It'll be almost 2 months since our last communication. Here I am hating this feeling of being stuck. I tried to keep myself busy with drawing, even went on vacation and lurking around other lesbian's SNS but at the end of the day I'm still thinking of you. It's so easy for you and everybody to say that I should just move on. Why does moving on have to take so long??? How I wish in just a snap of a finger the pain within me would subside. I hate how I can still remember that smile and that annoying smirk of yours. And how your voice can still give me shivers. I want to slap myself to stop checking on you just to see if your doing well. You seem to be doing well which is great. Yes, there's still a part of me wishing I'm the one making you happy but I'd dismiss the thought already. Because let's be real, what's the point really??? It's not that I gave up on you. You don't need me anyway, so it's better to walk away. I wish I was smarter and was not too blinded to see that you didn't share my feelings to begin with. So I could've save myself from the misery. I have enormous love for you that I didn't realize how you're feeling. If someone new is coming then thank you and if I was meant to be single thank you as well. May your relationship be blessed. I've just come to the point that I only want healing and peace in my life.
