ttomlewiss submitted:
I had reservations about uploading this, as someone with body issues the thought almost sky rocketed my anxiety but the best way to face your fear is to tackle it head on, so that’s what I am doing.
As many of you know through my adolescents, teens and adult life I have always been fat but fortunately for me it only bothered me slightly whereas I know it can ruin a person’s existence and make them feel awful about how they see and think about themselves. I learnt not to care what people thought from a young age because I knew being big you were always going to get people that would say hurtful things and if I felt bad every time it would happen it would only lower my self esteem till i eventually gave up.
However, this past year I have changed as a person and when you’ve become so used to being big you actually don’t see yourself as big when you look in the mirror and one day after I’d been dealing with personal issues I suddenly actually LOOKED at myself and I did not like what I saw.
The person standing in front of me was an unhealthy, weed smoking, non caring person and that is not who I want to be. These photos are taken almost a year apart and since July 2015 I have managed to lose over 4 stone, go from wearing XL to M and a 40 inch waist to a 32. I used to think people who uploaded pictures of their body were douchey when in reality I was the person being a douche by not applauding their body positivity.
I am by no means where I want to be on this journey, i am still chubby and everything jiggles but photos are the best thing you can do to show progress as it doesn’t happen overnight and you should be able to applaud yourself for how far you’ve come. I have good days and bad days like everybody else but it’s having that focus to see the bigger picture.
Your health is so important and I feel we forget that because of life’s other problems but I have to promise myself that I can do this so I can live longer and experience everything I can while I’m on this earth. So I put this on here as a reminder to myself to keep going and keep pushing and one day I might be able to feel 100% comfortable in my own skin. Love yourself and work hard.
