I should write these down

I grew up odd and have acquired odd & eclectic beliefs. Call me Solis N. , it is my name. Kinda formal, but here goes.

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Basic info about me.

I am 22 years old. I am transgender, a man or something similar. I'm not entirely binary, but if we're rounding we'll say I'm a man for simplicity. I like guys, if I like anyone at all. It comes and goes, liking people.

I died once, I don't feel like talking about it. But the me that was and the me that currently is, are two different people.

I am pagan. My patrons are Anpu (Annubis) and Hephaestus. I am eclectic and mixed pantheon.

I practice magick, eclecticly. Anything open I look into, anything closed I respectfully keep distance from. I am not love and light. I am what I am.

I am a member of the Satanic Temple. This is less a part of my life then paganism, truth be told. I am far more pagan than satanist. And I'm temple, not Church of Satan. The church goers give me bad vibes.

I was raised by an anarcho communist. I am still communist, but admittedly not well read yet. I'm still young. But I do believe that we should earn the full value of our work. That each person should be provided to their needs, and that each person should work to their ability. Not to their death, not until they drop, to the ability that they can in good health work for the whole.

I have struggled with suicidaility the whole time I've been me. And longer. When I got back up after death, when it didn't take, I was pissed. These days I stick around for two reasons:

1. Because committing suicide is what the Nazis want, and I do not comply with Nazis.

2. To feed my cats. They wouldn't understand what happened to me if they outlived me.

I live in the U.S. right now. And man is it a bad time to be an afab, transgender, satanist pagan, commie witch in the states right now. If I live long enough for the cigarettes to give me lung cancer, I'll be a lucky lad indeed.

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The Seven Fundamental Tenets of The Satanic Temple

I. One should strive to act with compassion and empathy toward all creatures in accordance with reason.

II. The struggle for justice is an ongoing and necessary pursuit that should prevail over laws and institutions.

III. One’s body is inviolable, subject to one’s own will alone.

IV. The freedoms of others should be respected, including the freedom to offend. To willfully and unjustly encroach upon the freedoms of another is to forgo one's own.

V. Beliefs should conform to one's best scientific understanding of the world. One should take care never to distort scientific facts to fit one's beliefs.

VI. People are fallible. If one makes a mistake, one should do one's best to rectify it and resolve any harm that might have been caused.

VII. Every tenet is a guiding principle designed to inspire nobility in action and thought. The spirit of compassion, wisdom, and justice should always prevail over the written or spoken word.

These were not foundational in the formation of my beliefs, but they are important to me and reflect a lot of what I've come to on my own. I am a member of the Satanic Temple. They are not as important to me as my pagan beliefs and ways, but I do aspire to these tenets also.

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Science and Magic are like Color and Shape

Science is like shape. Easily measured, defined, and recreated. An equilateral triangle has three sides of equal leangth, and three angles of equal degree. If you measure a triangle thoroughly and recreate the measurements exactly, you can recreate the same triangle as many times as you like.

Magic is like color. It is difficult to define where green ends and blue begins. People who speak different languages perceive different colors. For some blue and green are the same color in different depths. For others the blue of the ocean and the blue of the sky are entirely different. Recreating the same hue of paint is so difficult that the skill is still rare and treasured to this day, and without it required a very precise machine.

But you cannot have a shape without a color, nor a color without a shape.

Such are science and magic.