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I made a faith-based catalog not designed for your pleasure but for the best… judge me or not, I’m always going to be honest! Happiness is outside when you’ve made it good inside

[happilestangi]

I’m so tired of being alone

Whenever I’m at my best

And most vibrant, radiating love…

Why am I the only one who deserves the best of me?

It really Seems like

People don’t recognize the good

And Only remember the bad

They hold onto it

Like a blanket that protects them

Makes them feel better-than

And then they finally show up

when I’m back to black

It’s so sad,

I’m so happy by myself and for myself

Radiating beauty and

finally ready for a genuine and beneficial connection

But then I go around people that have nothing good in store for me

And I have to reflect that

My sensitivity is beyond unnerving

I don’t want to feel these peoples feelings

I don’t want to know what they’re thinking

I could care less if they are going through something

Since they could care less when I was

I’m done pretending like they deserve the upper hand by paying attention to them

And all their problems

that nobody else would

I just want to be with someone that appreciates me

The good, the bad and the ugly

[happilestangi]

My payment is progression

As long as I’m inspiring generations

To be better then they ever thought they could be

I’ll stay true to my passion

(My catharsis)

Which is healing vibrations; music

Honest Communication

With my singing/songwriting

and transparent negotiations

With whoever may be listening

And co-creating

Deeply

If I can, and I can

I create doorways into higher realms

Ways out of suppression

Like my mom did, it was her outlet

To take the high road,

instead of succumb To a broken society and system

She wasn’t mad, she was making a scene

Making her own sense in the insanity, seeming crazy

But it was courageous

And sending a message, that no one is perfect

And Even if you lose yourself, you will be found again,

by strangers if it is meant to be

Through persistence in being the best you can be

For everyone and everything

How else will we enjoy such beauty that reigns On this planet?

The glory of God, the majesty of his creation

It’s endless possibilities and generosity

It’s amazing how much we can do

With what we were given

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This is the song that won a spot

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Happy with everything I got

Including my intelligence,

pattern of my abstract lifestyle

My skills and talents

The space and things I kept and took care of

The animals that grace my presence

And the lovely giving people I’m so blessed to be friends with

I don’t need or want to conform

To random other people’s ideals

The ones Who I’m not trusting

I love being me, and I’m going to show it

As much as I feel like doing

Whether people accept it, like it or not

Please intrude on me, take my energy without asking

even when you’re not welcome

but just know I’m not playing by anybody’s rules

Only the ones God laid before me

So don’t be surprised when you’re feeling defeated

Because you came with bad intentions

There’s a higher power vested in me

And its trilling with a vengeance

Play with me and you might get burned

Probably better just to keep your distance

If you got nothing good in store for me

[happilestangi]

I feel like I’m getting so jaded

Everybody wants me when I’m not free

I get calls and messages when I’m working

Only

It seems

People close to me presently see me as a means to an end, but not an end

They take their sweet time to help me with anything

Even when they owe me

and if it’s ever quick it ends up worse then before

It’s a weird world I live in,

and I don’t feel like it’s mine

But a projection, of bad karma

Or something

that I unfortunately got mixed in

Cuz some people were ignorant when I needed them

Which is most people that I ever trusted

I want to break free of them,

For Goodness sake,

I want to forgive them and move on,

forget that they ever existed,

I guess 🤷🏻‍♀️

I feel like I’m in Such a strange world,

where everything is either about race,

or racing to a finish line

Like endlessly searching for the end

Of a pretty rainbow

But that is made of pride and ego

I see grown people acting like kids,

Needing attention for all their accomplishments

But not for a genuine connection between us

That benefits the both of us

I don’t want to be “negative”

But this is my current reality that I live in

And as much as I’d like to pretend that it’s different

It just isn’t

Maybe though, I can make it different

But realizing what it really is

I think is the first step

I just need prayers from my lovely

Brothers and sisters,

Or a real connection with them

Where we are both happy, and productive

[happilestangi]

[happilestangi]

I am free

Freer then I’ve ever been

And it’s so exciting

Cuz I just keep winning,

I feel like a warrior, paving a new path for those who are open to listening

And adhering

Easily

freeing those around me

It’s such an amazing feeling,

being a light piercing such present darkness

And I’ve been working for freedom tirelessly

I had to take some time in false imprisonment to plan my escape in the real world, real prison

Everything is vibration and frequency

So I take care to emit a cutting one

Intending on Breaking soul chains to a broken system

That just keeps us aging and dying, instead of rising above and evolving

I didn’t give in to a manmade package of false teachings

or trade my heart for a fake destiny

full of riches, luxury but not genuine happiness aka

The essence of goodness, the reason we exist

The end-goal of sinlessness

I refused all the soul-catchers who came for me

I am astute and it’s God-willing

Unstoppable because of a power greater than me,

Continues to hold me steady as I remain stealthy, composed, undercover

as I fight in this invisible war

One day we will all see who and what we’re really living for

And by then it’ll be too late,

So the moral of the story is, know what you stand for, or fall

Be on the lookout for those who have fallen

And if they refuse to be helped, then move on

Not everybody will be able to shake pride

Or the Sins that anchor them to this planet

Eventually destroying it

Love what you have and can give, own it by letting it go

Cuz Free equals free

[happilestangi]

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I like to test them, exorcize if I can

Make the colors more apparent

Coming out of the past and into a Good present

All that’s bubbling to the surface, festering behind the scenes, waiting

I want to burst out and be free

Live and let live, let go of what they can’t give

So the vessel can retain its true positioning and Soul purpose

Regardless of permanent injuries from grave mistakes, maybe even paid for, for some reason

We all deserve to be stress-free, constantly happy, surrounded by abundant nature that we keep stoking,

like our healing spiritual fire

Yes we are made from materials, but we are spiritual beings with endless possibilities

And when we see the threat to our freedom, we can take care of it by uniting

Not with accusations but activity

Connecting in genuine ways

Creating better solutions to problems, and keeping them inside the family

Then planting the seeds, carefully, in fertile minds

from the fruit of our success and knowledge

We don’t need to be world-famous to make a difference

We don’t need to have everybody on our side

It just takes what you can get, right now

Without cheating

And the rest is History

[happilestangi]

[ultrakillblast]

ED WOOD (1994)

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Story of my relationships

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By me age 31

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