5-12-22 - Random Thoughts
First, I know it’s been a couple of years. A few things a lot has changed. But, before I go into a deep dive of everything, a few thoughts find there way on repeat on my mind.
1. I do a lot of thinking in my head. And before you say, “Well, don’t we all!”; let me explain. Conversations in my head will follow a couple of patterns. They will be with multiples of myself or just one voice. The multiples are used for problem solving stuff (“stuff” used loosely here for anything) and the single voice making comments one the environment. When I’m in these “conversations” I talk to myself out loud sometime. Not the crazy talking to voices stuff. But, talking to myself none the less. I try to only talk to myself when no one is around me. Makes me look a little crazy if not. And people wouldn’t be wrong, but that’s beside the point. It’s that single voice that reacts to things that I worry about. Example: I walk past one of my female coworkers and the single internal voice says, “You have pretty hair today.” Harmless at best. Cringey at worst. Another example: walking into the men’s room at work, “What died in here?!” The point being, I worry sometimes if I don’t pay attention enough and the internal voice then becomes external and I’m left with asking, “Wait, you heard that?”
2. I have a few songs that are always on repeat in my head.
- Mr. Roger’s Neighborhood
- Fiddler’s Green by Marley’s Ghost
- Escape (The Piña Colada Song)
Why do I have these on repeat and why do they cycle through at random times?... I don’t know (shrug). What I can tell you is that they surface at random times and then dive back down to the depths. Granted, there are other songs the float around, but these are the top most right now. They do change from time to time as well. They do suit my mood when they do rise to the surface. Some shrink would give me a word back on that I’m sure. For now though, I’ll be content in my daily odd life. - Halifax Jones