I just got news that one of my youngest cousins passed away yesterday and that I had to fly to New York where he and his family are located which I hate because I have huge anxiety about flying on airplanes, which I have forgotten to reveal, after a traumatic flight three years ago, coming from Upstate New York to New Jersey and then back home to Atlanta which has made me worry about what would go wrong if I fly on an airplane, due to experiencing ear clogging and afterflight dizziness and bounciness along with panic attacks, again after all the scary recent news stories about air travel which have been blown out of proportion. Air travel scares the heck out of me. The idea of it makes me a nervous wreck.
Since I called in sick (knowing my mental and physical sanity are important) and while my brother cannot take off from work, it means my parents have to go instead. Well, me and my brother are not that close to our cousin but I had to create a card to send to express condolences and apologies for not attending.












