sad whiny girl

Sick of it all Backup:@grimreapersmonsterdrink

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I need get high

I need to feel something strong, something harsh, something beautiful

But that doesn’t exist anymore

The world ran out of that many years ago

Maybe I was late to the party

But everyone there were already dead

So what did I even miss?

Still, I wish I was one of the corpses in the pile

So intriguing to be dead, to be history

Now I have to live on, an create something new

That’s tough, lots of responsibility

How could I even manage?

I need help, I need something

I need to get high

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Im losing my mind again, I tried to happy for like 7 months but a human can only take so much, just did like a billion babycvts and a couple styros and I feel the wonderful high of it

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Why does no one talk about the comfort that comes with sadness, depression, sh etc. its so comforting i will force myself to go back after so much progress just because its so familiar

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THIS

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fuck having lunch, I’m sitting alone in the school toilet and listen to radiohead, this is what life is about

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I’m pretty stable. But I debate if I should fuck everything up now. You know? For the ✨thrill✨

Make me feel human

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Y’all I’m not eating disorderd anymore. I became an alcoholic :D

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c2@w lol

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One week in to only eating after 4:00pm and having less then 1200 cals and Im already seeing results, i wasn’t huge before i started but now i have a thigh gap, my stomach is way flatter, ill be doing this for another week and then i’ll see how much I’ve lost.

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only eating after 4:30 pm and limiting my self to 1200 cals every day, i wont fail this time.

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fuck fuck fuck a year ago i weighed 114 pounds now I’m like 125 pounds kill me

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BMI calculators in my heart ❤️

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Starving has gone really well recently, idk why but I can feel my body slowly but surely deteriorating, and I love every second of it

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Hello fellow mentally ill!

Im an ana blog who talks about my struggles with food and weightloss.

So heres a fat TW for ED, SH and all the horrible shit, don’t fall into the same trap, you might not make it out alive.

Your bulimia recovery starts today. Find information on health centers, treatment and counselors that specialize in eating disorders.

Been struggling since 2020 with a mix of binge eating and restricting.

From Europe

Height: 175 cm/ 5 foot 8 inches

HW: 65 KG / 143 pounds

LW: 52 KG / 114 pounds

UGW: 50 KG / 110 pounds

CW: NO LONGER IN ACTIVE ED

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man i ate dinner alone today so i managed to only eat a small 188 kcal salad, win

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man i’ve drank teo monsters and not eaten today, i feel so alive help

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slay

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the really off comfort in relapsing and slowly dying, i’m literally exited for my demise