belle femme

What can I say more?

[happystranger-blog1]

I should be mad but i chose to be calm. I'm not being plastic here. I just know how to control myself

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He knew I have something on my mind so he waited until I broke - broke in silence by just smiling. Just then He knew I'm okay. I wish he knew I was trying to.

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"The heart and the stone" These two things could have been our witness for a long time of friendship. Yup, i still kept it until now. I still value it the same as I hold on to it before our story ends. You, my friend, is the reason why I couldn't trust anyone right now. It doesn't matter anyway. You already left me hanging here. No, this is not a bitter note. It's been years now and I'm completely happy with my friends sans the trust issue. I just saw these and realized back there that you already gave me a heart and a stone and a stoned heart.

[happystranger-blog1]

Laughter and tears Pain and happiness Makes you as a person.

[happystranger-blog1]

I was just a girl. Just a girl made of smoke and dust and faded memories.

[inhinyerongmakata]

God’s letter for you

Bago mag umpisa ang lahat, inaalala na kita. I did created you and what I only wanted is for your own goodness. I give you everything, lahat ng pangangaylangan mo, dahil sa isang simpleng rason at yun ay ang salitang “Mahal kasi kita.”

Bago pa nag umpisang mag salita at magkaroon ng kahulugan ang bawat salita at naimbento ang salitang “Mahal kita.” Minahal na kita.

Alam ko, I’ve seen how you suffer, and I don’t want to see you like that. I give you what is always best yet you only choose what is good or sometimes what is bad. I feel all your deep wounds and seen all your scars, lumapit ka lang, I’m here to help.

Don’t say, na di ko alam ang yung mga pangangailangan. In fact I do. I know all your deepest hurt but all I really wanted is for you to talk to me. Try talking to me. Ask. Just ask.

I don’t want to see you gone astray. I don’t want to see you do bad things. Because of your sin, I offer my life. Why? Dahil sa mahal kita. It is for love. No, you weren’t maid to keep on sinning. Follow me, and you’ll see and do what is right.

I’ve seen you cry. It breaks my heart. Andito naman Ako yet you choose to find comfort in worldly things. Andito naman ako. Ako para sayo.

You have scars, but I can remove them. You have pain in all forms, but I can heal whatever it is. Just because I love you.

I give you time, time for you to come to me and I will wait for you because soon when the right time comes, I’ll destroy everything. I don’t want you to be part of it, but there will be a time that I will judge every deeds people had done. I want you to be part of my heaven. So please, run closer to me. I love you.

Mahal kita and I’ll never leave you nor forsake you. Come. Get closer to me. I am your refuge, your strength and your strong tower. Mahal kita aking anak.

[happystranger-blog1]

Pagod na ako. Pagod na akong isipin ka gabi-gabi. Pagod na akong lumuha sayo ng paulit-ulit. Pagod na akong maramdaman kung paano mo ako nasaktan ng sobra. Pagod na ako. Please, ayoko na. Gusto na kita makalimutan. Pagod na pagod na ako.

[happystranger-blog1]

Everyone has their own destiny. Not anyone makes the choice to follow it. And I'm lucky I did.

The Lucky one // Logan

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I’ve been living like this for months. A lifeless cycle that only revolves in the presence of the past, no future involve nor the present. I’m imprisoned by the thought of you, us. Overwhelmed by the sight of a broken string that I’m still holding, that I’m still carrying. I don’t know. I just find it comforting and painful at the same time. I’m a fool. I know. Seeing you with a scissor on hand, I knew you did that intentionally. You literally want me out of your life, yet here I am patiently waiting for nothing. How pathetic. 

[happystranger-blog1]

Akala mo totoo, yun pala kathang isip lang.

[girlbehindthisblog-deactivated2]

I am here standing at the same place where you chose to break my heart. If i still feel the same, maybe i’m already sitting on the floor with my eyes full of tears whisper in the air to have you one again. but now, i won’t go back. I won’t o back to those times where i cried a river just for you. Those times when i don’t to get up in bed because i was so devastated when you left me. Every night i can smell you perfume and and hear your voice and that keeps me wide awake. Those times when we used to walk outside, holding hands, because every time your hand is intertwined, i feel so safe and secure. I spent my night crying, drinking away the pain and drowning my feelings with alcohol but it didn’t help, cause i’ll still wake up the next day wanting to just die. It’s not easy to be asked by friends wondering what happened between the two of us. I don’t know what to feel every time i see the stuff that you gave me. No, i’m not telling these to blame you. I’m just so happy that, i can finally reminisce our memories without being bitter and without feeling any pain. I can now laugh and smile and you’re no longer the reason behind it. it’s a good feeling to move on and accept everything. It’s true that everything happens for a reason and i can say now that i finally found that reason why we ended. Pain is just temporary, i thought it’s unending. I thought i can’t recover and the pain will forever remain in my entire system. I’ve moved on and it’s so beautiful to take away all the painful feelings and memories and just be happy. It doesn’t matter how long it was i’ve been there, the important is, I’m already here, breathing, smiling, so much joy in my heart, a happy soul, and i can say, i’m already fine. There will always be a sunshine after a gloomy weather. That no matter how many times i’ve fell down, picked the pieces of my broken heart, i can always find a way to get it back. And i am so much stronger now than yesterday. As i stood to the place where i want to leave everything, i am letting go all those painful memories and all the things i wanted to forget. I am finally happy and i wish the same to you. I am still thankful for everything and i learned a lot.

i’ve moved on (via girlbehindthisblog)

[happystranger-blog1]

I don't want to be 'fixed'. I want to be whole again. A brand new one.

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[inhinyerongmakata]

Life is like a book diba? Minsan you’ll laugh about it, cry about it, fall in love with it, and also sometimes you’ll curse about it. Pero minsan lahat ng emosyon sa isang sinaryo nandoroon na, that’s what you call emotional overload. (Okay, I’m joking, but not really)

Life may not always be good. Minsan may kasama itong drama na napapa walling ka na tila ba akbay akbay mo ang bigat ng mundo. Minsan katuwa tuwa. Minsan mala FPJ ang eksena. The thing here is that we are the one writing our own story. It’s us who manipulate our life.

Minsan para tayong mga bidang inaapi, but in the end we’ll go victorious, in other terms they call it “sweet revenge.”

Minsan we will learn from people who criticize us, kumbaga sa novel, mga bad guys ang naninira. We need to go to the process na mapasobsob sa putikan and learn something from it. Na alala ko ung verse sa bible. It says

“Being rubbed in the dirt can teach us a lesson; we can also learn from insults and hard knocks” Lamentations 3:29-30

Okay lang yan, part na talaga yan ng buhay. One thing here is that nakasalalay sayo how you will end your story. Ako? I’ll end mine with a story wherein the son finally meets his Father.

Ikaw! Make yourself a good one.

[inhinyerongmakata]

Even when the fight seems lost, I still praise You God.

[happystranger-blog1]

“How can I unlove you?” She asks desperately. Hoping the pain would end if she does unloving him.

“I don’t know. I really don’t know. I never unlove you. I just love you now differently. Lesser than before, but it stays. Believe me, it never fade.”

[happystranger-blog1]

It wasn't funny. It wasn't serious either. It's just a simple, heartwarming and peaceful conversation I've been wanting for the rest of my life.

[mademoisellerika]

I’m fine, if you’re wondering. Probably not. But, I’m better now. Happier. Soaring. Like the bird I was wrong to be before, and like the bird I rightfully am now.