Gracey

dunno anymore i think i’m just vibing at this point {17 | female | barely managing college}

[happy-little-bean]

update on gracey’s life:

i just registered for an event and tour of my dream college, and i don’t think there are words to describe how i’m feeling. like i’m excited because this is something i’ve looked forward to my whole life, yet im also terrified bc my life has finally led up to this moment and idek if i’ll get in. in a few short months i’ll be applying not only for enrollment, but also for dorms and i’ve never lived away from my family so i’m scared that i’m gonna get super homesick, but i’m also eager to meet potential dorm mates that i’ll get to spend my semesters with.

my whole life has been leading up to these moments and i have to work to make my dreams come true. i’m so close now, just two more semesters and i’ll (hopefully) be going to the college i’ve always imagined being at, and it’s a bizarre feeling.

[happy-little-bean]

i’d like to introduce y’all to my current hyperfixation. i dunno if y’all have seen or heard jacob’s voice but i’m obsessed and i couldn’t just sit back and not share

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hope y’all enjoy this little snippet of a song i’m learning <3

[poetry-siir]

“People are so vulnerable at night. They’re willing to spill out their souls to anyone willing to listen. They have desires to do things that never cross their mind when the sun is in the sky…”

—

[drizzlingtears]

i’m a human. i’m obsessed with sweaters, coffee and books. why isn’t this enough to survive?

[meghnafox-deactivated20220118]

lmao my blog is a mess

[happy-little-bean]

7:30 - began history lecture

8:50 - class ends, time to sign in

9:00 - breakfast time at the college cafe

9:30 - came to the library to write an essay due tonight, and started a new (to me) podcast

12:00 - packed up and went home to complete homework and get ready for work

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7:30a - class is too early

9:00a - enjoyed a free pancake breakfast w/ coffee

9:20a - went to library to do homework

10:50a - packing up and going home

[nightlyquotes]

“loving yourself is not an easy thing to do. some days will be better than others while some days will be much worse. try to be kind to yourself. it takes time.”

— Unknown

[happy-little-bean]

friendly reminder that life is a lot shorter than you think it is.

one day you could be having the greatest adventure of your life with the people that matter most, but then the next could be the day you take your final breath on earth.

so please, don’t exist just to say “i’ll do it later,” because then you’ll never live. take every day and fill it with memories you’ll never forget, because after all is said and done… you have an expiration date too.

and on that day you’ll be asked, did you enjoy your life? or did you let it waste away?

[happy-little-bean]

nothing like trying buy some flinstone vitamins, and the guy at target who’s checking you out is checking you out

[happy-little-bean]

“here is what they don’t tell you: Icarus laughed as he fell. threw his head back and yelled into the winds, arms spread wide, teeth bared to the world. (there is a bitter triumph in crashing when you should be soaring.) the wax scorched his skin, ran blazing trails down his back, his thigh, his ankles, his feet. feathers floated like prayers past his fingers, close enough to snatch back. death breathed burning hisses against his shoulders, where the wings joined the harness. the sun painted everything in shades of gold. (there is a certain beauty in setting the world on fire and watching from the center of the flames.)”

-Icarus Laughed as he Fell, Fiona

-artwork by Gracey Garner

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“you can’t go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are & change the ending”

-C. S. Lewis

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y’all i just took a melatonin for the first time. like i didn’t realize just how big dunkin’s med coffee was… and i drank the whole thing. i’ve been shaking since like 5:30 and my heart has been racing.

so uh… see y’all on the other side i guess :,)

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update:

so all the melatonin did was calm my heart rate and help me stop shaking, and eventually i was able to go to sleep… then i woke at 2a just straight hallucinating. and ngl, i still feel like i am.

but like other than my brain being half-dead and slow, i’m doing great 🥲👍

[happy-little-bean]

y’all i just took a melatonin for the first time. like i didn’t realize just how big dunkin’s med coffee was… and i drank the whole thing. i’ve been shaking since like 5:30 and my heart has been racing.

so uh… see y’all on the other side i guess :,)

[happy-little-bean]

“i genuinely fell for someone when i wasn’t searching for love, i was searching for peace. i was searching for myself and found a friend, who became the love of my life. sometimes you need to focus on growing yourself and run into what’s destined for you.”

- unknown

[namedforvalor]

This feeling was different. I found myself grinning until my cheeks hurt, my scalp prickling till I thought it might lift off my head. My tongue ran away from me, giddy with freedom. This and this and this, I said to him. I did not have to fear that I spoke too much. I did not have to worry that I was too slender or too slow. This and this and this! I taught him how to skip stones, and he taught me how to carve wood. I could feel every nerve in my body, every brush of air against my skin.

Patrochilles in Phthia (2) Madeline Miller, The Song of Achilles.