[I know i haven’t been here in ages but needed somewhere to get everything going on in my head out. So my father almost 20 years ago received a kidney transplant. What most people don’t know if that a transplanted organ isn’t something that last for the rest of your life. It is a constant battle of getting your body to not try and kill the organ. From the moment that organ is transplant your body is trying to kill it. I can still remember spending all day in the hospital waiting room waiting for it to happen. It was much longer that time because my half sister was giving my father the kidney. But that same fear is coming back into my right now. It is so hard being so far away with more responsibilities this time. I want to just hop on a plane or jump in my car and start driving. I always have this fear since it is such a long and complicated surgery. Then there is the first few months after the transplant that the body doesn’t reject it. I am a ball of stress right now. I just needed to get all of these things out of my mind. I am so happy but so stressed and i don’t know.
