfortunately, I was meant to be a bard who sings hopeless and hopeful ballads. unfortunately, I was meant to be a bard who wandered up and down the streets of some fantasy city, living off of laughter and whatever scraped together coin I could gather. unfortunately, I am an idealist. and that means I may not be able to live in a fantasy world, but I will make this world my fantasy in turn.

[graveyardic]

Being a vampire and a college student is so stupid. Like- you expect me to go to classes all day? I don't even get a choice for night classes?? What do you mean the fraternity I'm in is making me, the one guy allergic to the sun, play in a volleyball tournament this Saturday? What do you mean the dining hall is serving garlic bread again (i'll eat it every time...i'm great I promise.)? No, don't ask me about why my stomach is always upset after eating the well-done burgers in the caf, I don't want to talk about it.

[graveyardic]

I wake up, prepared to face the daylight. Instead, I open my velvet curtains (dorm blinds) to a sky full of clouds and the ground covered in powdery snowfall. I breathe in the cool air radiating from the window, content to lie in my black, silken pajamas (Sanrio pajama pants) and watch the flakes spiral toward the below. A day finally fit for a vampire; the air deathly cold, the trees pale, the sun hidden.

[graveyardic]

5.5 pages on vampires versus 3 general topic ideas for my dystopia lit essay due next week

[graveyardic]

there’s something so appealing about sitting in the darkness while finishing a paper. letting the void consume every part of me, minus the blue light reflecting off my face. easing back into the shadows when I’m done, crawling into my bed and falling asleep swiftly despite the urge to sit in the cold moonlight. waking up to the sun once more trying to steal the little piece of soul that remains. watching it rise but not feeling fear, rather strength knowing that I can walk in the thing meant to kill me.

[graveyardic]

the cold turns my undead face red, as if I’ve supped on blood in recent hours. I walk across campus with aim, wishing only for a silky cloak to keep me warm.

[vamplire]

introverted until someone mentions vampires. then i lose myself in the lore & become a deranged little freak.

[graveyardic]

i hate society because what do you mean i, a creature of the night, have to be functional by 10am for a college class? you're telling me i can't stay up all night and sleep while the sun tries to glare at me? you're telling me that if i'm truly nocturnal i'll never get to hang out with the beings i care about?