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simoanes‌:

Gray’s different ideas were bouncing against each other and it was heightening Simone’s anxiety over the confrontation she was considering having with Val. She moved towards him, and then covered his mouth with her hands, “Okay, okay, stop!” She felt a little winded from the movement, and also because the idea of Val liking her back was making her heart go thump thump thump up to her throat. “I don’t want to hope for nothing, Gray, just—” She shook her head, “Shush, shush, don’t get my hopes up.” She then rested her head against her friend’s shoulder and then wrapped her arms around his. 

“Look, I rather have you talk about this person you made out with, who is it?” She would added whomst but she knew how Grayson was basically a grandpa and still lived in the eighties or something. “Was it great, do you like them?” Having to hear Gray’s new experiences was a welcome distraction, but who was Simone kidding, Val’s literally always in her mind, but she could pretend she isn’t, for the mean time at least. “Did you use tongue?” Totally middle school questions, since she didn’t want to overwhelm Gray that much.

      He was suddenly cut off from his words, his eyes rounding as he looked down to simone. he could feel her anxiety radiating off of her. “ i’m sorry, ” he mumbled, feeling slightly bad for not being more helpful. he welcomed her hug, wrapping his arms around her back. “ just know, no matter what, it will be okay. you’re an amazing person who deserves the whole universe. i’ve never really felt this way so i can’t compare, but─ just know im here okay? “ he said, hoping his overly soft words would ease her somehow. 

      he scratched the back of his neck before he finally made eye contact with her, “oh uh,” he paused, “it was gabriel.” grayson was in no way ashamed, but he hadn’t quiet told anyone about his attraction to men. he knew it wouldn’t be a big deal, but to him it still was. he bit down on his lip, looking to his lap. “it was good, a little intense for a first kiss. the first time i just thank ‘thanks’ and ran out like an idiot.” he said, a smile forming on his lips. “but, he’s really cool. not pressuring me at all, it’s nice.” 

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d, i, c, k

D- Have you ever dated anyone?

“ not unless you can gabby in 7th grade, it only lasted a month.  “

I- What are your interests?

“ space. conspiracy theories, reading, physics, and space. “

C- Do you have a crush/who is it?

“ i believe crushes should be called ‘infatuations’ since thats all they usually are. chemical reactions. did you know you’re basically on a ‘high’ the first two years of a relationship? it’s because the extra amount of endorphins released when being around them. “

K- How many times have you been kissed?

already answered

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rivcrz‌:

      it wasn’t exactly his first time being left wanting and needing a release this badly, but it was the first time where he had to held it back for a while. he couldn’t just excuse himself and go to the bathroom to find a way out himself, so his mind kept replaying scenes that would turn him off – hopefully for the rest of the night. his eyes kept looking at him though. watching his mouth move and his tongue occasionally wet his bottom lip. his hands move and his bulge never disappearing like his did in slow motion like in movies. gab had control of his body, gray was only starting to find out how everything worked. it was a little amusing to him, cute even. he nodded as he listened to him talk, it was so important for gray to tell gab how he felt, what scared him and what made him stop when they made out. gab wasn’t on a rush to fuck him despite his body needs, but even then, he felt like it was a big deal and he absolutely needed to be the best he could be for grayson’s sake. there was no question that it’d hurt, but truthfully, gab didn’t exactly know how much as he’d never been on the receiving end. he was a top, that was it. “well…look, i won’t lie to you. it’s going to hurt. of course there are things i can do to make it better and things we can do together that will take your mind slightly off the pain but that’s something you can’t escape from. it’s important that you feel comfortable with me and relaxed most of all, if we do everything right there’s a chance you might not even have the time to think about that.” he explained, casually, not wanting to sound like he was making a big deal out of it to not make grayson feel embarrassed. “technically, you’re not going to be doing much, i’ll be doing most of the work…and i can coach you through your bit of it. you know how practice makes it perfect?  i have no problem practicing,” he teased, chuckling lightly. “of course i did. personally, i like having sex with girls and my first time was with a girl. i’d understand if you’d like for yours to be the same way.” gab wasn’t exactly sure of what gray was into, but he wanted to lay every possibility on the table for him. it was his body, his decision. “ooh, you know how to pleasure a guy huh? ” he smirked, struggling to pull himself away long enough to run to the kitchen to grab them beers, bringing a bag of chips too in case he wanted a snack. sitting back on the bed, he gave grayson his beer and opened the chips, leaving it between them in the bed as he took a sip himself. “have you ever watched gay porn? ” he asked amused, looking straight at him.

      He hoped what he was explaining made sense, he had never really talked about sex. whenever he did, he instantly became the same young middle school boy back in sex education. unsure, awkward, and squeamish. some deep, hidden thought in his mind almost wanted to be a virgin forever. it’d be easier to never worry about it, than to do it. yet here he was erect, wishing he was doing just that with the man sitting next to him. to scared to do so. grayson couldn’t help but stare at his lap while gab talked, mostly to hide his embarrassment. even though he was talking about it hurting, the thought of being with him like that fired his brain up. he quickly tried to push the thoughts away, no matter how hard it was with him being so close. “i guess worrying about it really isn’t the way to approach all of this, obviously if people do it, it doesn’t hurt all that bad.” he said, smiling at his lap, trying to keep his thoughts at ease. even if the topic was doing everything but. “practice does make perfect, you have a point.” he said lightly, his brown orbs finally leaving his lap as the traced over to him. his mouth started to speak before he could think, “but i want it to be with you,” he said softly, no doubt in his words. grayson hoped his face hadn’t got too red, hoping what he said didn’t sound lame either. something he was constantly worrying about around gabriel. something he usually didn’t worry about. losing his virginity wasn’t something he ever wanted to plan, and to him, it didn’t really matter what gender it was with. as long as it felt right to him. and he felt right. grayson’s lips pulled into a smile, even through his blush. “you know what i mean,” he said, watching him walk to the kitchen. “i’m a guy so, i know what i like─ so it must be at least similar to what other guys would?” he said, almost in a question. he was sure most guys liked the same things, not that he knew much outside of just jerking off. he continued to wet his bottom lip before he took a drink of the beer. his face almost twisting at the taste, something he was still acquiring. grayson hoped that drinking would calm his nerves. gabriel’s next question stunted him, he swallowed hard, lowering the beer down to his lap. his eyes flickered from his gaze to his lap. “uh─ yeah i have.” he said shyly, traced the rim of the beer. “i never had my own computer and i always had a fear my parents would find out if i did. so when i got to college i started to watch it. i... like it, obviously... but─ i still feel ashamed watching it.” he ended with a shrug. he didn’t really talk much about his life back home. he thought it was perfect until he came to school. then he realized how much he was sheltered, how ashamed he was of things he didn’t have to be. 

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❗ are you crushing on anyone?

“ maybe… maybe not. i’m not even sure. “

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J, K, L

J- What is the worst joke you’ve ever heard?

“ uhh.. any that’s what she said joke. mostly because we’re at an age where those should stop. “ 

K- How many times have you been kissed?

“ uhh… i’ll just say by one person. counting every time you’ve been kissed seems excessive. “

L- Are you in love?

“ definitely not. unless we’re talking about space, then yes; or nina dobrev? also yes. “

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n,u,t

N- Have you/would you ever send nudes?

“ i have never sent them. would i? probably not. ”

U- What style of underwear do you wear? 

“ uhh.. the normal kind ?? like boxer briefs? ”

T- Do you trust easily? 

“ not really. i don’t feel like everyone deserves to know all about me or my thoughts. even if they’re a close friend, there’s things i only trust with certain people. like, what i trust to tell one person isn’t the same with another. if this makes sense? ”

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g, r, a, y

G- Do you prefer boys, girls, both, or neither?

“ i would say both. ”

R- Are you right or left handed?

“ right handed. “

A- At what age did you have your first kiss?

“ uh.. 19. literally just happened. “

Y- What’s your favorite place to be? 

“ on a rooftop late at night. preferably away from the city so i can see the stars a lot better. the light’s drown the stars out. “

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Letter Ask

A- At what age did you have your first kiss? B- Have you ever been in love? C- Do you have a crush/who is it? D- Have you ever dated anyone? E- What’s the grossest thing you’ve ever done? F- Have you ever flown in a plane? G- Do you prefer boys, girls, both, or neither? H- How many times have you been in love? I- What are your interests? J- What is the worst joke you’ve ever heard? K- How many times have you been kissed? L- Are you in love? M- What’s most important to you? N- Have you/would you ever send nudes? O- How often do you cry? P- What’s the weirdest thing you’ve done in public? Q- Make up your own question R- Are you right or left handed? S- What is your weirdest sexual fantasy? T- Do you trust easily? U- What style of underwear do you wear? V- Are you a virgin? W- Who is your best friend? X- What are your exes like? Y- What’s your favorite place to be? Z- How many words can you list that start with the letter z?

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bowixi‌:

“like a week, the dude is taking advantage of me being a college student… granted he’s one too –– but still!” she knew she could always count on gray, he’s always been around when she felt like no one gave a shit. she’d never let that slip through her humorous front but she trusted that he knew. “you’re the best and come on, it’s only a little shady and oh! a cash man,” she said taking it out of his hand. “you can’t track a cash trail, you’re safe but your coffee isn’t,” the girl spoke before taking the cup out of his hand taking a long sip. “ah… could use a sugar.” 

      His eyebrows narrowed as he looked at her questionably, “may i ask why you owe him 40 bucks?” he asked curiously, while he trusted she’d never get herself into too much trouble, he cared too much not to ask. even if she were older, he felt like an older brother to her sometimes. the wise yoda to her jedi. “i better not be traced, you better wipe my prints off those twenties─ hey!” he yelped as his coffee was ripped from his hands. he yanked it back from her, a playful smile on his lips. “i make it like this so people like you won’t drink it,” he teased, bumping her with his shoulder. “you’re lucky i’m not charging you for drinking my coffee.”

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serenascng‌:

“you know what the worst part of going home for the holidays is?” serena mused to no one in particular, folding her arms across her chest, “seeing everyone you knew growing up. like, yes, jessica, i am still a ‘whore’ and, yes, i do know where you can get cheap recreational drugs in both new york and north carolina. sorry that you’ve been dating the same guy since you were fourteen, that you’re still living off the high of being the head cheerleader your junior year, and that your life is so incredibly boring that you need to side eye me as i explain how fucking amazing my life is.” she gave an overdramatic sigh before letting out a sardonic chuckle, “i really wonder what it’s like to peak in high school.” 

      He was reading a book when a voice filled his ears. looking up from the cafe table he was sitting at, he gave the girl a slightly confused look. her words were quick, almost in the form of a rant. “if i were you, i would just ignore them. you do live here now, correct? then even if they were talking, you’re hundreds of miles away. it can’t affect you here, anyway.” he said, hoping to give the girl some kind of answer. he had never ran into the problem, since grayson was someone hard to get along with. his constant uptightness and know-it-all mindset. “if you truly don’t care about high school or your hometown─ then don’t think about it. your mind wont process it anymore, so it won’t be in your thoughts.” he shrugged, taking a drink of his coffee.

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bowixi‌:

“aw shit –– i really screwed the pooch on this one,” bo said to the person next to her, shoving her hands in her front pocket. “but hey, listen! i was wondering how you would feel about a limited time offer of –– get this, lending me money! not too much money just like, forty bucks! i owe this guy some cash and the prick put interest on it so tomorrow its going to be fifty. i promise i’ll pay you back.. not like i promised to pay this other dude and bailed… like i really really mean it,” the girl rambled as she swayed back and forth. “so,” she softly nudged them with her elbow, raising her brow. “what do ya say?” 

      He walked to the side of bo, sipping on his coffee. wasn’t soon after his eyebrows rose, a smile forming on his lips as he shook his head. “he’s taxing you? how long have you owed it to him?” he asked, visibly amused by the conversation. he knew bo pretty well, and she often got herself stuck in sticky situations. “i’ll lend you the money, but if this anything shady─” he paused, pointing to her. “i don’t know you or anything about it.” he teased, pulling out his wallet before handing her two twenties. 

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rivcrz‌:

      the mixed signals he was always getting from grayson drove him insane. he started the kiss and he touched him like he wanted him. turned him on and kissed his neck. gave him a hard on and let his tongue tangle in gab’s, but then at the last minute left him hanging, pushed him away like he didn’t actually want this as much as a few seconds ago. while gab was trying to be understanding, he didn’t actually know how much of this teasing he could handle before he was saying something he shouldn’t. his mind raced on thoughts that would take his boner away, something gross, his father and his mom attempting to show affection, in fact the thought of his mom was already enough. slowly but surely he’d be able to get rid of it. “i know  you don’t mean to be a tease…doesn’t mean you’re not one.” he teased, offering a small smile as he shrugged. “you didn’t have to go for my neck like that, but you did. that’s being a tease.” his words were light and harmless. he never wanted to offend grayson with that because he knew how much of a sensitive subject it could be. “i get it, okay?  i know you get nervous about these things and that you’ve never been with boys before or anyone, right?  i’ve been there,” he explained, eyes narrowing teasingly. “we should talk about what makes you nervous about this. i’m sure you’ve seen gay porn before, are you afraid it’s going to hurt or you’re not sure that you want to do this with me  because i’m a guy?  would you like to try it with a girl first? ” he questioned him, not wanting to scare him away but sure that communication was important. his hand rested on his cheek, his thumb stroking his cheek gently as he leaned forward to peck his lips gently. “get the fuck out of my dorm right now,” he teased, stealing another kiss as he chuckled lightly. “i’ll get us something to drink to cool off. would you like a juice instead of beer this time?” he offered. 

       The left side of his brain was like whirling, trying to understand what was wrong with him. he stared at his lap, cursing to himself at how stupid he was. why couldn’t he man up and do something? when he was the one who kissed him in the park, pushed it farther than it had to just now. why couldn’t his mind and body just decide and stop fighting. the corner of his mouth curved as his eyes looked to gabriel. he couldn’t be mad at him for his words, even if he were teasing, they were true. he was a tease, even if he didn’t mean it that way. “my mind was vacant at that moment, i apologize.” he said, a soft smile resting on his lips. even with gabriel’s words, he still felt stiff. still turned on, still trying to hide it. his mind still saying no, his body still saying yes. he didn’t want to move fast, but he didn’t care. a peak into his internal thoughts. he shook his head at gabriel’s question. he had held friends hands and hugged them. even cuddled in the means of comfort. but it was no way on the same level as this. he blinked hard at gabriel, his suggestion shocking him. talking about sex with anyone made him squeamish. especially with someone he had thoughts of doing the said act with. “uh─” he stumbled, “that it might hurt. because i just don’t want to suck at it. do it wrong, i guess? and did you really just ask me if i want to have sex with a girl?” he said. there was a lot of things holding him back. failure being the biggest reason. “also, having sex with a girl would be worse. at least i know how to pleasure a guy- or whatever...” he trailed, a heat rising to his cheeks. not processing his words before he said them.  a smile unintentionally forming on his lips as the others thumb caressed his cheek. the smile widening as he felt the others lips touch his. “if you say so.” he responded, teasing back to him. he was glad gabriel was keeping it as casual as he was. a part of him still shocked he didn’t really ask him to leave. grayson bit his bottom lip, his thumb fiddling. in an impulsive motion he responded, “i can drink either. a beer would be fine too.”

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niablake‌:

“ i know and like it kinda makes me angry that the universe is so goddamn big, like there’s just no way we’re ever gonna know all the secrets, least not in our lifetime. we deserve to know the secrets, grayson. ” she stated, almost demanded before a grin curved its way onto her features. “ i’m confident they’re literal light years ahead of us in intelligence, like wakanda sort of ahead. which would also explain why they’re staying away because damn i would too. ” she tsked before grabbing her iced latte and taking a sip. “ i mean, they could be hiding all sorts of things in area 51. that’s true, if so they’re definitely in china, that’s why the chinese are so smart. imagine if this is actually all just a simulation, that’d be wild.

      His brown eyes flared with passion as he spoke, the topic a known high interest of his. “sometimes, i wonder if we ever will. the universe could be limitless, and creating more every second. what we know could be totally wrong.” he said, a grin spreading onto his face. “exactly, even if they know about us. who knows if they want us to know about them. we’re a destructive species.” he nodded, the mention of area 51 firing his brain. the amount of videos and articles he had read over the topic rushed to his mind. “they have to be hiding things there. if they weren;t, it would be mentioned more. wouldn’t be so secretive and locked down.” he rambled, taking a drink of his tea. “it’s very plausible they have been to china, and egypt. the pyramids? definitely aliens.” 

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prncsjens‌:

PJ knew there was nothing much she could do to make him stop overthinking. It’s one of the reasons why they were a hit, they were both overthinkers and they both go a few extra miles into details over a tiny thing that no one normally doesn’t about. She knew there was no way on putting a break on his thoughts. All she could do was listen and give mediocre advice that she crossed her fingers to work.    “ It’s actually a big deal. It’s like in video games, an achievement you unlock, gives you access to things you normally can and it’s a whole new game. And just like in video games, you can, I don’t know, die because you don’t know how this thing work but you know what’s good about it? You get to use another life to correct things and do it a little better than you did. “   PJ was not sure if Gray could relate at her analogy she did her best to explain things.

“ Stop. I won’t hide from you. “   She gave his arm a light slap and laughed.   “ But that’s my plan in case I royally fuck up and I have to hide from FBI. Now you know my evil plans. You either have to ride with me or die. There’s no escaping me. “    She lifted her head from his chest to look up at him as she swore then grinned at him from ear to ear.    “ Besides, I will be a godmother of your first born. I will teach them how to play video games. I will be the coolest fake mom. “   PJ sighed, thinking she had him worried again.   “ Well, “  she started before she sitting up,    “ I heard things and it’s not all positive but like what you said, we don’t know him that much. It’s unfair to judge him without really knowing him you know. And to be fair, you overthinking is just your left brain trying to protect you from getting hurt or have your heart broken or whatever. But really, feelings didn’t even came from the heart, it pumps blood into your body. It’s hormones and hormones reacts to stimuli and I could see how your serotonin levels can co crazy. I mean, those blue eyes are pretty, or are those green? I’m not sure. And his dimple? It’s…you know what? I’ll stop before you get nervous just thinking of him again. “    PJ laughed again and went back on lying on top of him and this time, she had her face wedged on the crook of his neck as she held him tighter, sighing as all the talking sort of exhaust her.   “ But hey, you’will figure it out. You’re a smart guy. “

      Grayson knew he was reacting this way. adrenaline still ran through in his veins from the moments that happened only a few hours before. he knew it would only take a few days for it all to sink in. for him to understand. yet, in that moment, he let it out. the exact reason why he called her. she was the only one he knew who wouldn’t judge him for his thoughts. he nodded his head, “you’re right,” he said, smiling at her analogy. while he hadn’t played many games on his own time. he had been forced to not only play but watch her games. not that it was ever torture, he loved it. “i’m unlocking new doors, im a sexual man now, pj.” he joked, his eyes wiggling as he let out a soft laugh. “but seriously- you’re right. i’ve opened new doors. its like opening a damn, but not new water rushing in.” he shrugged his shoulders, “it’s like i’m the water rushing into something unfamiliar.” he said lightly, creating his own analogy of his feelings.  

      he chuckled after she slapped him, her enthusiasm around him always making him happy. he loved the level they were at. he felt so honored to see princess like this. in her pure and true form. happy, goofy, and so smart. “ahh, your evil plans?” he said, a grin spreading on his lips. “or die? when did you become a badass?” he said, chuckling. “ride. i’ll always be there.” a glint of truth seeping into his playful words. his brown eyes crinkled as she spoke, a smile still on his lips as he spoke. “they’ll be the luckiest children to have you as a fake mom, you’ll totally be cool. i’m sure video games will still be popular as ever. get ready for VR though. it might get ‘sword art online’ intense.” his bottom lip tucked between his teeth as she spoke, soaking in the information. he didn’t really mind who or how many people he had been with. he knew it was none of his concern. his cheeks became heated as she talked about him, his body wanting to get hot even thinking about him in that moment. “yeah, he’s an attractive guy in NYC. if i looked like him, i easily would not be a virgin right now.” he joked, his attitude mellowing the more they spoke. grayson invited her closeness as he exhaled, relaxing into the bed. “yeah, i just need to let it settle. like you said, it’s just because my brain. it’s firing too many chemicals. sleep will process it all.” he said, his fingers combing through her hair. grateful for the ease and grounding he always received from her.

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simoanes‌:

she pulled herself away from gray, “it’s not that bad kind of hurt though,” she tried to explain herself while looking up at gray’s eyes. she pressed her lips together and then made her way to her bed, she enjoyed gray’s warmth and comfort, but at that time she rather not be touched so she could easily rationalize her way out of it. she actually needed a plan, comfort could come next, trying to get comfort just meant that she’s already accepting defeat. she plopped down, face first and then she screamed into her mattress, then rolled over and inclined herself, “gray, i’m in love with her; it’s really something serious.” despite trying to control her emotions after the long awaited spiel, she still looked quite expressive, it shows in her eyes how she meant what she said. “i have to let her know, you’re right.” she sat up now and hugged her knees to her chest, looking like a child in that position. “i’ll just…i’ll just cry to leo if it turns out bad.” she sniffled, “that’s my game plan.” 

she patted the space next to her, “thanks for letting me vent. how have you been, still a virgin?” she smiled teasingly. “joking,” she knew gray was used to her teases, after all, she gets a good amount of roasting from gray himself. “you know, you are one of val’s besties; tell me, do you get, er, you know, gay vibes from her?” she chuckled nervously, “i just wanna know my chances.”

      The lack of experience with feelings often left him confused when comforting friends. he had no problem being their confidants, listening when they needed it. he only wished he could give better advice. the only feelings he ever had were crushes, that soon would slip from his mind when school or another issue would arise. her screams almost concerned him, until she turned around, the worry leaving his face. “if you’re in love with her, you need to talk to her. even if it doesn’t hurt bad now, it will later.” he said, not wanting to say anything about how she might fall in love with someone else, that wasn’t her. how it could hurt her for real. he walked near her bed, looking down at her as she cradled herself. a frown resting on his lips. he hated to see her so upset. “val would never hurt you, even if she didn’t feel the same way. i know it. val is a caring person, she’d make sure you’d leave feeling better than you did showing up.” 

       grayson sat down next to her, chuckling at her question. “as far as i know, still a virgin.” he joked, a grin plastered on his face. he bit down on his lip, looking over to her. “uh─ i made out with someone though. thats... new i guess.” he trailed, not wanting to make this about himself. yet, he couldn’t help but tell her his news. simones question made his lips press together, looking down at his lap. trying to think about any signs she might have gave. “uhm...” he trailed, “maybe. she compliments girls a lot. that might just be because she’s really nice. don’t tell her i said this but she’s definitely blushed around you. now that i think about it, it makes sense. she gets kinda flustered when you come around. maybe you’re both just blind to it?”