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Fawna flineched when he pulled away, prepared herself for him to ask her to leave โ was he angry that she hadnโt been the one to tell him? He had every right to be, if the roles were reversed she couldnโt imagine how blindsided and probably betrayed she would feel. She had never kept any of it from him with ill intentions. She just didnโt know how to bring it up. She didnโt want to be the one to hurt him. โNo. Stop it.โ Her expression hardened, voice changing from a soft, fragile tone to something more stern.ย โNo, youโre not. We wouldnโt be here if we couldnโt change it, we wouldnโt remember.โ She had to believe that. If she didnโt believe that, if she allowed herself to imagine their group of friends had taken a slingshot to the past simply to rewatch their loved ones dieโฆ what would be the point of it all?
โI canโt do it again, George,โ Fawna repeated herself,ย โI will lay down and die in front of you if thatโs what it takes, because I canโt.ย I canโt renovate my whole life and not have you be a part of it.ย I canโt come to a gravestone to introduce my fiance to my best friend. I canโt stand in front empty chairs at my wedding searching the crowd for your face, knowing good and damn well youโre not going to be there.โ She wasnโt trying to make this about her, she wasnโt trying to be the same self absorbed, selfish young girl he had known his whole life, but he had to understand. He had to understand that it wasnโt just him that needed a different outcome, the people who loved him did too.ย โI canโt land my dream job and have no one to tell about it, no one to come to New York to laugh at silly broadway plays with. Do you know how much Iโve missed you?โ Her voice cracked near the end of her sentence, hands reaching out on their own. She couldnโt stop them from grabbing his hands in hers.ย โYou have no idea. I had to keep living without you, George. It didnโt stop for me. I had to keep going. I had to wake up nearly every night screaming, watching you burn away to ashes in front of me, and hope Iโd have the same dream when I managed to sleep again just so I could see your face.โ
Squeezing his hands, she let her tears fall freely now. There was no use in trying to stop them. She only hoped he didnโt pull away from her grip again. She didnโt have an excuse to hold on for too long before,ย now he knew what caused the sudden clinginess. โWhen everyone else left me, I still had you. You were never supposed to leave me, and I will not let you again.โ
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George felt a need to curl into himself to forget it all. What more was there for him when cheating death wasn't a part of the plan. What if somehow his death sentence became somebody else's if he tried? There was no way he could live life knowing all he did was take away somebody else's life. He wondered why they had all been sent back in time but even though he understood it could mean something he wouldn't risk it.
"Fawna," he whispered, eyes watering. It'd be a lie if he said he'd thought of everything she'd said. Of course he hadn't thought about how everyone else had felt going on in a world were he was no more. He'd been stuck on what would happen to him that he had forgotten about everything else. But would that change things? No, they couldn't. They wouldn't. Breathing was getting harder and harder with the passing of time, the pressure of tomorrow swallowing him whole. "I love you. I love you, but what can be done?"
"If it happened there was a reason to it. A cause." Georgie said, shrugging. "An the fact that they are unsure as to why it happened is even worst. Because out there someone or something is preparing to happen. I am just collateral damage of a tragedy."ย
Looking down at her hands grasping his he couldn't help all the tears that began pouring out. "I don't want to leave you. I don't want to die."
"You have to get it, though. There isn't more for me out there? I died for a reason. I had to have died for a reason." And maybe that was the truth the hurt the most to swallow. That his death could be the catalyst to something bigger that he couldn't understand, and would never find out. Because if his death was for nothing. No, he wouldn't be able to stomach such a reality.

















