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❛   ━  it hurts to set you free, but you'll never follow me. the end of laughter & soft lies, the end of nights we tried to die. this is the end. ─ ─ ─ indie fandomless oc / est. july 2017 / written by trick.

[harbjnger-blog]

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[harbjnger-blog]

WORMKILLED.

           he’ll let his arms hand down lazily as the other inspected the wound. he’ll take note of the penlight wondering why the fuck he carried that around with him. a question for later. all he knew is that he got hit by a blunt, heavy object and he probably had a concussion. another reason to avoid sleep at all costs, honestly. he’ll blink rapidly after the light was pulled away from his eyes, grunting. 

          “alright, dr. cam. you seem to know more ‘bout this shit than i do. i mean, i kinda suck at self care. let’s be fuckin’ real.”

               he actually  SMILES  a little bit at ‘dr. cam.’ only for a split second, then he’s forcing it away  &  hoping he wasn’t caught in the act. even while it was  AMUSING,  there was something extremely nostalgic about it that really tugged at his heart. he exhales.

               ❛   mhm.   ❜   agreeing. because yeah, clearly justin doesn’t know what self-care is. but cameron can’t be a hypocrite  &  say he’s any better at self-care. he doesn’t know  HOW  to take care of himself, so he spends what time he has taking care of everyone else  &  convinces himself he doesn’t need that reciprocated.  (  it’s comfortable, but does it make him  HAPPY  ?  answer: it doesn’t really matter.  )   ❛   alright. c’mon. i got stuff in my car. can you walk okay  ?  ❜

[harbjnger-blog]

hello :) i might try to actually do stuff on here 2day cuz i miss cameron

[gravemorals-blog]

 I’VE  BEEN  SEEING  GHOSTS  MOST  OF  MY  LIFE.  THEY  DON’T  SAY  TOO  MUCH,  BUT  THEY  MAKE  ME  TIRED.   //   original character, written by trick.

[memesforu-blog]

Send “You’re not going anywhere” for my muse’s reaction to yours grabbing their wrist.

[vei1s]

memesforu:

[pussylipgloss]

me: on the swings at 2:30am in an empty park

[harbjnger-blog]

DON’T  LOOK  IN  THE  MIRROR  AT  THE  FACE  YOU  DON’T  RECOGNIZE  /  HELP  ME,  CALL  THE DOCTOR.  /  I  KEEP  THE  WOLF  FROM  THE  DOOR,  BUT  HE  CALLS  ME  UP  /  CALLS  ME  ON  THE PHONE,  TELLS  ME  ALL  THE  WAYS  THAT  HE’S  GONNA  MESS  ME  UP …  —  indie  oc,  written  by  trick.

[fellvaguely-deactivated20191009]

ship with me you cowards

[radiation-baby]

[harbjnger-blog]

I used to be so different. I've always had friends, but there were times when I wasn't locked in my room, when I wasn't running. There were times grandma wouldn't see me for days because I'd be staying at Jordan's house most of summer break. His family, his mom and dad, they were like the parents I never had. I'd sit and eat dinner with them. I stayed with Jordan for weeks after one of his dogs died freshman year.

We used to go for walks in the woods, we'd bring bagged lunches and take pictures.

It was nice. It wasn't scary. The warm glow of the sun, the red leaves, the wind through the trees. October was fun. We'd sit on the living room floor, eating popcorn and watching b-rated horror films, all four of us.

Then it was only every other weekend that I'd see any of them. Then only once a month on outings to go film. Those were the best. I want to blame the heroin, maybe even blame my boyfriend. But I can't, and I couldn't tell anyone what it was.

Then they'd go on the outings without me, or I'd be in the hospital. Jordan went to Colorado for college. Tyler went missing. Shelby died of alcohol poisoning, but I swear she'd never had a drink in her life. Not after what happened with her alcoholic father. It seemed ironic, like the universe was mocking her in the cruelest way possible.

I should've never gone alone. I should've never gone to that place. But I'd be lying if I said things weren't fucked up before that. But at least for that, there's rehab, there's grief-counseling. I could've been better by now.

[harbjnger-blog]

‘ i am not a good person. don’t pretend i am. ’

im not gonna try n look for this meme

               ❛   i’m not — i’m not pretending. i-i genuinely believe you’re a good person. you might not think … you’re a good person, but i think you are. i  KNOW  you are.  &  the fact that you’ve stuck around me, even with all the shit going on, that’s gotta count for something, too. right  ?  like, you  CARE  about shit.   ❜   he shrugs,   ❛   it’s … not like we can be perfect all the time, ev. you’re a human being, too. give yourself a break …   ❜

[felinenthusiast]

when you forget about an oc for an extended period of time

[scrimblobimblobadimbo-deactivat]

@fancypantaloones

[harbjnger-blog]

im super insecure on this blog and still probably on tht hiatus thing unless i ?? miraculously decide to do shit on here today but... instead i’m probably gonna work on revamping an old oc ,,

[schwifty-memes]

[realfootage]

[harbjnger-blog]

TICKINGVIRUS.

“If I’m not drunk right now than that just makes me a very depressing man.”

❛   well. like, how drunk  ?   ❜   not that it matters.   ❛   do you have more  ?  alcohol.   ❜