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Minor Atrocities
A Memoir, A Map, A Movement – Join Me on Substack I’ve started serializing my memoir on Substack, a raw and honest account of my journey through CSA and CPTSD, and the roadmap I’ve created for recovery. This work is deeply personal, but it’s also for everyone who’s endured trauma. I’m writing this for YOU—so you know that healing is possible and breaking generational patterns is achievable. All…
Updating in springtime
It’s been a journey. I haven’t been so much neglecting this blog as coping with some challenges, including breast cancer. There’s no history that I know of on either side of my family, so it was a shock. One of the more disconcerting things was seeing my blood pressure much higher than my usual 110/70 the first time I went to the oncologist. I could not feel the difference in my body and it…
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GUEST POST: Sneaky Prose Killers by Aaron D. Gansky
GUEST POST: Sneaky Prose Killers by Aaron D. Gansky
Aaron and I co-wrote Write To Be Heard after meeting in the low-residency MFA at Antioch University, Los Angeles. Since he has taken down his website for now, I wanted to make sure this useful piece is readily available: Some time ago, I sent in an early draft of the first book of my Hand of Adonai series in to my agent. I’d expected a rave review; instead, I got a disappointed e-mail. “It’s too…
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The Green Bench
Just a reminder about an award-winning short I made a few years ago. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Np104Ak6GWQ Thanks for watching!
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My Dad As A White Man
My Dad As A White Man
My father was born 118 years ago today. He’s been dead for close to four decades. My research for my trauma memoir, BAGGAGE CLAIM, coupled with the racial (re)awakening after George Floyd’s death, compelled me to take a deeper look at his life as a Jamaican immigrant in the United States. Ellis Island I learned that my father attended what were known in Jamaica as “coloured schools” in the…
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Women and Children First
Women and Children First
Photo by NOAA on Unsplash Yesterday was a hard day. I was acquainted with one of the sixty women who came forward about Bill Cosby and have some idea how difficult it was for her and how much it cost her physically, mentally, and emotionally. Before the trial but after a news conference with the other women, I saw her in person. She burst into tears when I told her I believed her. I thought…
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I Am Not Who I Was Pre-Pandemic
I Am Not Who I Was Pre-Pandemic
Photo by Edwin Hooper on Unsplash I am not the same person I was when the pandemic began. I used to be a Catholic. It’s easy to get caught up in your own life and enjoy the music, friendships, serving, and more in a faith community, but when I saw yet another priest caught not only with child porn, but child torture porn, then news of the church reinstating accused priests, I couldn’t ignore…
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Asphyxiating Toxic Cycles
As a childhood trauma survivor, I learned some years ago that we often hold our breath. It’s a way of not feeling when so much of what we feel is bad. It’s a way of disconnecting from our body because our bodies were hurt and abused. For me, it was due to incest, terror, humiliation and more. Breathing has been recently highlighted in horrific ways including Covid killing nearly 4 million people…
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Traumas Public and Private: What if the Inner Child Grew Up?
Traumas Public and Private: What if the Inner Child Grew Up?
Is it time to give up all hope that this pandemic and its mandatory pause might help us build a better society? Seems like it. We’re literally coming out of this pandemic guns blazing in the United States. 45 mass shootings in 30 days. Then today, Kenosha and Austin, with Austin mere hours after Ted Cruz ranted on Fox that “Biden wants to take your guns.” Meanwhile he rakes in hundreds of…
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Flash Fiction
The Green Bench Originally published on September 14, 2010 by The Citron Review, nominated for Pushcart, and adapted into an award-winning short film in 2016 by Diane Sherlock Listen to him barking in the night. Fear shifts on the bed next to you, hogging the covers. Stare at the ceiling and wonder what to do. Forget his birthday. Forget he is forty-two. Forget the phone call from Berkeley…
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Ignore The Shadow At Your Peril
Ignore The Shadow At Your Peril
On January 6, 2021, Georgia moved us closer to democracy than autocracy. On January 6, 2021, the Confederate flag flew in the United States Capitol. On January 6, 2021, there was an attempted coup to subvert the election certification process in advance of Joe Biden taking office on January 20. Eleven Senators, led by Ted Cruz and Josh Hawley, both presumably vying for the next GOP…
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Tragedy upon tragedy
Every year since 9/11, I’ve paid tribute to these two men who died in the Twin Towers. I nearly skipped this year because I’ve been focused on the numbers of Americans who’ve died in the pandemic. Covid deaths dwarf those lost in the attacks, over 200,000 to date, but that doesn’t negate what happened 19 years ago. What happened then was awful and what is happening now is awful. Again, we have a…
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Mining During A Pandemic
For the past few years, I’ve focused on healing my relationship to money and of course the initial reason is never the reason. Money is a symptom of a self-love/care/esteem issues. It’s meant to flow – currency after all – and we experience problems individually and as a society when it doesn’t.
In the drill down, I expose what Julia Cameron might call a vein of gold. The rock formations of my…
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Tragedy, trauma, turning
I’ve been thinking about 9/11 and Covid-19 and the difference between the deaths of each of my parents. My father was gone within 24 hours from a heart attack and my mother had a long slow farewell until she died of congestive heart failure and stroke at 90 (my grandmother’s was even longer one at 101). My father was in another state and I didn’t get to say goodbye. I made the drive from L.A. to…
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Love - and don't sideline - one another: CPTSD in the time of SARS-CoV-2
Love – and don’t sideline – one another: CPTSD in the time of SARS-CoV-2
All over the world, we are seeing what it’s like when people withdraw into their homes. Some are homeschooling and parenting, some working full or part time, some having to do both. Many have lost their jobs. Some are alone, some with roommates they may or may not know well, others with family. An unknown percentage are with abusers of one form or another. Globally, there’s a big step back and…
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Maybe my CPTSD can help you in the time of COVID-19
I’m calm. That might be annoying if you’re not during this pandemic. I’m trying to work out why I am and how that can help others who aren’t.
First, why am I calm? I grew up with a lot of abuse: incest, ridicule, public humiliation and so on, primarily from my mother. As a result, I have Complex PTSD and that means life-long hypervigilance. I’ve always been on high alert for danger around me,…
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