I haven't posted on here since 2k22 damn.
Usually id come on here and update this for myself on what's happening in my life but I honestly just wanted to get some shit off my chest this time hopefully it'll help when I come back to it....or anyone else reading this.
My dog died 2 days ago and I'm way more heart broken than I realized I would be. I knew I would be super sad but I didn't know to what extent I would feel like. I miss her so much. I'm all alone now. Part of me wishes I got another dog before she died so I wouldn't be alone but part of me is really glad I didn't because she got all of my attention in the end. Obviously it's too soon for me to get another dog but I do want one before Christmas this year (2k26).
I'm not ready to move and pack up all her things yet. Even if they still make me cry to see.
I put her collar and her little pearl necklace around her one and only toy she ever owned and cuddled up too until the very end. I sit the toy beside me when I play her favourite Legend of Zelda game (echoes of wisdom) I played it a bunch for her 2 days before she passed. And I'm still playing it now just in case she's hanging around for a bit. I'll probably play it for a little while longer.
I take her body in Saturday to be cremated. I think I'll feel much better once I'm able to hold her again even if it's in an urn.
I know I have friends and family to support me during this time but it's not the same as having my partner in crime with me. Dogs really are a man's best friend.
I guess that's all I have to say for now.....I'm gonna try to post more on here to get shit off my chest and maybe help feel better.
If anyone other than myself reads this ; thank you for listening 🩷❤️