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i hold you sweetly in my head

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Exert from wip "i pray when i'm drunk"

Great men don't know that everything they have is given to them because of the passive want of others. Isaiah doesn't want this man anymore than he wanted the last one; which was very little. He wants the body, through him, with him and in him. Let great men have the glory, the honour, have the idea that they are above others, as long as other gets to have that want met.

For some it the sexual gratification; the reassurance; or the validation. Isaiah wants to be on his knees. Wants to feel the ground beneath him and know there is something bigger than himself out there. That his body isn't the end of the world, isn't the only thing that will carry him. Or maybe it is, but he won't feel that on his knees. He desires the ability to deny it for a while longer.

His pleasure isn't something he can get on his knees and therefore shouldn't and doesn't exist. It is the most wonderful feeling in the world; renouncing oneself.