pretty offline

[grrlinstatic]

mv shoot

sometimes you dont need to be perfect, just in the room.

honestly, one of the coolest experiences ive had in my career. as a creative, i love seeing a creative process ive never even contemplated before. as artists, i guess we all have our own dances and performances.

how do you become who the camera wants to see?

i always get told its confidence, confidence, confidence

how can i have confidence in something ive never seen myself do? i mean, in my head, ive seen her do it a million times. ive seen her live it and breathe it and refuse to be anything else. why can i not give myself the same grace? why can i not believe what i know to be true?

if i put myself down first, how much farther can you really bring me?

[grrlinstatic]

mood today..,

[grrlinstatic]

im backkkk...

its been a minute guys..,

no excuses lol we all need a little refresh every now and then.

the first post always feels like ripping off a band-aid,,

or meeting an aunt you haven't seen since you were in diapers.

its only okay to fall off if you get back on

[grrlinstatic]

dance diaries

whew,,

no clever words today. i literally got my ass handed to me yesterday. we switched up the vibe last minute and initially thought it was gonna be chill vibes. it was not. its nice to get a level check every now and then to remind you what needs to be done/how you've improved.

seeing myself push reminds me of what separates her and i, and what makes us one.

also,,

who's hiring?

[grrlinstatic]

post-rehearsal diaries

excuses, excuses, excuses...

the only person losing is me. i try to give myself grace, remember the difference in blessings. lacking doesn't make it impossible, just harder to reach.

and then i see her. i see the girl that i know so well but rarely meet. a stranger to the world, but very acquainted with the stage. though its in my head, she pushes and pulls to break out. the spotlight cant help but to find her, i just hope ot doesnt blind the both of us.

[wildnickk]

[delicateviolets]

[mournfulroses]

Sinéad O'Connor, from her book titled "Rememberings," originally published in June 2021

[grrlinstatic]

rehearsal today,,

having that imposter syndrome feeling.

[jjadmanii]

lucy gray being a calculating performer, haymitch being an unlucky mastermind, and katniss genuinely not having a clue about whats going on

[grrlinstatic]

when you think about it, the revolution probably wouldn't have happened without this order of events.

lucy gray was aware of her presence and purpose, she knew what her impact could be because she knew her impact on those in the hub.

haymitch was fed his persona and taught how to have an impact. he was given a purpose, but only through the errors of his games and witnessing the horrors over the years of district 12 tributes could he know how to keep katniss under the radar.

[bandagedthoughtsblog]

[grrlinstatic]

soo you've come back around...

they say they always do, but its like a wind chime inciting a chill up the spine. i can never bank on your return because the days in between feel like a prison sentence. once i accept you're gone, our run-ins feel cosmically aligned. i'll throw you once more and hope the wind carries you. i just hope it wont carry a tune.

[th3perf3ctg1rl]

i want a rockstar bf so bad

[grrlinstatic]

loverr girl in search of evil lessons

[stqrdxst-xx]

[hardyscal]