Mind of the Phoenix

Human, Nerd, Graduate, Cynical Optimist, DM, Mac, Outdoorsman, Half bear Half Shark. All Awesome

[markocomics]

Nerd and Jock episodes 1-4. 

I accidentally bumped into repost of my comics which had a lot of notes, so here’s mine so at least i could get some of that since i made them. I am thinking of making this a series, other comics i have made this year can be read on Line too. Also if you like to follow me on twitter, there’s a link to it too.

http://www.webtoons.com/en/challenge/grumpy-/list?title_no=74782

twitter.com/MarkoRaassina

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Me

[guardianphoenix]

So here I am again

I’ll try to stay current as this is an outlet where I know some people hear me. It’s not bottling g it up and it’s not saying it to a journal. I’ve been depressed as usual, my buddy moving in with me has helped that, but it’s still not helping in the long run. But hey, maybe I need some therapy as well.

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Well. Why expect anything different you fucking moron?

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Sunday mornings are for sipping coffee and memes

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Mini Montana photo dump

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Some Montana pics from day 1. More pictures will come, but today is the last day of internet access, and I'll be taking better pictures on my good camera and uploading them later.

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I've made it to Montana and I'm just about ready to collapse. I have like no energy and just need to sleep.

[macleod]

this fibonacci joke is as bad as the last two you heard combined

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Ohai Ohare

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It's 2:35 am and I just introduced my grandfather to the concept of "Florida Man" What has my life become

[marvel]

Check out the new #BlackPanther #SDCC poster that just debuted in Hall H!

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Yeeesh it's pretty tough carrying the whole team

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Welp I'm in the thick of it again

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And so the gunslinger falls for the horse maiden

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This is me telling you that I can't sleep

Because for the first time in a very long while I'm feeling that oh so familiar feeling I get. When there's a fire inside me that won't go out and there's some animal that's inside that's waking up from a long long sleep. There's a feeling of hope and maybe this time won't be like all of the other times. There's a feeling that maybe I can stop listening to that one song, over and over and finally move on with my life. There's a feeling that maybe just maybe this is what I need. Or maybe it's just what I need right now, I don't know. I'm usually upset when I can't sleep at night and when there's fire in my chest, or when my heart beats too fast. Or skips a beat But for now I think it's good. That at midnight I'm wide awake and feeling something for the first time in a very very long time. I hope I can show this to you some day. Maybe even my journal. But until I get the stones enough to do that this will serve well enough. Saying it to the world or the ether or anyone who's listening or maybe even myself. I feel like for the first time in a long time I'm not afraid to fall again. I may be scared, and a little anxious. But I don't fear it. Not right now at least.

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Met a girl yesterday. Then later on found her on bumble Then I ran into her at the gas station today. Coincidence, or is the universe telling me something?

[guardianphoenix]

So

It's been the case that over the past month, pretty much my entire support structure here in NH has been knocked out from under me. 5 of my closest confidants and supporters have either moved on, moved away or are going to be gone for a very long while. I am NOT doing well. If I didn't already feel stranded, I'm sure as hell going to feel it next week when I come back to work. I thought I'd have some more time with this last one but apparently tomorrow will be her last day. I feel like a pillar just got knocked out from under me.