[gulagdestroyer]

I ate so many fucking cookies today. 8 of the oreo white enrobed cookies. I dont even like them. I just want to feel full

[gulagdestroyer]

I want to be balls deep into this disease again

[gulagdestroyer]

Should I:

1. Go to the store and get 20 euro of bullshit to binge on and feel sad about myself

2. Go to the gym

[gulagdestroyer]

Let this be a lesson to all gym angels: carbs before the gym DOES matter GREATLY. Allow yourself 200/300 kcals more and have some carbs.

[gulagdestroyer]

Ok i think I got it. Every day ill eat 100g of protein in pure yoghurt. And I'll only eat carbs before a workout + a spoonful of honey on heavy lifting days. That way ill both cure my binging (hopefully) and also get better lifts in.

[gulagdestroyer]

I am not locked in. I gotta lock in. I have ice cream in my freezer and cookies and milk and fuck. I made a whole tub of fried rice.

[gulagdestroyer]

On vacation. Hiking. 15 km is killing me already.

[gulagdestroyer]

I told my boyfriend I just want to be skinny. He is so clueless as to what that means. He likes my thick thighs but I do not

[riacain]

[blackcoffeebrraeakfast]

Yes.

[gulagdestroyer]

I think im going to try and eat around 1000 cals because im genuinely done binging. I dont want this anymore

[gulagdestroyer]

Fasted for 45 hours then binged. Awesome.

[gulagdestroyer]

1.5 hour workout with 30 mins stairmaster 28 hours in my fast

[gulagdestroyer]

I dont even want to talk about what im doing anymore because im afraid ill jinx it. The moment i started posting more, I had binge urges. If I keep quiet, I fast for like a day and a half. What is this trickery?

[gulagdestroyer]

Selfrespect. Control.

[gulagdestroyer]

I have actually been binging for a week now. Making a plan to get shit done.

[gulagdestroyer]

I am better of with my ocd