Oliver 🌿

16 • rant/spam blog • main : @m0chiis

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hi okay,,thus is gonna be my rant blog where i yap ab stuff i dont want on my main profile. ill probably go by my middle name than my real one,,idk

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when they played grudges last night i screamed the words as loud as i could so it would feel like im screaming at the people im mad at.

it was theraputic, i wish i could do it to the people i want to, but screaming about it at a concert works too

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hi i still make videos about him like a looooser.

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Hai

heey there brotato :33

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hi my name is toby i will nurse you back to health OR find a way to kill you quicker /JOKING

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junior year is not feasible for me to live through ,,

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forensics and health science drool 🤤🤤🤤🤤

if theres ever a murder near me when im older theyre gonna blame it on me since ik so much about decomp/meds/etc (they sometimes do this with firefighters and arson cases) when im just thinking learning about it out of interest and for other person reasons that are very much the opposite of murder

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how to get followers on my alt anon blog no borax no glue i really want freaky asks on there

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mantis started to smell like my 🍇ist when i hugged him one time. i dont know why, nothing he uses is the same. i almost ran out of the room in fear, i wanted to. i know mantis isnt him but ive feared it in every person ive met since we broke up. speaking of, that was 3 years and 5 days ago.

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holy fucking shit my new body wash smells better than i thought it did its like lingering on my skin it smells SO good. it kind of reminds me of 2022??

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school starts in 9 days and im so terrified that we will get distant, even if its probably what he wants. i dont know when ill see him again, im scared that i wont

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i hug you a little tighter each you leave because i dont know if youll leave, or if ill make it

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the boy who dreams of OD-ing again

theres half a bottle (~350 pills) of ibuprofen upstairs screaming my name come to mama ill make sure to have a good drink with you please 😍

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hey wheres the liver failure i was promised forever ago i didnt take that whole bottle of tylenol for nothing

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i hope when i die that i get born someone different.

i hate being me more than anything else

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i dont recognize myself in photos, all of them make me feel like an impostor. im wrong. i was built so so very wrong.

he takes so many pictures of me, i feel like a deer in headlights every time he does. im so scared.

ive had people take photos of me while i was changing or having a vulnerable moment and spread them to other people.

im scared he will. im scared he still talks about me. im scared of fucking everything.

maybe i am weak

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my glitter was pretty sad face

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i might lay down in the shower my stomach is dying