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Hani Koshin is cursed to kiss everyone she makes eye contact with-unless she looks away within thirty seconds. What happens when she slips a

CONTACT KISSER IS FINALLY OUT FOR THE WORLD!!!

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2D VALENTINE’S ONLY!!

Valentine’s day sucks but not for the reasons you think.

I’ve been crying. Talking to myself in sleep. Turning and tossing. All because TikTok edits had me on chokehold. They wouldn’t let me escape. (Not that I wanted to.) Hoping that I would give in to the fact he doesn’t exist.

Nanami from Jujutsu Kaisen.

Gilbert from Anne with an E.

Kenji Kishimoto from the Shatter Me-series.

Saku from The Fragrant Flower Blooms with Dignity.

Klaus Mikaelson from TVD/Originals.

Zoro from One Piece.

Kakashi and Shikamaru from Naruto.

Guren from Seraph of the End.

Tate Langdon from American Horror Story.

Mitsuya from Tokyo Revengers.

Chagyeol from My Reason To Die.

Asami from Korra.

Newt from Maze Runner.

Seth Cohen from The O.C.

Tengen from Demon Slayers and even Kaigaku.

Cha Woo-min and Dylan O’Brien—those men cannot be real!

Literally most of the IN-TP/TJ characters. I haven’t even scratched the surface.

Not a single one is real. All of them were perfectly curated for someone like me to get engulfed in. If all of these icons were pool full of liquor, I would dive in and that’s how you know I’ve been doomscrolling.

Imagine creating a character so amazing it never be replicated in real life. I know very well that Kenji won’t just show in my life like the way he did in Juliette’s. The closest to real life is perhaps Conrad from The Summer I turned Pretty and that’s because he’s imperfectly perfect.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not drooling over fictional characters. The most I’ve ever wanted was to cameo in Attack on Titan. Not insane, I know. However, I fear that the fourteen years old me was. The reason why I didn’t mention Levi until now was because though, Levi was created for the female gaze. I wanted to be different. Pick me might be a better term. I created a foolproof plan. I was going to watch all episodes of AOT and then get isekai’d so I can become the foreseear and Levi wouldn’t have any other option but to fall for me because I was so nonchalant and intellegent beyond my years. I would save everyone and then we would live happily ever after. I wouldn’t say I was obsessed with him, though.

I just don’t get it. What’s the point of Valentines Day if we can’t even spend it with our crushes? It’s 2026, we should be able to love freely even if it’s 2D characters. Even if it means we might get locked up in mental instution. At least then I’ll have him by my side. It’d be us vs the world.

“They will not understand us, pumpkin. That’s why you have to stay by my side—keep me alive by making sure you don’t stop scrolling.” Tengen whispers into my ears.

I immediatly scroll away and take off my headphones.

He has three wifes and he can easily make me the fourth but he still hasn’t put a ring on it. I think he’s just jealous that I’m real and well, he’s just one button away from not existing. But I can never not-fall for him so I wait even if it’s never because deep down I know the truth. There is no him in my world. Unless it starts with him—Cha Woo-min. Jk.

It’s not that I like the character’s for how they look but how they act. That’s why I can never really fall for an actor—except Dylan. He’s just like Stiles.

The difference between a character and real human being is when it comes to how much is being disclosed to us and exactly how. Unlike in reality, we’re able to hear their thoughts, feel their emotions without them ever having to directly tell us. Every part of them is being exposed. That’s why it’s easy to fall for them. They’re not performing. They’re not concerned. And, they’re not real. They just exist for us to exprience. But that’s the thing, our experience isn’t just surface level. Not only do we connect, we see ourselves through their lense. We take their pain and joy like it’s our own whether we want it or not because we’re already so emotionally invested. We give so much to them and all we get in return is bittersweet longing—a feeling you can never scratch away. Because, this character is now part of you.

Maybe, you’re not supposed to know everything about someone so that you won’t lose yourself in them and just maybe, that’s why I can never find him in 2D. He lives in my world. He’s just extremely late and is forcing me to write this on V-day when he should be suprising me.

This is why I hate Valentine’s Day.

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“What if I write it and it’s bad-”

WHAT IF YOU WRITE IT AND ITS GOOD? WHAT IF YOU WRITE IT AND ITS EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANTED? WHAT THEN????