A peak of my life with ana

I'm not the girl I used to be am better than that 💋 fighting with ana, depression and anxiety Cw: 45 kg (103lb) Pw: 59 kg (130lb) fashiondesigner student Dutch, rotterdam

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Doing homework always fun to do... Not. Tomorrow a big test so Learn till i drop ;) It's going to be a long night :( #homework #fashiondesigner #prorecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #anxiety #eatingdisorderrecovery #Dutchies #studie #weightlos #yellow #fightforrecovery

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I am a little girl of only 5.4 feet (167cm) but sometimes People think It's cute..... No It's not cute, not at all It's difficult Because nobody see you, People think im younger ect. (this pic Because I love minions) . The last couple of Days are not good I feel depressed and it Dont stop :(( I feel like a fail, like a nobody Because school and life stress me :'( I Dont want to be here :'( I wanna go home and sleep, sleep till this feeling stop Because I cant take it anymore :(( #anorexianervosarecovery #anxiety #eatingdisorderrecovery #depression #depressed #cry #feelingsad #fail #weightlos #giveup #bye #Cut #ed #ana #anagirl #life #school

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Good (early) morning, It's the last weekend Day and that means homework Day. I am going to make a long coat for the fashionshow so Today is: Cut, pin and sew Day. Lets see how Far I today will come :) breakfast was 1 cup of coffee and 1 creaker with young cheese. Have a productive Day lovelies xoxo #anorexianervosarecovery #Coffee #fashion #prorecovery #loveyourself #weightlos #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #ed #anxiety #fashionshow #fashionstudent #workhard #fitgirl #Dutchies #breakfast

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Yesterday I visit the kidsfarm with my little nephew to relax myself after the Psychologist. He really loves it and want a bunny for home but his daddy Dont like It (for Now) so going there soon again for the bunnies :p #anorexianervosarecovery #prorecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anxiety #bunny #animal #kidsfarm #relax #life #mylife #family #nephew #trytobestrong #dutchrecovery #love #ana #ed #togetherwerestrong

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Everytime I treat myself on something nice she stares at me with puppy eyes like she is saying: can I have a Bite :p Luckly I Dont do this to Much ;) #anorexianervosarecovery #fearfood #yorkie #dashund #magnum #raspberry #prorecovery #love #life #weightlos #fightforrecovery #ana #ed #fitgirl #animal #mylife #cute #Ciara #dutchrecovery #pink

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Goodmorning again, It's weekend!!!! 2 Days of Sleeping out and doing homework whohoooo :p Yesterday was not so good :( I had a apointment with the Psychologist and it went terible :(( in a couple of weeks I get session of 3.5 hour pro week instead of 1 hour every 2 weeks :( They want me to have group therapy but im scared :(( I never done that :/ but I got 1 week om think about It and some apointment to talk about It :/ But for Now have a happy weekend xxxxxxxx

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Be crazy, be happy but most of all be your happy self :) true beauty cant be faked. Love life and love yourself <3 everybody is beautiful in there own way, Dont change just be you :)) #anorexianervosarecovery #crazy #selfie #kiss #duckface #prorecovery #happy #fitgirl #likeit #fashiondesigner #fashionstudent #redlips #Wink #anxiety #ana #ed #girl #blonde #blueeyes #togetherwerestrong #recoveringdutchie #me #picoftheday #skinnybutstrong #sizeo

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Goodmorning everyone, the sun is shining and we are on School again from 8.30 till 2.30 so a short Day :) then homework till i die :p have a lovely Day beauty's and remember make your own luck xxx #school #anorexianervosarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anxiety #prorecovery #paris #love #life #dream #recoveringdutchie #pink #dutchrecovery #fitgirl #weightlos #skinnybutstrong #togetherwerestrong #fashiondesigner #fashionstudent

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People are in the past for a reason. Dont Let them bring you down anymore Because you Dont care anymore ;) Of to bed Because the alarm goes on 5.45 again :(( Goodnight beautiful People xoxo #anorexianervosarecovery #quotelover #quote #eatingdisorderrecovery #prorecovery #staypositive #keepstrong #love #life #fightforrecovery #anxiety #fitgirl #Goodnight #laugh #fashionstudent

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Question for my instafriends :) I want to dye my hair in light blonde with a pink glow but I am scared that it look terrible or is to different :(( what do you guys think?? #dye #hair #pink #questions #durftevragen #anorexianervosarecovery #anxiety #eatingdisorderrecovery #fashion #fashionista #fashiondesigner #Dutch #love #life #change #hairstyle #haarstyling #dipdye

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I love you all xxx without love there is no life, be kind and love one another x #quoteoftheday #quote #love #life #anagirl #anxiety #anorexianervosarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #quotelover #prorecovery #togetherwerestrong #ed #ana #positive #smile #positivepost #skinnybutstrong

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"If everyone cared and nobody cried If everyone loved and nobody lied If everyone shared and swallowed their pride We'd see the day when nobody died" . If we respect one another this world would be a better place. Mabye you are not on the same level but everyone have there one beauty <3 Dont Let anyone bring you down Because your worth a fight xoxo (Now off to school on 7.15 fml) #quoteoftheday #quote #weightlos #eatingdisorderrecovery #ed #recoveringdutchie #togetherwerestrong #beyourself #love #smile #positive #anorexianervosarecovery #anxiety #ana #skinnybutstrong #fashiondesigner #staystrong #fuckana #tofabforana #smile #anagirl #edfamily

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Another Day on School and I am a little bit down again :( I am not comfortable in my own skin :(( sometimes I just want to cry but I must be strong :( nobody understands me, that i want to be left alone when I feel this way I feel like I bother People, or am to pushy at attention :(( I just Dont want to be here :'( want to go home and crawl in bed :(( Positive side macarons!!! #depression #anorexianervosarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #prorecovery

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Goodmorning everyone :) the sun is shining and it gets 30 degrees today so we drink smoothies and try to get a tan Because I have weekend!!!! But first we must go to the dentist #blegh but It's for a beautiful smile ;) Enjoy this sunny Day and Dont get burned ;) . Prettig weekend, schone wochenende, nice weekend, bon week-end #anorexianervosarecovery #anxiety #prorecovery #smoothies #weightlos #cranberry #eatingdisorderrecovery #fearfood #sunny #toghetherwerestrong #tofabforana #skinnybutstrong #ed #ana #anawarrior #edfamily #keepstrong #moreismore #niceday #weekend #dutchrecovery #recoveryforbetter #girl

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Evening snack: peanutbutter chips :)) the Kids are Sleeping and aunt gwen watch tv :) vest part of babysitting :p joking ;) have a lovely Evening xoxo #anorexianervosarecovery #prorecovery #fearfood

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Goodmorning everyone, I feel really sick but I Dont know of ana do this or I am really sick :( Today is a New school Day and we going to make the best of it :) only 3 weeks left :) saw this inspiration quote and though I share it with you xx have a lovely Day x #anorexianervosarecovery #prorecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #quoteoftheday #quote #weightlos #ana #ed #skinnybutstrong #sizeo #recoveringdutchie #togetherwerestrong #fightforrecovery #fightwithmyself #anxiety #depression #anagirl

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Another Day at school and I feel like poo :( my Allergy (hooikoorts) keeps coming up and I look and feel sick :/ Today we had a Quick Breakfast with one creaker and a cup of coffee. Now on School we have this delicious green icetea with low kcal :)) Lucky It's a short Day. Goodluck on work,school or what you are up too xoxo #anorexianervosarecovery #weightlos #prorecovery #dutchrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #ed #ana #togetherwerestrong #skinnybutstrong #icetea #greentea #nestea #fashionstudent #student #edwarriors #anagirl #fearfood