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Just hopping on real quick to share these screenshots, I was originally planning to reblog these directly from the source before erin deleted, so there would be no doubt that I didn’t fake them. All I can do is post them without my deadname blocked out, like it had been previously.

first two are from erin, the screenshot I had shown before about her wanting to see me naked when we were involved, and a video she had posted for me. My url was thatonezombiechick, and my old name was Misty. More proof of this from my tag on tumblr, where an old friend was reaching out. You can find that yourself, too.

I would absolutely show proof of our sexual interactions if I still had access to my skype, or my deviantart (despite the fact it’s disgusting to demand that, I know it would be necessary if I had it.) I’ve tried to get back into both, but I’m unfortunately not tech savvy enough to access deleted information. My old deviantart was thatonezombiechick and misty78, and erin’s was erinlb, for transparency. here is proof I was on deviantart and into hinabn around the year of meeting erin.

this is more proof that I was 16 when I got into hinabn

proof of the date (this was a hacking prank by a friend, posting a screenshot of my former account)

here is proof that erin was also into hinabn around that time period. (speaking to someone else in these shots about hinabn)

If my memory is correct, I met erin right before or after turning 17, my birthday being august 5th. We were roleplay partners and friends for a short while before she approached me romantically.

I know I’ve shown this, but I’m doing it again, because it’s a conversation about sex and I have yet to see it addressed.

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I’m a little?? disappointed, I guess? that erin up & deleted instead of just being honest with everyone. I aired my own dirty / trauma & shame for anyone to see, I dealt with gaslighting & insults from her friends, the Least she could have done was be upfront. instead she immediately deleted our interactions so I couldn’t pull up solid proof, said absolutely nothing, and let her pals believe I’m making everything up, & deleted her blogs. I gave her way too much credit as a person, thinking she was going to be decent about this.

I’m not taking this blog down, or apologizing for anything I’ve said. I have to live with my complicated and fucked up sexual trauma because of what happened, it’ll be there for the rest of my life. I’m not keeping quiet & ashamed just to spare her feelings. You don’t get to cyber a teenager and act like you’re the victim, & I hope other ppl who had to go thru something similar can find the strength to tell their story and hold their groomer accountable. I hope it doesn’t take 8 years, like it did for me. You’re going to heal, your anger deserves a voice, and it’s not your fault ♥️

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I spoke with a friend who is also a survivor, and they put this situation into words better than I really could? the gaslighting I’m dealing w/ sucks ass but I’m glad my friends have my back and use actual logic

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claiming a victim calling out someone who groomed them is doing it because of an “unrequited crush” or out of boredom is?? extremely horrific. Heartless and disgusting. I’m a gay man in a loving relationship, and I’ve been speaking up about this for over a year. Find a better excuse for your apologism

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by the way, if you have any questions or need proof, just pm me? leave my friends alone, don’t hound them like you have been. I have everyone except for Erin unblocked, I don’t mind interaction. I’m not going to be this nice about it if my loved ones continue to be harassed.

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I got permission from a pal to address this, so! i will. I’m actually really upset about it because I’m assuming this person is getting their information directly from Erin + they chewed me out, blocked me before I could really explain, and acted all nicey nice to my friend.

“a very motherly person” erin was romantically involved with me. she should have taken on the role as an older parental or sibling figure in my life, it’s what I desperately needed. instead she talked about wanting to marry me, sent me very detailed asks about sex, was extremely public about being in love with me. she approached me first.

I have no idea why she’s (presumably) lying about us being involved? it wasn’t exactly a secret back then. our messy split wasn’t secret, either. on that note, I’ve been nothing but transparent about how awful I was back then. I addressed it in my original post, I’m not trying to hide from it. yes, I did spam her phone when she tried to cut contact, I was clingy and dependent, I’m not proud of how I acted in our friendship / relationship.

but keep in mind, I was seventeen. I was a kid, she was almost thirty. The maturity between us was a wide canyon in it’s difference, of course there’s going to be a problem. I find it funny that her friends are desperate to point out my mistakes and behavior back in the day, when I was a stupid immature kid, while also refusing to hold her accountable for choosing to date me.

I’m not hiding anything, I’m being transparent as I can be with the limited receipts. Erin is deleting our interactions and letting her friends believe I’m lying about everything.

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Honestly like, think about it like this.

if I was lying for attention or revenge, I wouldn’t admit my faults and paint myself in such a poor light? that’s, pointless if I’m trying to achieve any of that. I told the story how it happened, I didn’t fabricate anything. If your literal first instinct when you see someone talking about being groomed as a teen is to accuse them of faking / grabbing attention? that’s a really big problem on ur end. It’s not a good mindset.

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Also, your first response shouldn’t be “this is going to ruin their life !! you shouldn’t be saying this” because that’s uh. victim blaming 101. please do better than this

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Honestly like, think about it like this.

if I was lying for attention or revenge, I wouldn’t admit my faults and paint myself in such a poor light? that’s, pointless if I’m trying to achieve any of that. I told the story how it happened, I didn’t fabricate anything. If your literal first instinct when you see someone talking about being groomed as a teen is to accuse them of faking / grabbing attention? that’s a really big problem on ur end. It’s not a good mindset.

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There is a blog called hannawolfcrosswarning that is posting mis-information about an RPer named HannaWolfCross. The proof against Hanna is little to nothing and it clearly intentionally vague. They're messaging people to not RP with this person- even though the blog is currently inactive anyway

Wowee, this one is … something. Unfortunately the owner of this blog has personal experience with this one. 

The blog hannawolfcrosswarning falls under false accusations.

The owner of this blog is falsely accusing the owner of hannawolfcross of being a sexual predator. Not only are these accusations extremely old (+8 years supposedly was the events), but there are some other red flags.1) the style used in the screenshots is not the style that tumblr existed in 2012. Posts more than likely doctored.**Edit: post was not doctored, but taken grossly out of context.2) Blog explicitly mentions roleplaying fictional material as red flags. Fictional material is fictional and should not ever be conflated with actual grooming.3) If these accusations had any sort of truth and evidence and amounted to actual grooming, police should’ve been contacted, not making a blog on tumblr.com to ‘warn’ others.

TL;DR: this is fake. Please use common sense with “callout/warning” blogs like these that refuse to provide hard proof and use the internet as a platform instead of contacting proper authorities. This is a case of a friendship falling apart and the blog owner wanting “revenge” by labeling their enemy as a predator. 

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Going to address your points! if you don’t mind lol

- Fictional role play is absolutely a factor in grooming, I’ve seen dangerous predators use it on people I know, it’s a Thing that happens. real life pedophiles use child porn to groom, it happens with fictional things too. Nothing is sacred when it comes to sick people like that, and spreading the information that it Never Ever happens is dangerous.

- When it was happening, I was a teenager in high school? I had no idea any of this was illegal in her state, or wrong at all, so of course the police weren’t involved. By the time I was old enough to realize, I was an adult. And, demanding a survivor contact the police in order to be believed about their story is a classic abuse/rape/ ect apologism tactic that literally everyone uses, even though they shouldn’t.

- this isn’t revenge, if you read back on my posts I’m not throwing around insults or being cruel. I’m talking about what happened, I’m airing my own dirty laundry (including the parts where I was a toxic person and hurt people), there is nothing to really gain here? reliving something that ruined my idea of relationships and left me with sexual trauma and nightmares for attention? just to be petty? it’s. a really ridiculous thing to accuse me of.

You don’t have to believe she’s a predator, or evil person. She had romantic intent with a teenager, that is a thing that happened, I’d be really shocked if she denied it. You can do what you want with that information, but it’s out there, and it needs to be.

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If this is a joke, this isn't funny. I don't know if you're just trying to get clout or what's going on with your life, but you could ruin her life with this. Apologize and take this down.

Those screenshots are 100% real, I wouldn’t even know how to fake them. Especially considering these events happened to me in real life, not just something I’m observing and commenting on. I’m sorry, but it took me many years to come to terms with that happened and how it has affected me, years of hearing people tell me over and over that what happened was disgusting and adults shouldn’t pursue teenagers under any circumstances. I’m not asking people to hate or bully her, I’m just letting them know what happened, they can make their own judgment.

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This is us talking about sex again. She had a thing with feeling like it was wrong to want me like she did, she struggled with that insecurity. I don’t know if it’s because I was a teenager, or internalized homophobia, but either way I have no sympathy.

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I want to add that hannawolfcross happily roleplayed smut and distracted me during school hours. This isn’t as important as other things she’s done, but it’s just more proof she knew I was in school, a minor, and still engaged in inappropriate behavior regardless.

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I want to update and add to the warning post i made last summer.

I had originally planned on keeping this blog hush hush, or only referencing it on my main. I’ve deleted that account for personal reasons, so I’m expanding on the issue here, where it belongs. It’s irresponsible of me to warn others, but attempt and hide what I’m saying at the same time. I’m fixing that now.

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Hannawolfcross / spareusallanotheryear / caseclosededogawa, otherwise known as Erin or Hanna, had a long distance romantic and sexual relationship with a seventeen year old when she was just a few years from turning thirty. I was that seventeen year old. I won’t go into detail because my story is in the original warning post, but I want to touch up on a few things I didn’t mention in that post.

In her home state, what she was doing was illegal. Even if it wasn’t, and the age of consent was valid for both of us, that’s not what the age of consent laws are meant to do. They’re meant to protect minors in relationships, not married adults chasing teenagers.

I wasn’t aware what we were doing was wrong, or illegal in her state. I was a traumatized, dysfunctional, and desperate high school kid. She gave me attention I craved, and made me feel special and important. I felt blessed that someone with life experiences like hers felt romantic or physical desire for me. I’ll take the blame for being a toxic mess, and unhealthy to be in a relationship with at that point in my life. I’ve already apologized for that and I’ll do it again. But I’m done blaming myself for not realizing we weren’t supposed to be doing this. She was an adult, she had enough relationship experience to know better. She knew I was a kid, she referenced it many times (her advice was always centered around how it’s okay for me to be moody and scared, I’m a teenager, it’s normal.)

I’m still struggling to call her a predator or malicious. As far as I know, I was the only teenager she pursued. She might have actually loved me, and had nothing but good intentions. I’m slowly accepting that even if that was the case, it doesn’t cancel out the fact she knew I was a minor. It doesn’t change the circumstances or her choices. She needs to take responsibility, her friends and roleplay partners deserve to know.

Good or loving intentions also don’t cancel out the fact one of her main supporters, her close friend back when we split up, and even now, was roleplaying graphic sex and violence with another minor. They were playing an adult caretaker for a child Hanna, while they were an adult, and the child was played by a teenager. This is the same person I mentioned in the original post, who to this day, reblogs things like this, ironically.

it doesn’t change the fact Erin still continues to play out sex with high school boys, on the caseclosededogawa blog. That she can look at a teenager character, think of sex, and act that out. on it’s own that’s sketchy, but combined with our history, I have a hard time letting it go without a mention.

I don’t want people to believe Erin is an irredeemable horrible person. As far as I know, she’s still a good and giving individual. A person can be decent while still capable of hurting others, I know that well enough. She chased a vulnerable autistic teenager, messed up their idea of how relationships work, and refuses to show remorse. She stays in contact with people who did similar things, and defends those things strongly. If she learned anything from what happened, it’s not obvious. I’m not even sure she considers relationships between adults and teens to be immoral. That’s alarming, for someone well in her thirties.

Whether or not anyone chooses to forgive and continue interaction is up to them, I’m not interested in going around trying to police that. I’m also not interested in anon harassment or a bullying campaign. My only purpose with this is letting unaware people know, and drawing attention to what went wrong, so other young people don’t make the same mistakes. I’m working on healing, on letting go of that shame and dirty bad feeling I get whenever I remember what happened. It’s a process, and I’m proud of that. Bringing attention to this after years of shameful silence is important, and one step closer to closure for myself.



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Warning about hannawolfcross / spareusallanotheryear / caseclosededogawa

During 2012, when I was 17, Erin/Hanna was involved in a long distance romantic and sexual relationship with me. We met on deviantart, and most of our interactions were on there, but were lost with my account. We roleplayed sex/romance between two characters I loved at the time, and she made several comments about wanting to marry me, date me, and/or be involved with me in some way or another. When we became involved, she was, based on my math, 26/27. Proof of her age from an ask sent to her in 2016 that I found

Though most of the conversations between us are gone from my facebook and deviantart, there are a few hints on her main rp blog. Below are conversations we had publicly in 2012, when I was 17, turning 18 the summer of that year.

(a discussion about my lack of interest in sex, and her admitting she was sexually interested in me)

(something she tagged me in, my deadname is blocked out. After enough sexual hints and passes from her, I asked her about sexting because I thought it was the obvious and necessary step we should make, and it seemed to be something she really wanted. We did this twice.)

A discussion regarding me moving in when I turn 18, something we talked about quite a bit, because I was in an abusive home situation and desperate for an escape. 

She knew I was only 17, and that I was still in high school during the entirety of our relationship. She was a married woman at that time, and although her husband was aware of our relationship, it still doesn’t take away from the fact there was a huge difference between life and relationship experience between us. Here is her admitting her plans in an ask reply after our eventual falling out.

(unrelated to our relationship, but little snippets of roleplaying where her character was temporarily a child, and still expressing sexual interest for the character he was in a relationship with)

(and another instance where he was a 16 year old, and sexual roleplay still went down with another person, with the theme of his virginity being taken by an “older” and gentle man)

(While not as serious as what went down with us, little things like this popped up with her character from time to time and it was just more proof she had no negative opinion about teenagers and adults being involved)

I will openly admit I was not easy to be with back then, I was a confused and angry/desperate teenager with absolutely zero knowledge on how to be in a decent relationship. I was needy, immature, and bratty. And I was prone to lashing out, pushing adults past their limit, and trying to purposely upset them so they treated me how I thought I deserved and needed to be treated. The string of adults I allowed to romantically chase me as a kid is proof of that. Unchecked disorders and trauma played a huge part, but it’s a reason, not an excuse. I was emotionally/mentally immature.

I did a lot of things I regret in that relationship, I was a mess and a toxic handful. It really truly didn’t help that the maturity between us was seven years apart, and I wasn’t aware of that difference or why it mattered. A high school kid trying to be in a serious relationship with a married adult will never turn out right, it’s never good, but I lacked the knowledge to know that. She, on the other hand, did not. There was no way she was ignorant to the problems there.

When it all fell apart due to all the things I just mentioned, she was content to sit back and allow her other adult friends to call me out and isolate me from the fandom and rp circle I was in. This pushed me to my very first suicide attempt, handled very poorly by myself and everyone involved, when the police contacted my (abusive) parents, they said I was fine and everyone accused me of “faking” the situation, which was far from the truth. The trauma of that attempt, and how scared I was, is still a problem I’m trying to confront.

She also accused me of things that simply weren’t true, and used that to further attempt to chase me out of any friend group I was in from there. I remade my blog after a while and tried to start over/heal in a separate fandom. She did things like send me anons, allow her friends to contact me passive aggressively, and create more callouts about me with information that was false (as in: using posts I made about a sexually abusive ex to say I was lying about her, when the posts in question had nothing to do with her, and were actually about someone I knew years before we met, to create a callout and tag it with the fandoms I was part of. Situations like this continued to happen for quite some time, despite her saying she cut contact and was done with me.) She also got herself involved with any disagreements I had with others, and consistently pushed to “teach me a lesson” and show me the error of my ways through public humiliation.

(I will quickly mention that her friend behind these callouts was also an adult, who was famous for being aggressive and callout happy. They threatened their 16/17 year old smut rp partner around that time with threats of callouts and public isolation if they didn’t change their tune and become a better person, which is what they ultimately did to me. They are also an outspoken “anti anti” running a naruto incest rp blog, but that’s neither here nor there.)

Years later I contacted her to apologize for my part in everything going to shit, and while she accepted it, she had no apologies to say back and blocked me before the conversation could go any further. That was the last and only attempt I made.

The trauma and issues from our relationship are not really something I allowed myself to accept and realize. I blamed myself for everything that happened for years, and it was until I was an adult myself that I realized what happened was wrong. I’m almost 25 now, and the thought of dating a teenager makes me sick to my stomach, as it should! but she never had a problem with the idea. Not once did she apologize or admit guilt for dating a high school kid as an adult well in her late 20s. As far as I can tell, she sees nothing wrong with it, and neither do her friends who sat back and allowed it to happen/encouraged it.

I still have nightmares about the falling out, and the sexual conversations between us/how they made me feel, and I’m terrified of anyone more than seven years older trying to befriend me. I ran from a friend recently due to the age difference between us, and their mannerisms reminding me of her. I turn down romantic gestures from partners that imply they want to take care of me, or unintentionally seem infantilizing. Even the mention of large age gaps with teens and adults makes me shake. I woke up shaking from a nightmare just last night about my loved ones terrorizing me the way her friends did.

It was extremely difficult for me to see past the kind person I remember her being during our relationship, put a name to the dirty and ashamed feeling I had, and realize her behavior was predatory and wrong. And whether or not it was intentional grooming, she still behaves as if there was nothing wrong with her actions, and a relationship like that was/is acceptable and normal. It really does worry me for any future teenagers she could befriend, and makes me sick to think about the kind of people she calls friends and supporters. Minors are not safe around those people, and that’s simply all there is to it.

Please do not send her anons, contact her, or harass her/her friends. This puts me at risk for being targeted again, and it’s really not behavior I’m okay with or encourage. This isn’t a callout as much as it is a warning, and a way to keep teenagers from making the same mistakes I did. If an adult shows interest in you, please run, cut contact, reach out to guardians. “Age is just a number” is a bullshit and dangerous statement, and I really don’t want anybody to learn the hard way. Stay safe