I saw you the other day at the post office You looked at me with complete betrayal and disgustI got in my car and drove awayBut a very sick and broken part of me wanted to turn around and entangle our bodies togetherIt's almost been three months since our skins have touchedAnd God, the withdrawals aren't getting easier I was addicted to you, in all aspects, obsessedFor four years, I drowned myself in your twisted sense of loveAnd now, I don't soak my pillow every night wondering where you areAnd why I was never enough for you to changeMy body no longer convulses with anxiety wondering when the next abuse would be But I would be lying if I said my stomach didn't paralyse itself with jealousy whenever I religiously check your social mediaA new girl, someone who isn't meDark, curly hair and much shorter than meShe smokes cigarettes, just like you, and she's more self-destructive than I ever was, something you hated me forYou're doing all the things we used to do, like getting tattoosI wonder if you love her, or even more than you loved me I wonder if you look into her eyes and see meI know I will never be able to give someone else the love I gave to you, even though I am tryingI hope you hate yourself for destroying me and seeing someone else pick the pieces back upSomeone who is everything I have ever wanted and neededThe person I tried to make you, but you could never even imagine beingI can't believe we are sharing our bodies with other peopleRushing into things trying to fill the void You hate me for moving on, but if I didn't leave, one of us would have been dead by nowI hate what you have done to me and I hate who you are nowBut some nights I break, and forget about all the bad thingsYou were the only one who could make me feel on top of the world, even though you were the one who pushed me downI wonder if we would be together in another lifetimeWe will always have a little piece of each otherPeople say what we had wasn't love and I agree with them aloudBut it was love I fucking hate youI fucking love you