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[oc roleplay blog] Memento mori, I guess. 💀

[grimtime]

Nobody knows me like I know me. Nobody knows that just this morning I took a shower and I pretended I was a fucking water bender. 

[mjalti]

dont ask me what tf im talking about. i dont know ok? im just the vessel. the message has been gifted. i‘ve moved on

[grimtime]

Self-reflecting on self-reflection on self-reflection to the point where my image is bounced off and distorted through the various angles of the mirror maze that is my personal self-analysis. 

[faefinder]

grimtime‌: 

Nah we all make our judgements on people and situations with the information we have whether we wanna do that or not.

Cool blog BTW.

thanks. i made it awhile ago but never really used it. it was sort of boring. your blogs nice too 

[grimtime]

Well. Yeah I only just got back on mine yesterday. And I guess today, to respond, cuz I ended up doing something else instead. I only really use it in short bursts.

Also, thanks. Goth unity. It used to have BLOODRAIN EFFECTS but my friend said it made it harder to read. So the blood had to be sacrificed. (Blood sacrifice)

[faefinder]

grimtime‌:

To an extent- but no more than anyone else!The past informs everyones behaviour and its a lil presumptuous to say its either significantly holding me back OR benefitting me given that conclusion is based on our one short conversation online, but! I’m not offended.

that’s why i only said it sounds like it. I’m glad youre not offended though. that wouldnt be a great first impression 

[grimtime]

Nah we all make our judgements on people and situations with the information we have whether we wanna do that or not.

Cool blog BTW.

[faefinder]

grimtime‌:

Yeah but THAT was implicit in my very long spiel! I think. 

maybe. but it sounds more like your past is holding you back, no offense. 

[grimtime]

To an extent- but no more than anyone else!The past informs everyones behaviour and its a lil presumptuous to say its either significantly holding me back OR benefitting me given that conclusion is based on our one short conversation online, but! I'm not offended.

[spector]

shelley duvall was ROBBED by hollywood, absolutely fucking robbed, SHE was the star of the shining (1980), not jack nicholson, she was the emotional anchor of that movie and she carried it ON HER OWN, all nicholson had to do is squint funny and thats it, meanwhile she was out there crying and screaming and shrieking and running ALL WHILE antagonized by the director who felt like he had to flex his misunderstood loner genius muscles or some shit. years later and when people talk about the shining they either discuss the joker or cube rick when they should be talking about how shelley duvall made the terror of that movie REALLY, TRULY POP. like what was i even doing in 1980??? i sure as hell wasnt defending her talent and hard work i was busy not existing like an absolute fucking fool and i can never atone for that

[faefinder]

grimtime‌:

Maybe? I’d check but then I’m faced with problem two: the humiliation aspect of old content and bad opinions. Like that HAS to be a relatable experience think back to when you were 13 and tell me it is NOT. 

who isn’t kind of dumb when they’re 13? we have to let that go and make better decisions now 

[grimtime]

Yeah but THAT was implicit in my very long spiel! I think. 

[faefinder]

grimtime‌:

faefinder‌:

what does their religion have to do with it? 

Iuno, it just does. 

i’ll take your word for it. if it was from you were 13 though, don’t you think its maybe changed? 

[grimtime]

Maybe? I’d check but then I’m faced with problem two: the humiliation aspect of old content and bad opinions. Like that HAS to be a relatable experience think back to when you were 13 and tell me it is NOT. 

[faefinder]

grimtime‌:

It was NOT! Facebook is just so many middle-aged/elderly Christians people being like “I love MY SON to the MOON AND BACK happy birthday darling!” and like, adverts. 

what does their religion have to do with it? 

[grimtime]

Iuno, it just does. 

[grimtime]

AND THE MEMES.

THE MEMES.

[faefinder]

grimtime‌:

1. The revoked policy of never reblogging posts:

Initially, I started up this blog with the intention that I would only use it to talk directly to my friends and post my own original thoughts. The logic behind this was that if I abided by it, I wouldn’t feel uncomfortable or confused about my construction of myself coming from popular posts, and I could look back on my blog knowing everything there was something I at one time really did think and then go on to voice. 

I didn’t wanna absorb trendy slang or aspects of someone else. Initially, I wanted the agency in constructing my own damn self, and if you take a post to be self-expression then the idea is when you take other people’s posts to display on your blog, you are appropriating their construction of themselves. It was an identity thing.

Revoking the policy: 

It was a stupid-ass line of logic and a stupid-ass policy based off a stupid-ass conclusion. Nobody constructs themselves all on their own. People are naturally shaped by their interactions with other people and a huge-ass part of who we are! Comes from our ability to relate to and communicate with each other. 

2: The trepidation about looking at my old content:

Old content is pretty much always embarrassing. We all know this. Look at your Facebook from when you were 13 and tell me you don’t just want to wilt. 

3: Personhood and the pitfalls of trying to define yourself?

Self-definition is HARD. The act of analyzing your own consciousness and deciding what you are, what you are not, how you are different from people, how you’re the same is a pain in the ass. You don’t always know or remember or see those things in a way that isn’t totally subjective. You also don’t always believe the same of yourself. Or ARE the same as you were. Selfhood changes like constantly and introspection spurs on further change. Self-definition isn’t always a pitfall but it sure as hell can be.

“you should go to the bathroom”

Don’t tell me what to do. I pissed myself just now right here. 

i never had a Facebook. sometimes i hear girls at school talk about it, but it didn’t sound interesting

[grimtime]

It was NOT! Facebook is just so many middle-aged/elderly Christians people being like “I love MY SON to the MOON AND BACK happy birthday darling!” and like, adverts. 

[faefinder]

grimtime‌:

I SURE AM.

Anyway, that’s a damn good question but I’ve no fucking clue what it’s in reference to. The revoked policy of never reblogging posts? The trepidation about looking at my old content? Personhood and the pitfalls of trying to define yourself? I’m gonna piss. 

maybe all of it? and you should go to the bathroom, then.

[grimtime]

1. The revoked policy of never reblogging posts:

Initially, I started up this blog with the intention that I would only use it to talk directly to my friends and post my own original thoughts. The logic behind this was that if I abided by it, I wouldn’t feel uncomfortable or confused about my construction of myself coming from popular posts, and I could look back on my blog knowing everything there was something I at one time really did think and then go on to voice. 

I didn’t wanna absorb trendy slang or aspects of someone else. Initially, I wanted the agency in constructing my own damn self, and if you take a post to be self-expression then the idea is when you take other people’s posts to display on your blog, you are appropriating their construction of themselves. It was an identity thing.

Revoking the policy: 

It was a stupid-ass line of logic and a stupid-ass policy based off a stupid-ass conclusion. Nobody constructs themselves all on their own. People are naturally shaped by their interactions with other people and a huge-ass part of who we are! Comes from our ability to relate to and communicate with each other. 

2: The trepidation about looking at my old content:

Old content is pretty much always embarrassing. We all know this. Look at your Facebook from when you were 13 and tell me you don’t just want to wilt. 

3: Personhood and the pitfalls of trying to define yourself?

Self-definition is HARD. The act of analyzing your own consciousness and deciding what you are, what you are not, how you are different from people, how you’re the same is a pain in the ass. You don’t always know or remember or see those things in a way that isn’t totally subjective. You also don’t always believe the same of yourself. Or ARE the same as you were. Selfhood changes like constantly and introspection spurs on further change. Self-definition isn’t always a pitfall but it sure as hell can be.

“you should go to the bathroom”

Don’t tell me what to do. I pissed myself just now right here. 

[faefinder]

grimtime‌:

faefinder

you’re really energetic, aren’t you?

THANKS!

#I’m 90% sure this means “GodDAMN who the fuck is this person and why’s she clogging my dashboard”!#But!

not really, no. you’re rob l.  a stranger sure, but i’ve seen stranger. what are you going on about though? 

[grimtime]

I SURE AM.

Anyway, that’s a damn good question but I’ve no fucking clue what it’s in reference to. The revoked policy of never reblogging posts? The trepidation about looking at my old content? Personhood and the pitfalls of trying to define yourself? I’m gonna piss. 

[grimtime]

Morbid and random question but in the event of a hospital fire what’s the safety protocol. How are the patients evacuated.  

[grimtime]

I don’t remember what posts I made on my main blog or my vent blog and frankly I am concerned about what would happen if I backlogged.

Grammarly wants me to put a comma by the word “frankly” and I’m not gonna. 

[grimtime]

faefinder

you're really energetic, aren't you?

THANKS!

[grimtime]

I don’t remember what posts I made on my main blog or my vent blog and frankly I am concerned about what would happen if I backlogged.

Grammarly wants me to put a comma by the word “frankly” and I’m not gonna.