Why would you sell ALL your consoles and games... I can understand the clothes thing cause sometimes you just get fed up with the same old stuff, but I can't believe you only had shit games that you'll never want to look at ever again????
aahā¦.well, Iā¦never play any of it anymoreā¦I used to like, do couch coop with friends when I was still a student and had friends over on a regular basis. Itās not happening anymore. The last time I had any guests was like, september 2013, when my "roommate" left.
These consoles and games are wasting away in my hands. I only ever seem to do gaming on the PC anymore, and likeā¦next gen is hereā¦..Iād really rather have a few hundred bucks instead of this stuff, I think. Having a financial cushion, or the capability of spending quite a bit of money is a luxury Iād really like to have.
I seem to be in need of a very high amount of security in order to feel safe, soā¦yeah. trying to get there.
I used to jokingly refer to myself as an āomnigamerā by which I meant to express that I would play games on any system. (console wars are dumb as fuck in my opinion)
But I guess things justā¦change, you know? When I was a teenager Iād pretty much play ANYTHING I had any interest inā¦eventually I started skipping games, or only watching playthroughs of them.
It used to be I would 100% games. or 120%, whichever is the highest grade of completion. I also used to never use guides or help to get that.
I remember when I was playing Onimusha on PS2, I had a moment when I said to myself āfuck it, I am not wasting my time on this puzzle shit.ā I am okay with it when itās the essence of the game, like the Layton or Ace Attorney Series, but likeā¦no, I wonāt waste half an hour trying to figure out this sliding tiles puzzle. Itās just not worth my time anymore.
I would like to think that I am going to move away from gaming again and be more productive, and dare I say, creative again. What good is it if I get really good at some video game? 200 hours down the drain? How much would those 200 hours have done for my artistic progression? It hurts to think about that, and it should. I donāt think the time is entirely āwastedā as I at least (hopefully) had a somewhat good time playing those games, but stillā¦I could have spent it doing something a lot better, which would likely have resulted in an equally good or even better feeling for myself.
Anywayā¦yeah there are a lot of good games I sold, games I was hesitant to let go, but at the end of the day I am trying to ask myself whether I really need all that stuff or whether itās just cluttering my world.
I have way too much stuff, overall.
Do you ever feel likeā¦trapped by the amount of options and choices you have? I am sure many people know that feeling of not knowing what to do simply because they have too many options. Whether itās trying to figure out which of your 500 steam games to play, or which program to use as an artist, or trying to figure out the best route to take to that italian place you go to for lunchbreak, time spent trying to decide is time spent not doing much of anything. The time you might save by finding the better option is lost by trying to make up your mind.
I think it proves true to me that oftentimes, not having that many options is quiteā¦liberating? Of course this isnāt always correctā¦time spent trying to optimize your workflow for example is time well spent, cause it will improve longterm performanceā¦but yeahā¦.I am trying to make my life more..compact. There is so much shit I donāt need, that I donāt even -like- in my life. I hate my closet, for example. I want to get rid of my old TV, and I have like a dozen books I am not interested in reading, ever.
Why do I have all that stuff? Because I am too lazy and comfy to make an effort to rid myself of it.
It feels like life is a complex mechanism that gets encumbered and slowed by all that stuff that it accumulates over time, andā¦unless you maintain that mechanism and keep it oiled and all that, it just wonāt run as smoothly. Right now, I am trying to do just that.
And that includes letting go of things I, if I am honest to myself, might never really need again.
PS; did you ever try to clean up an Xbox/PS Controller?Oh, the amount of gross goop coming out of all the crevices and seams is likeā¦.enough to give someone a fetish. For some reason it doesnāt gross me out as much as I figured. Oh well!
