Totally Normal Enjoyer Of Things

Caitlin | 29 | why am I back on this hellsite

[grayscalecait]

I’m just putting this out into the void because I don’t know where else to put it and I really really really need advice-

Earlier this week, I found out that my husband had an emotional affair with a friend of his. They had reconnected over a video game and met up a couple of times in person. I found this out by reading his journal, which I did so because I was afraid of his safety as his mental health hasn’t been great lately, and I wanted to make sure he wasn’t making plans for anything.

Apparently what happened was the friend admitted they had a crush on him during their interactions, and then cut off contact. And then my husband admitted in the journal that he also had begun feeling things for this friend. And he was saying that he was ultimately glad that things were cut off because he still loves me.

However, he has continued writing in his journal about this person and how he misses talking to them and how he at one point imagined what it would be like if they had gotten married and whatnot. And tangentially was also writing about he feels like him and I have changed so much over the time we’ve been together, and how it feels like we don’t have anything in common or anything to talk about anymore.

I’m pretty sure I know how this is going to end, but it’s still so painful to think about. I don’t know if anyone has any advice or anything to add, but I just needed to get it all out there and off my chest somehow.

[raingerr]

doing a little jig

[pjharvey]

i'm reading the genius of birds by jennifer ackerman (amazing book) and today i learned that the first ever documented case of a bird making a tool to use as a weapon against another bird was a steller's jay breaking off and sharpening a stick to wield like a lance at a crow that was taking too long at a feeding station the jay also wanted to eat at. the jay tried to stab at the crow but narrowly missed, the crow lunged back, the jay dropped the stick, and the crow picked it up with the sharp end pointing towards the jay and pursued it into the trees

[pjharvey]

imagine the guy in front of you at mcdonald's is taking too long to order and so you fashion a blade on the spot and hold him at knifepoint. and then he steals your knife and points it back at you while chasing you out of the restaurant. and also the guy is twice your size

[valtsv]

"why do you keep calling things you find beautiful, inexplicable, and unsettling angels" i'm just doing what british wartime radar technicians did first

[valtsv]

it was birds btw

[valtsv]

↑ angel

[bigbosscangotohell]

years ago i watched this p/orn and the girl was screaming ‘oh god!! oh god!!!’ and the dude was like ‘there are no gods here’ and to this day it haunts me wtf was he talking about

[homunculus-argument]

Work isn't vibing with me today. Does anyone have pictures of small wild animals being gently grisped by human hands, unharmed but looking very displeased about it. Like little birds and small mammals being held like this.

[chasescookieboo]

[homunculus-argument]

I'm glad that this was the post where everyone understood the assignment. Great work from everyone in the reblogs, but you get a bonus for having two!

[todaysbird]

in 2022 may you find many seeds, nuts, berries, etc

[mjalti]

I didn’t even look at the name I was just like damn I hope so too thanks

[todaysbird]

it’s 2025 now i hope youve accumulated many seeds, nuts, and berries

[miamitu-illust]

Power meets Izutsumi the cat devil. Together they completely decimate the local wildlife..

I think they'd get along well :)

[sunnydrawzzz]

Get that man 🔥🐈‍⬛

[birdwarde]

Keith Haring Gull!

idea from my friend @ TheBirdist on twitter! i'll be selling stickers with all $ going to a new england queer charity soon

[dinosaurcharcuterie]

"What am I supposed to do if I want to do something I can't? Just not use AI?"

1. Yes.

2. Ask for help.

[susanoos-wife]

Doves, by Tanaka Gekko

[smooththegoofyshark]

🌻🌼🌷🌸🏵️🌹🌺💐🍀

Some flowers for anyone not feeling their best today

[tostadart]

Since it’s getting colder, he’s some Rengokus being walking heaters

[cursesandcrows]

Me for the last 15 years: im a bit burnt out rn but im sure next week will be different

[grayscalecait]

It sucks because if a friend or client told me about things their partner did to them and it was the stuff my husband does to me I would tell them to leave their ass, but I truly don’t think I can do any better. I don’t think I’ll ever find someone, so might as well just deal with it until I die

[bloodbranches]

I wish I had real friends. I wanna hang out in someone's bedroom. I want someone to randomly call me. I want to get a text when I'm bored at home that they're parked outside my house. I want to be surprised on my birthday. I want to be taken to a random parking lot in the middle of the night when we're getting rowdy. I want to be invited to lunch on weekends. I wish I mattered that much to anyone.

[grayscalecait]

What do I have to do to get people to want to be around me, I don’t understand what I’m doing wrong. I try to be nice, I try to listen and be there and I just feel like I never have anyone care in return