I’m Mirin, & you can also call me Mimi or Gutz! I’m a xenosatanist radqueer, a paraphile, & a lifestyle jirai . I use he/him, she/her and it/its.
my transids/ID hoard is pretty consistently updated! give it a read <3
I fall under the faekin label as I am in fact one of the fair folk. I have a human body but I do not identify with it.
This blog has a lot of mixed stuff: I post whatever I want, when I feel, whether it’s rq-adj or not, so tw for almost everything under the sun here; if we’re moots and you need me to tag smth I will! Otherwise; beware. I have no dni. Exploring and exposing yourself to this blog is in YOUR OWN DISCRETION, I am not responsible for the horrors you may find here. This is your only safety checkpoint.
I tag explicit stuff as NSFT; though I do post it often enough that it’s not hard to find on a casual scroll down my blog. What can I say?
a little about me: —————>
I’m a transmasc femme, aroallo-adj. My main paras include stuff under all of the big 3 (so 🗺️, 🐾, 💀), biastophilia, sadism, erotophonophilia, & hoplophia, though I have more. I’m really into magical girls, j-idol & k-idol stuff, jiraikei and other j-fashion categories!
I have diagnosed ASD, paranoid anxiety, I’m a delusional schizophrenic (gen), and I have developed many NPD & ASPD traits with high sociopathy/psychopathy indicators over the course of my formative years.
I’m a system, but for my safety and sanity I don’t post or tag per alter (I’m a victim of suspect r*mcoa). Some of the alters might post stuff on their own thay vaguely hints at their individual identities but that’s their own choice.
I’m physically cisdisabled as well, with comorbid birth defects and chronic illnesses that I won’t be explaining— for saftey and sanity reasons, again, lol. I’m in the hospital a lot. This fuels my transhospitalized yearning; it’s a safe space of mine.
In general, I’m a sick sadist bastard but I do love being on bottom often. I’d say I’m a dom and power-bottom in one. So, come try your luck~ though I have a fiancée; I’d love to see you try and prove your poor self as better than her (which is a futile effort).
Soooo~! Come send me asks I get off on attention. Any hatred directed towards this blog will also be used to shamelessly promote my sexual deviance. Muah!
There’s something slightly sensual about anesthesia… I remember 5 seconds into counting down the last time I was getting put under thinking, “wow, I’m not tired at all. Is this stuff really working?” Next thing I remember , I’m waking up in my hospital bed. I didn’t remember being asleep. I didn’t remember those last 5 seconds.
As a 💀 I found out ice makes me numb down there and It feels like a dead body even though it's freezing cold but warm still uhhh was that weird to say? Oh well! :3
-Puppy anon
Not weird enough for the blog, puppy anon! Trust me, I’ve been sent worse (back when I asked for para confessions in inbox not to post)~
I’ve been away from tumblr for a bit and seeing this on my return was great, I’m always glad to see us trying new ways to cope w paraphilas!!
Im loosing my brainnn every time I get interested in a older person rq blog I get happy but then I find out they aren't map and it hurts mee I just wanna find one so badddd and enables my parasocial like self :3c
-puppy anon
(I don't mean to keep spamming your inbox but i wanna be friends but im scared honestly and suck at starting conversations)
Don’t worry! I love attention so spam me all you want! I just reply at my own leisure.
Though I’m not sure what advice to give here. Keep looking & I believe in you! Interacting with all sorts of blogs helps find people the quickest.
I realized I forgot to tell you but I made a Kandi single with the necro colors and I say it's my zombie apocalypse themed one :33
-puppy anon
oh hell yeah!!! I need to make more bracelets….. & jewelry. I don’t have any flags immediately in mind rn, but I’ve been reallly homesick (otherkin stuff jn a sense?) so I want things that remind me of home!
I love your “zombie apocalypse themed” bracelet and I hope wearing it makes you feel mischievous, from the joy of repping your id in secret!!
Yeah I thought you might get a kick out of it which is why I mentioned him, he just got eviler lowkey. I almost want to follow u with our new account but I've kinda slit the self harming wants out of myself today. You might also take joy in knowing that we haven't been able to play twisted wonderland since u left because looking at riddle now makes us nauseous lmao
Awww, I love that! You’re still so thoughtful to us after all this time. I’m glad to hear it. It’d be fun to hear from him.
I beat twisted wonderland actually!! It’s kinda pathetic how seeing a character from it makes you think of me so much that you almost loose it.
I’m pretty sure you’ll stick around anyway regardless of if you follow or not— but it’d be fun seeing all the stuff you post and analyzing it. It’s up to you in the end— and who’s saying I haven’t already found your new account anyway, right?
I might have to make an anon tag for you at this point with the influx of messages you send… so I’m calling you 🩸anon, okay?
In all honestly you probably will lol, I still sometimes wear the collar you gave us, your lipstick marked letter is still on my wall. It is probably best we are where we are now, my life hasn't really gotten better it's probably gotten worse if I'm being truthful but reading your old posts about me did make me feel a little happy. When you stopped responding to my messages we just had probably the worst splitting meltdown of my lifetime so that's kinda why we did what we did we just felt starved if that makes any sense idk. Acunin took it the worst and while the rest of us kind of got into a better place he never did but he talks to our therapist some times now so that's a start! Anyways I am really happy for u and I mean that genuinely not in like a jealous way or anything. Ill probably lurk watching your blog for a few days before I fade back into the background cause thinking about you too much unironically gives me a headache which I don't mean in an offensive way
it's kind of sweet to see your obsession with me affected you so badly! I love knowing that the thought of us will haunt you forever.
feel free to lurk as much as you'd like! you're always welcome to see what horrors i'm up to. It thrills me to hear about Acunin. I think you knew it would, too.
I'm glad you have your collar still! Did you know that when I purchased it, it required some repair, and the person whom I'm now set to marry was the one who fixed it for me, knowing it'd go to you?
I'm glad the others have had some progress in therapy but i'd be lying if I said i wasn't excited at the fact that my claws sink into them that much still. It's exciting when a beaten dog comes back to paw at the door.
It's been fun to hear from all of you. Give words and whispers to sweet Acunin for me.
I just came across your blog, and I must say, I am intrigued. You say that you have a fiancé (curious) and that attempts to prove oneself as better are welcome, yet futile. How enticing. How baiting. Well, we'll see who baits who here. I'll bite first, give it a go, show you how it's done. What attempts would you like to see, would bring me marginally nearer to challenging this so-declared fiancé of yours?
Evermore, 🐍
"show me how it's done?" then asking me what i'd like to see?
i want to see you grow a spine and show me you even deserve my attention. this ask has been sitting in my box since easter because of the sheer audacity. you hardly deserve a response.
you talk so much about bait? i'll dub you "worm anon."
challenging the love of my life with this flimsy of a foundation is far, far beyond your reach.
also, you talk like your message was chat-GPT scripted out of taylor swift's reputation album.
