Yes I meant on your knees.

37 Male Dom Nerdy Dominant with a penchant for being melodramatic. Hypno enthusiast, believer of the natural order with some twists. Always learning and hoping to share. 18+ only. Interesting views on the patriarchy amongst other kinks. Don't hesitate to reach out if you want to know something. Owner of my genius @Bellegirl

[halfassedstoic]

An excerpt from Belle's letter to me.....

Preface: Cunt had a few tasks given to it by me before I went to sleep for the evening. As many know an online relationship is in many ways harder to keep on track because it’s so easy to skip tasks and fall into your own routine. Accountability is key and when left with simple tasks to keep it occupied cunt usually completes them all with gusto……… Except for that night. I don’t remember the exact reason that cunt neglected it’s tasks but the consequences were dire to it. Whilst I enjoy bimbo play occasionally cunt loathes it. Cunt although property is quite proud of it’s intellect and rightly so. It it’s the first thing that drew my attention to her. However it failed it’s tasks and a quick post hypnotic suggestion later…. Well enjoy her letter to me.

“Like it understands this is a punishment. Like it broke a ton of a rules in a short 12 hour period. Like it didn’t do its exercises, it forgot to put its small plug in, it stayed up past it’s bedtime and it didn’t get an entire hour of reading in and then it slept two hours past it’s alarm.

So now, its punishment is like a whole bunch of things to remind it that it is an object and a piece of property and that it needs to obey because it had it easy before it broke rules. And like when it breaks rules, Master makes more rules for it and it makes life harder for cunt. But like that’s okay because it’s just a dumb cunt any way.

Like one of its new rules is it has to be plugged like all the time. Like it has three hours with its plug in its ass, then a one hour rest before it repeats. And like it isn’t allowed to use the toilet to go pee any more and the only way it’s allowed to pee is if its kneeling in the bathtub and rubbing its clit. And like it isn’t even supposed to be embarrassed by it because it’s just a cunt any way, and if it complains then it will only get worse. And like since its only a cunt, it doesn’t get to be on furniture until Master allows it back on.

Like some people might think Master is mean to it because these new rules are humiliating. But like its not really even a person. Like its just a cunt so these rules are necessary to remind it of its place and because dumb cunts and pets and fucktoys need rules. And like if it needs any proof of it being less than a person it just needs to pay attention to its dripping inferior slit between its legs. Like it is so wet and aroused for being treated like a dumb animal because it knows its place. Like its cunt knows what it is even if its dumb inferior brain forgets.

And like Master wants to take away everything it enjoys for today. Like no music, even though it has to run 3 miles, and no reading because if it enjoys reading then it should have read for an hour like it was supposed to. And like it can’t even enjoy food because Master will only let it eat watered down, unflavored farina which is so gross. Like it took it almost half an hour to eat it’s one serving of farina this morning because it was so…blah.

Like its so fucking horny and it wants to cum so bad because it’s been rubbing its little clitty this whole time. Like that’s just more proof if its stupid inferior status as a cunt.

Master, like can it please please cum?

Love, Your dumb cunt belle”

Good @bellegirl

[halfassedstoic]

Fuck me I'm horrible. What's it's thoughts on this @bellegirl ?

[belle-flop]

Confession CXXII - when the impossible becomes possible

I remember attending a sex toy party years ago. They talked about the different types of orgasms one could have. There were only three types, namely clitoral, vaginal, and g-spot. I was surprised anal wasn’t on the list. I loved anal sex, but since I was attending the party with my sister, and I was still somewhat sexually repressed, I didn’t dare speak up and ask about anal orgasms as a possibility. I just accepted the truth that, in its omission from the list of orgasm types, anal orgasms weren’t a thing.

Fast forward to now. Before I found @halfassedstoic, as much as I enjoyed being fucked in the ass, I never was able to climax from it. Within a few months of our relationship, with a little help from hypnosis and a lot of help from edging and denial, I was able to reach an anal orgasm.

Master has me on no touch. But I did a dumb thing and scrolled tumblr. I was horny beyond belief and dying to edge. So I did what any desperate, intelligently devious, denied cunt would do. I fucked my ass. I’m not allowed to cum without his permission, obviously, but the edges I got from fucking my ass, leaving my cunt untouched, were pretty fucking amazing.

The anal edges took the edge off of no touch.

Another great kink oxymoron.

[halfassedstoic]

I don't think I give enough praise to my cunt. There are a lot of dynamics between us behind the scenes but one that I love the most is when she/it confesses to needy edging. Needy edging is when cunt can't keep it bottled up anymore and she/it begins to rut in heat. Now simmer down now I allow this to happen. Think of it as a vent valve for her/it's sanity. And I encourage out as well. I talk about coming home to find wetspots on the furniture and her/it passed out in a pool of drool and drippings. Yeah she/it drips. And I fucking love it.

See I digressed I was going to talk about anal orgasms and here I am talking about finding puddles on the floor. Perspective is key here. When we began this journey like she/it said she was slightly sexually repressed, and couldn't really fathom the idea of an anal orgasm. The first one was brought about through hypnotic suggestion. Linking her/it's love of anal with the sensations of clit edging created a bridge that once crossed was permanent.

The use of no touch was a safety measure but I understood what would happen. My cunt is my pet, my slave, my little, my doll and what we see here is my fucktoy. There's more sides that you the people of Tumblr haven't met yet. If you show her/it enough love maybe I'll give some more peeks.

[belle-flop]

Confession CXV

Today is a day of endless edging. Forgive me as I’m an hour in and typing with one hand. I didn’t have work today but Master had me wake up early just to begin my day of edging.

The rules are no tv and no reading and no games on my phone. Each of these activities are replaced with edging. I can shower and dress and work from home and cook and eat, but as soon as I’m idle, I’m edging.

This post is lucid but the others won’t be. Soon the fog of arousal and the buzz of denial will cloud my thoughts and writing.

No cumming. Just edging.

Edge only. Edge forever. Edge for Master.

[halfassedstoic]

I must apologize that I used up what remained of @bellegirl mind much earlier that I had originally planned. I saw this post way to late and had already restored her ability to function though a very deep orgasm. However if anyone would like to see what her mind would be like in that state reblog or comment here and I'll send her right back to that edge.

[belle-flop]

Some cunts never learn. I am one of those cunts. There are times it’s okay to be snarky. When you’re naked and eating your bland flavorless cream of wheat from the floor like an animal is not one of those times.

And now my food is all over my face. So much for my freshly applied makeup.

Fuck. I just can’t keep the snark in.

[halfassedstoic]

Self awareness is something that should be treasured. My cunt is everything to me and for me. Including being a snarky brat sometimes. Luckily she's been trained well enough that I can address that with a snap of my fingers. What do you say @bellegirl cunt?

[belle-flop]

A writing assignment

A one handed one at that.

I have never observed Lent. Until now. Master let me have an orgasm on Fat Tuesday, an anal orgasm. My first anal orgasm, and my last orgasm for 46 days (if he’s feeling generous) or possibly forever. Cunts never cum after all.

But they do edge. The edge a lot. I have been edging non stop for the last 45 minutes and I still have another 15 minutes to go. And before I started, Master had me promise him to never cum without his permission.

My clit is so sensitive. I’m hardly diddling. Just touching my little nub has me on edge. My whole body tingling. My cunt dripping.

It’s my own fault. Before Lent I teased him. Said he was a big softie and he would let me cum if I just begged enough. But I begged. Oh I begged. I pleaded. I bartered. I cried. Still he said no. So I begged to stop touching. He still said no. Stuck in limbo. Forever on edge.

Fuck I want to cum. I am fantasizing about it. Imagining his deep, sexy as fuck voice saying the words I am dying to hear. “Cum for me my cunt.” Feeling him reach out to grab my hypersensitive nipples, twisting them as my body spasms in ecstasy. My worthless cunt pulsing as if milking his cock for his precious cum.

My body is shaking with need. But cunts never cum. Edge only.

[halfassedstoic]

Memories...... Maybe I should have @bellegirl give up cumming for the rest of Lent again. I still am a big old softie...

[halfassedstoic]

Why do you call your sub cunt?

My sub, my slave, my cunt. When I first began talking with then Belle we discussed our emerging dynamic and our views on traditional roles etc. I brought up my views on a patriarchal relationship as well. Now many would see the term cunt as downright demeaning and I completely understand that. But for myself and Belle (cunt) it is an ultimate expression of our relationship. She (it) serves me fully. In essence she exists to serve me. An I in turn exist to care, train and better her. Calling her cunt it’s the purest way I can express to her and our Tumblr friends what we are. I am her Master and she is my cunt. It is not said in disgust. It is said in place of words that do not fit our dynamic. I hope that helped and I’m inviting @bellegirl to chime in with it’s own views.

[belle-flop]

Most of my mutuals who I really look up to will disagree with me because they firmly believe that in D/s relationships, neither side of the slash is inferior or superior. They believe and promote that both sides of the slash are equal in the relationship but with different needs. And I agree. Both sides of the slash are equals. But I also believe that as a woman, I am naturally subordinate to men. I believe that, as a female, it is my duty and purpose to support, serve, and please men. Not all men, mind you, but MY man. I believe that it is not my submissiveness that makes be subservient, rather my gender, my femininity, my role in biology and nature that make me so.

From our earliest conversations, before I even submitted to Master, I knew he agreed with these views, and that was one of the reasons I was so deeply attracted to him. We follow the patriarchy, but in a much more gentle way than some of the more intense patriarchy followers. We agree that nature intends for me to serve and please him, my body is designed to be appealing and pleasing and comforting to him. But he appreciates that I do these things and he doesn’t believe me to be disposable and useless. He sees value in me and appreciates the things I bring to our relationship.

With that being said, my role is to serve my Owner. To please him, to fulfill his needs, and to provide an outlet for him, be it sexual, physical, or emotional. His role is to provide structure for me, to train me to better fill his needs, to care for me and provide for my own needs. When Master calls me cunt, he does so in love. It’s a term of endearment that reminds me of my place and reinforces the patriarchal and D/s dynamics at play in our relationship. I belong to Master. I am his property. People are not property, they cannot be owned, but a cunt is just a thing, an object, an inferior being, but a prized possession. When Master calls me cunt, I am filled with pride because I have earned his protection and his love and his ownership. When he calls me cunt, I drip because being reduced to an object with a single purpose brings me as much pleasure as I strive to bring him. When Master calls me cunt, my mind settles because I know my purpose and I know I have earned my place at his feet. No other name has this effect on me. I love when Master calls me pet, or baby, or toy, and at other times, slave or slut has its place, but nothing expresses and reaffirms our relationship, my purpose, my place quite like when he calls me cunt. It’s what I am.

[halfassedstoic]

Fuck me, my cunt has a way with words. I hope these answers satisfied your curiosity anon. I'm more than willing to speak more if you wish. Be well.

[halfassedstoic]

Why do you call your sub cunt?

My sub, my slave, my cunt. When I first began talking with then Belle we discussed our emerging dynamic and our views on traditional roles etc. I brought up my views on a patriarchal relationship as well. Now many would see the term cunt as downright demeaning and I completely understand that. But for myself and Belle (cunt) it is an ultimate expression of our relationship. She (it) serves me fully. In essence she exists to serve me. An I in turn exist to care, train and better her. Calling her cunt it's the purest way I can express to her and our Tumblr friends what we are. I am her Master and she is my cunt. It is not said in disgust. It is said in place of words that do not fit our dynamic. I hope that helped and I'm inviting @bellegirl to chime in with it's own views.

[halfassedstoic]

One year and nine days…

Or 538,560 minutes give or take a few.

I know I don’t share anything about myself here really. In fact I joined Tumblr a little over a year ago on a lark. I’ve been involved in the BDSM world in some form or another for close to 21 years. I’ve stumbled through relationships whole we both figured out what we wanted and needed. And I spent many anguished hours debating if this life was worth the investment of my life.

A few years ago I came across hypnosis and it’s application in BDSM. And from there more recently the Patriarchy and it’s beliefs. Those two ideas solidified my kink and helped me blaze a path that led me here. To this moment. One year and nine days from when I met her. It. My Belle and then my cunt.

I had a false start on here with another person and I was left a bit distraught. Now some Dominants will act like they don’t second guess. Like they never falter. That’s bullshit. We’re human plain and simple. And so there I was stumbling again. And through another person here I reached out to Belle for some perspective from the submissive side. see I had already noticed @bellegirl some weeks before though her writing so when her situation became known to me I thought about it and reached out.

Never in my years of online have I clicked with someone like that. From the cautious early messages that were masking already a deep attraction. To the the shared interests and wants and needs. And then Belle agreed to trance for me. You know that scene in movies when they cut to fireworks exploding in the air. Yeah that. And it’s been that every day. From morning to night fireworks. And yes there are ups and downs. As in all relationships but she, it is worth it.

So here we are. One year nine days and minutes ticking away. So cunt pour me a glass of bourbon and settle in. We have a long ride ahead.

[soundsnaked]

Source: @dennistheprescott

[23skidood]

I am so glad they allow this sort of explicit porn on tumblr

[halfassedstoic]

I need this is my life soon...

[halfassedstoic]

An excerpt from Belle's letter to me.....

Preface: Cunt had a few tasks given to it by me before I went to sleep for the evening. As many know an online relationship is in many ways harder to keep on track because it’s so easy to skip tasks and fall into your own routine. Accountability is key and when left with simple tasks to keep it occupied cunt usually completes them all with gusto……… Except for that night. I don’t remember the exact reason that cunt neglected it’s tasks but the consequences were dire to it. Whilst I enjoy bimbo play occasionally cunt loathes it. Cunt although property is quite proud of it’s intellect and rightly so. It it’s the first thing that drew my attention to her. However it failed it’s tasks and a quick post hypnotic suggestion later…. Well enjoy her letter to me.

“Like it understands this is a punishment. Like it broke a ton of a rules in a short 12 hour period. Like it didn’t do its exercises, it forgot to put its small plug in, it stayed up past it’s bedtime and it didn’t get an entire hour of reading in and then it slept two hours past it’s alarm.

So now, its punishment is like a whole bunch of things to remind it that it is an object and a piece of property and that it needs to obey because it had it easy before it broke rules. And like when it breaks rules, Master makes more rules for it and it makes life harder for cunt. But like that’s okay because it’s just a dumb cunt any way.

Like one of its new rules is it has to be plugged like all the time. Like it has three hours with its plug in its ass, then a one hour rest before it repeats. And like it isn’t allowed to use the toilet to go pee any more and the only way it’s allowed to pee is if its kneeling in the bathtub and rubbing its clit. And like it isn’t even supposed to be embarrassed by it because it’s just a cunt any way, and if it complains then it will only get worse. And like since its only a cunt, it doesn’t get to be on furniture until Master allows it back on.

Like some people might think Master is mean to it because these new rules are humiliating. But like its not really even a person. Like its just a cunt so these rules are necessary to remind it of its place and because dumb cunts and pets and fucktoys need rules. And like if it needs any proof of it being less than a person it just needs to pay attention to its dripping inferior slit between its legs. Like it is so wet and aroused for being treated like a dumb animal because it knows its place. Like its cunt knows what it is even if its dumb inferior brain forgets.

And like Master wants to take away everything it enjoys for today. Like no music, even though it has to run 3 miles, and no reading because if it enjoys reading then it should have read for an hour like it was supposed to. And like it can’t even enjoy food because Master will only let it eat watered down, unflavored farina which is so gross. Like it took it almost half an hour to eat it’s one serving of farina this morning because it was so…blah.

Like its so fucking horny and it wants to cum so bad because it’s been rubbing its little clitty this whole time. Like that’s just more proof if its stupid inferior status as a cunt.

Master, like can it please please cum?

Love, Your dumb cunt belle”

Good @bellegirl

[halfassedstoic]

Brings tear to my eye..... @bellegirl Like should we revisit this particular mindest? 😈😈😈😈😈😈

[halfassedstoic]

Hey I've seen a lot about this "mind melter" but what exactly is it?

Edit: From what I’ve been told mind melter was created by @neuralnetsandprettypatterns all credit where it’s due.

It’s like sensory overload for your mind. If you against it, it’s all just noise. But if your mind is open…. @bellegirl please share it’s experience.

[belle-flop]

Melted

Master said edge to Mind Melter. Edging but can’t remember how many. Hard to think cuz I’m a good girl. One hour. Two. Edge and melt. Mind dripping out cunt. So wet. From melty drippy mind. Sleepy. Soft. Master’s pleasure puppet makes him happy. Dumb is happy. Better to be bimbo. Don’t think. Master’s good girl. Edge don’t cum. Edge and be good. Master’s fuck puppet toy. Happy with no mind. Never stop. Tick tock.

[halfassedstoic]

Benefits of having a hynoslave is moments like this. Watching her shift from an intelligent and witty mind to a drooling slack jawed glazed over thing that at most can parrot my words back as they become her world for those moments. Wouldn't change this for the world. @bellegirl smile and wave for the people, they've come to see what's left of it's mind.

[belle-flop]

Day 0 of 10 - instructions

It started on Saturday when Master had an idea that he hopes will enhance my fucktoy characteristics, making me mindless, desperately horny, and increasingly eager to serve. One week of endless edging to begin the next day. I could cum that day, but then no more for a week. Master is very generous with allowing me orgasms, but I’m never allowed to orgasm without permission. The blanket permission to cum as much as I wanted for an entire day was frightful evidence of his seriousness in keeping me denied for so long.

“Endless edging?” I asked.

As is often the case, his instructions were dispensed in writing to limit my excuses for misunderstanding. There is no gray area in black and white text. But as I read his instructions i could hear his voice, full of sadistic excitement, seeping through the words on the screen. Master was going to thoroughly enjoy my torment. And while he was aroused at the level of control he was exerting, I was terrified.

Every bit of free time I have is to be spent edging. I have my normal chores and tasks to complete such as cooking, cleaning, and exercises, but if I am not legitimately busy, I am to be edging. Endless edging. No more relaxing in front of the tv unless I am edging to the vapid, mind numbing, pornographic images on the screen. No more reading as an escape unless it is smutty edging material. No more passing the time googling random shit on my phone unless it is something to stimulate my cunt more than my mind. Endless edging, no cumming.

You can see why I was terrified.

[halfassedstoic]

It definitely was worth the the 9 plus days of no cumming to watch my cunts descent into a fucktoy mindset. I don't even think she made it 3 days before she begged to never cum again as the edging itself was conditioning her mind to constantly be aroused. 9 days turned her into a blubbering mess of a cunt. Squirting haphazardly while I watched her mind drip out of her mouth. I might have to revisit this again soon. What say you @bellegirl

[halfassedstoic]

Can you have more than one sub? Please..

Hello anon, I'd prefer if you messaged me off anon to talk. Thank you.

[halfassedstoic]

An excerpt from Belle's letter to me.....

Preface: Cunt had a few tasks given to it by me before I went to sleep for the evening. As many know an online relationship is in many ways harder to keep on track because it’s so easy to skip tasks and fall into your own routine. Accountability is key and when left with simple tasks to keep it occupied cunt usually completes them all with gusto……… Except for that night. I don’t remember the exact reason that cunt neglected it’s tasks but the consequences were dire to it. Whilst I enjoy bimbo play occasionally cunt loathes it. Cunt although property is quite proud of it’s intellect and rightly so. It it’s the first thing that drew my attention to her. However it failed it’s tasks and a quick post hypnotic suggestion later…. Well enjoy her letter to me.

“Like it understands this is a punishment. Like it broke a ton of a rules in a short 12 hour period. Like it didn’t do its exercises, it forgot to put its small plug in, it stayed up past it’s bedtime and it didn’t get an entire hour of reading in and then it slept two hours past it’s alarm.

So now, its punishment is like a whole bunch of things to remind it that it is an object and a piece of property and that it needs to obey because it had it easy before it broke rules. And like when it breaks rules, Master makes more rules for it and it makes life harder for cunt. But like that’s okay because it’s just a dumb cunt any way.

Like one of its new rules is it has to be plugged like all the time. Like it has three hours with its plug in its ass, then a one hour rest before it repeats. And like it isn’t allowed to use the toilet to go pee any more and the only way it’s allowed to pee is if its kneeling in the bathtub and rubbing its clit. And like it isn’t even supposed to be embarrassed by it because it’s just a cunt any way, and if it complains then it will only get worse. And like since its only a cunt, it doesn’t get to be on furniture until Master allows it back on.

Like some people might think Master is mean to it because these new rules are humiliating. But like its not really even a person. Like its just a cunt so these rules are necessary to remind it of its place and because dumb cunts and pets and fucktoys need rules. And like if it needs any proof of it being less than a person it just needs to pay attention to its dripping inferior slit between its legs. Like it is so wet and aroused for being treated like a dumb animal because it knows its place. Like its cunt knows what it is even if its dumb inferior brain forgets.

And like Master wants to take away everything it enjoys for today. Like no music, even though it has to run 3 miles, and no reading because if it enjoys reading then it should have read for an hour like it was supposed to. And like it can’t even enjoy food because Master will only let it eat watered down, unflavored farina which is so gross. Like it took it almost half an hour to eat it’s one serving of farina this morning because it was so…blah.

Like its so fucking horny and it wants to cum so bad because it’s been rubbing its little clitty this whole time. Like that’s just more proof if its stupid inferior status as a cunt.

Master, like can it please please cum?

Love, Your dumb cunt belle”

Good @bellegirl

[accidental-muse]

Doms and subs in their 30s, 40s & beyond, call to represent!

Recently I reblogged and commented on an Ask that @theruleset answered in which an Anon worried that she ‘missed her chance’ to explore the kink scene because she might have grown too old.

She’s 25.

The reblogs continued, and those in the community who aren’t right out of their teens (nor looking for a partner who is) weighed in with such great feedback! It felt awesome to go through the replies, and to follow their blogs, and to feel something akin to actual representation and visibility on a website and its kink subculture that is overwhelmingly tilted toward the (sometimes uncomfortably, depending on what’s depicted) very young.  Especially when it comes to the women in it.

Got nothing but love for those younger (but legal, of course) in kink, too, and you all deserve an amazing journey as much as any of us, but this particular post is for 30 and up, soooooo:

Please like and reblog this if you’re a Dominant, submissive, or kinkster in your 30s, 40s or older so we can find and support each other, and most of all, increase our visibility on tumblr. :)

(And if you just want to support this post, please feel free to like and reblog, too!)

[bimbo-in-training]

🐇🐝

[belle-flop]

Confession LXXXIV (because I had a reblog that was so long I counted it as a confession)

Remember when Daddy said if I get 5 reblogs then I get to cum?  Well guess what? It took a lot of days and I can’t remember how many but I finally got enough!

I stayed up really late but Daddy wasn’t even mad. And he said to check my post and I counted em and there were five so I asked if I could cum and he said “Yes. But…”

I was so afraid he was gonna be mean and make me do something bad so it wasn’t fun. And I said “no buts!” And I felt like a grown up cuz that’s what grownups always say. Hahaha!

But then he said “but I want to make it special”. And he said all I have to do is do a audio recording! And he said I had to put my plug in my bum. I like that even though it feels naughty but daddy said it isn’t naughty so it’s okay. So I put my plug in my bum and I got to use a toy in my pussy like I did before when I was naughty and daddy said I couldn’t touch and I got to cum!!!!

It felt so so good. And I’m really happy and really sleepy and really hungry. And I hope daddy lets me have a cookie before I go to sleep.

PS. Daddy let me have a cookie. But just one. It was so so yummy! I have the bestest Daddy ever!

[halfassedstoic]

I plan moments with my cunt days or weeks in advance. Leaving seeds of thought in it's head and watching them bloom. That is how we met Bella. Bella......Bella is a handful. She's the combination of my fucktoy and the sweet innocent side of Belle that always resented littles because they could get away with so much more than my cunt could. Like everything with @bellegirl her mind fleshes out what I construct. Trust me I wouldn't have given Bella so much gumption. Listen up and enjoy her playtime. If she gets enough love I'll make sure you get to hear her cumming again and again.