hii welcome to my blog !!
basic info ;;
my name is rubart
i was born in 09 (im 17, adults can interact/follow just dont be over 30)
fem-leaning nonbinary (they / them)
taken by my boything husband @beefedbossed <3
i like to read and write and learn new things
& i love to make friends !!
more under cut <3
fandoms / what i enjoy ;;
shows / movies ;; hunter x hunter, death note, puella magi madoka magica, care bears, toilet bound hanako-kun, jujutsu kaisen, the meg + the meg 2: the trench, coraline, tmnt, all of us are dead, invincible, the walking dead, pupa, chainsaw man, haikyuu, home, blue lock, kakegurui, devil may cry, cyberpunk: edgerunners, incantation, home, the disastrous life of saiki k, brain on fire, parasyte: the gray, the sadness, sailor moon, the summer hikaru died
games ;; roblox, CoD, undertale + deltarune, a date with death, you left me, missed messages, better half, andromeda 6, what the road brings, purrgatory, trapped with jester, graveyard girls, her majesty mirror, kalpa, its not me its my basement, plague inc, arcaea, animal restaurant, to eat a god, what body, neko atsume, sweet sins 2
books ;; living dead girl (elizabeth scott), by the time you read this, i'll be dead (julie anne peters), trigger (n. griffin), dead money (jakob kerr), before we were blue (e.j. schwartz), all the bright places (jennifer niven), a thousand heartbeats (kierra cass), how it feels to float (helena fox), false memory (dean koontz)
music ;; nicole dollanganger (not her columbine songs💔 hop off), lil tecca, solya, bambi baker, lana del rey, the frays, ryan leahan, yikii, set it off, jpegmafia, mikes dead, alexis munroe, childish gambino, traian, rammstein, dolly parton, fiona apple, kmfdm, sophie woodhouse, flower face, selena, green day, three days grace, korn, ethel cain, baby bugs, mercy necromancy, point north, carpetgarden, radiohead, XuanXuan, 祁紫檀, 轶尘Chen
misc ;; MY BOYFRIEND ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚, butterflies, flamingoes, stuffed animals, reading, writing, drawing, watching reels, talking to my friends and new people, flowers, lip gloss, watching people play games, astronomy, linguistics / language, sharks, ERB, blankets, sleeping, bracelet making / kandi
+ more for all :3c
BYI // extra info ;;
i am really fucked up
im hypersensitive and my feelings get hurt easy, and also im very stupid; i WILL take most things at face value
i am a self-proclaimed losergirl and girlfailure :þ
☆ i have possible npd+dpd+hpd (too young for a diagnosis, but ive done a bit of research)
☆ i believe i was born to love and all i want is a lover, but i don't believe there is somebody who could ever truly love me forever; i am obsessive and hard to love
☆ all i want is to be somebodys pretty girl and have somebody care for me
☆ my only true want in life is to be someones lover. as of now, i am taken and not looking for anyone else ^_^ i love my bf
if you are strictly an ED/SH account and follow me, i probably wont follow you back 😿
this is MY girlblog, and i will vent, post about sh/sui, and my ed, but my blog is for none of these things strictly !! and i will put a cw/tw before any of them and a "continue reading" thing so don't worry
tags to block (lmk if i repeated or missed any):
SH: cw sh mention, sh mention, tw self h$rm, tw sh related, sh related, tw sh implied, sh trigger, tw self harn, tw relapse mention, tw self harn, tw sh destructive behavior
SUI: cw sui mention, tw sui implied, tw sui, tw sui ideation, sui thoughts, sui mention, tw sui ideation, tw sui vent, tw sui talk, tw suic1de, sui ideation
ED: tw eating issues, tw ed implied, tw calories, food mention, tw ed, tw ed trigger, cw ed, ed mention, cw body talk, tw restriction, disordered eating tw, cw weight loss
lifestyle jirai
sending asks is okay ! i loveee asks :3 no more flirting in my inbox though cuz i love my bf 👅👅👅
☆ taken anons ;; 🔪🚿, 💀, 🌺, 🐾, 🥭, 🚫🕳 , ❤️, 🎀/sanctity, bombini, 💫🪽, 🐾🪽
native english ; conversational german ; learning chinese
since i made one, here!! https://grotessquerie.straw.page/ although there is more info here than on there
i have discord and insta , dm me for either
☆ or just shoot me a dm here! dms are welcome <3 n if ur too shy to dm, using my inbox/becoming an anon is also an option :3
DNI ;;
T.R.A.S.H., porn blogs, harmful paraphiles, "older is better" girlbloggers, under 14/over 20, if you make rape jokes or reblog posts with rape used in a joking manner, if you make jokes sexualizing children, pro/com/darkshippers, hazbin hotel / helluva boss fans, terfs, tcc (unless you ONLY like Aileen Wuornos. none of that columbine shit PLEASE), radqueers, transids, anyone who interacts with the red ones, PD ABUSE BELIEVERS, + i also just block freely so if you pmo im setting you on fire🙏
red: dni at all
orange: thin ice
if we were previously moots and i blocked or unfollowed you randomly then the answer is probably up there
will be edited as needed <3
thx 4 reading >.<
