NO DAWN; NO DAY

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- ᴄʜᴀʀᴍᴇᴅ ʙʏ MYST (ᴛʜᴇʏ/ᴛʜᴇᴍ)

(active fandoms: Project Hail Mary, The World Ends With You, Fullmetal Alchemist, Cult of the Lamb, K-Pop Demon Hunters, the Owl House, OMORI, Arcane LoL, Splatoon, RWBY, etc...)

BLOG ROLL: Kingdom Hearts blog: @harrowing-hearts, Baldur's Gate/DnD blog: @hxllowed-ground

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// what if eridians were like lobsters in that they don’t stop growing? what if rocky’s radiation sickness capped that gene? what if he was smol, eternally

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mom: Is that ryan gosling?

me, on my phone, having accidentally scrolled to an insta reel of bloodymary sloppy kissing while she was watching: yeah I think so

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✦ ⋆ 𖤓 ⋆ ✦ 𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐃 𝐎𝐍 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐒𝐋𝐄𝐄𝐕𝐄 ··· a collection of injuries tended in silence, pain worn like armour, the intimacy of being seen at your worst. genre: hurt and comfort, angst, romance, drama.

• You're bleeding through your shirt. Don't tell me you're fine. • How long have you been walking around like this? • I'm not going to hurt you. I just need to see how bad it is. • You should have told me the moment it happened. • Hold still. I mean it. Hold still. • This is going to sting. Bite down on something if you need to. • You've been hiding this for days, haven't you. • Who did this to you? I need you to tell me who did this. • Stop being brave for five minutes and let me help you. • I've seen worse. I've also seen men die from worse, so let me look at it. • I found the bandages in the trash. You want to explain that? • Don't you dare apologize for bleeding on me. • Your hands are cold. That's not a good sign. • I'm not angry. I'm terrified. There's a difference. • Come into the light. Let me see your face. • You should have stitches. I know you won't go. So sit down and let me do what I can. • You're white as a sheet and still trying to stand up straight. • I could hear you in the night. I didn't say anything. I'm saying something now. • Don't look at it if it makes it worse. Just look at me. • It's not weak to let someone see you hurt. • You came to me. Of all the places you could have gone, you came here.  • Lay back. You're not getting up until the color comes back to your face. • I'm not going to ask what happened. Not yet. First let me fix what I can. • You've been holding your left side since you walked in. Think I didn't notice? • This is going to leave a mark. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. • I've patched up a lot of people in my time. None of them scared me like you do right now. • You could have died out there. You could have died and I would have been the last person to know. • Sleep. I'll be right here when you wake up. I'm not going anywhere. • You're allowed to make a sound. Nobody's watching. • I need you to stay awake for me. Just a little longer. Talk to me. • You're lucky the cut wasn't deeper.  • Stop apologizing for needing help. Stop it right now. • I've seen what it looks like when someone's used to this. That's what scares me most about you. • Tell me your name. Tell me what day it is. Stay with me. • You're going to be alright. I promise you.  • You went back out there after this? With this? • Nobody takes care of you, do they? That ends tonight. • I've been gentle with you. I need you to be honest with me in return. • You're safe now. You're here, you're safe, and I've got you. Just breathe.

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ABOUT MYST!! On mobile…

nickname(s) : myst! that’s me, as far as you people on my phone are aware XD

zodiac : aries. and my other two are double geminis, which…idk many people say that’s bad but I don’t follow zodiacs

last movie i saw : project hail mary. now please raise your hand if you aren’t surprised

last thing i googled : “what animals eat mosquitos” <— personal project

favourite musician : florence + the machine, although sleep token and woodkid are up there!!

song stuck in my head : abstract, hozier. that and noah kahan’s orbiter. I cannot stop listening to these songs-

other blogs : hmmm @harrowing-hearts (KH), @hxllowed-ground (DnD/BG3), etc…

following : I follow 25 people on this blog so far <3

amount of sleep : right now? two hours

lucky number : ….ummmm….8?

what i’m wearing : an orange dress. not my style, but it’s a costume for a commercial I’m shooting as we speak. I am very tired

dream job : oh I really want to be a professional voice actor! And I want to do opera, and I want to do motion capture, and I want 10 million dollars.

favourite food : chicken and dumplings!!! my papa used to make it before he passed, and it’s still my favorite. I’d have it every day if I could!

play any instruments : I’ve taken piano lessons for a number of years, BUT my instrument is my voice! I’m a singer, love singing, do it all the time. It’s my most trained instrument.

languages : English and an itty bitty bit of Spanish.

favourite songs : Cosmic Love, Florence + The Machine!! I also like space oddity (but the Chris Hadfield version) and Any Love of Any Kind by Woodkid. AND DANCE MACABRE BY GHOST

random fact : i had pneumonia when I was really young, and have been fixated on epidemiology since then. Maybe quarantine boosted it? But, just like that, every time I fear something, I research everything I can about it. And now pathology is my niche XD

describe yourself as aesthetic things : big ol’ vintage-like band t-shirts that hang over itty bitty and battered jean shorts, eyeliner and smoky eyes, stage lights, gold stars, tarot themed fishnet tights, thick braids but thin hair, Alice in Wonderland type trips

Tagged by @ofbeginning , Tagging EVERYONE who hasn’t done this yet <3

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ARE PEOPLE SHIPPING EVA STRATT AND AVA IRON LUNG??

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// can I get any writing done on my phone….?

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// Took a nap, woke up, and realized I just got booked for a commercial. Tomorrow. They want me to be there at 7:00 AM tomorrow, hours away. SOOOO I'm not writing much anymore for the next few days while I'm in shooting, and I gotta pack now. yay

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@hailsmary [GRACE] asked: ❝  i’m bisexual and confused.  not about being bi,  though.  just like…in general.  about life.  ❞ // for ilyukhina. what if they were friends...

The engineer took a handful of backwards glances . Dr. Grace ... wasn't speaking to her about this , right ? About his ... ? So openly ?? Well , she was glad he could confide in her . If that was even confiding for him ? For Ilyukhina , conversations like these , even with friends , never threw the word ' bisexual ' so casually . Americans were so ... open . There were plenty of things she couldn't agree with culture wise , but she couldn't help but feel fond of the sense of self Americans could find . At least with who you love .

" ... life ? " She snorted . And then she began giggling , and clutching her hand over her mouth . " Well , that I can help . The general . I like the general , makes sense to me . The men and women liking ... not so much . " There was no judgement from her ... maybe a bit of curiosity .

Most of all , a lot of respect . Dr. Grace was brave ... in his own way .

" ... when did you know ? " She offered him a sip of her beer as she spoke . " About being bisexual . Not about life . "

[leneemusing]

SEXUALITY AND GENDER IDENTITY THEMED PROMPTS FOR PRIDE

❝  i guess i always kinda knew?  it just wasn’t that important until i got older.  ❞

❝  it never mattered to me like,  what form people came in.  i love souls,  the body is just kinda like pretty packaging.  it’s nice but it’s not what’s important to me.  ❞

❝  oh yeah i did the whole ‘massive crush on my best friend’ thing.  wouldn’t recommend it.  ❞

❝  today my gender is kinda of ‘meeehh?’  ❞

❝  yeah of course i’m only into women,  have you seen them?  ❞

❝  i think i had a harder time accepting myself than my family ever did.  ❞

❝  i’m pretty sure everyone else knew i was gay before i ever realized it.   ❞

❝  i have a hard time talking about it,  even now—i’m not ashamed or anything like that.  i just,  don’t really know…how or what to say i guess.  ❞

❝  i think i’m ready to actually come out to them.  ❞

❝  i really want to tell them but i don’t wanna do it alone…could you help me with it?  ❞

❝  the ‘am i gay’ quizzes are a gateway drug.  ❞

❝  would you mind using [insert pronouns] for me now?  i’m trying to see how it feels.  ❞

❝  they’re right actually,  i’m gay and i do have an agenda to make everything gayer.  ❞

❝  ever since i told them i’m gay they keep pointing to every slightly attractive man and asking if he’s my type.  ❞

❝  me? no i don’t think i’m—i mean.  yeah sometimes i think about what it’d be like to kiss girls/guys but i’d never…come on,  everyone thinks about it a little bit right?  ❞

❝  at this point the closet is literally made of glass.  ❞

❝  actually,  i’m [insert identity].  ❞

❝  it’s all ‘i wish i was into women it’d be so much easier’ until you find out about the lesbian drama.  ❞

❝  i’m bisexual and confused.  not about being bi,  though.  just like…in general.  about life.  ❞

❝  i just need a nice bear to throw me around for a few hours,  i think it’d do more for me than therapy.  ❞

❝  i would trust any stone butch with my life.  ❞

❝  sappho would be so proud.  ❞

❝  i’m still figuring myself out.  i know i’m not straight,  that’s a start.  ❞

❝  i finally figured out my sexuality and then boom here comes a gender identity crisis.  ❞

❝  i’ve just…never really been interested in the whole sex thing.  ❞

❝  anyway,  if neither of us find our true loves in the next five to ten years,  wanna have a lavender marriage?  for the taxes.  ❞

❝   you wanna come to pride with me?  ❞

❝   this is my first pride actually,  i’m kinda nervous.  ❞

❝   well,  this seems as good a time as any to come out.  ❞

❝  no one can know about this—it’s just between us okay?  ❞

❝  i’d never tell anyone.  ❞

❝  you don’t owe anyone ‘coming out.’  it’s personal,  do things at your own pace.  only tell the people you want to.  ❞

❝  you’ve always made me feel safe so,  i just knew i could tell you about it.  ❞

❝  everyone’s hot and i’m a disaster who doesn’t know how to ask anyone out.  ❞

❝  i’m not sure i wanna fuck them or be them.  ❞

❝  i’m just experimenting i guess,  trying to figure out what i like.  ❞

❝  she said she didn’t see us working out but then she brought me a potted plant so i guess it’s still up in the air.  ❞

❝  i want to be one of those bold,  unapologetic people but i’m still just terrified.  ❞

❝  she’s so pretty i think i’m gonna die.  ❞

❝  oh,  no he’s got a great smile too.  i’m in deep this time.  ❞

❝  how did you know?   like for sure that you were into [gender]?  ❞

❝  do you mind if i ask you a question about being [identity]?  ❞

❝  thank you for trusting me with this.  ❞

❝  it’s okay,  take your time to put it into the right words.  i’m not going anywhere.  ❞

❝  wait,  you think i’m [identity]?  what makes you say that?  ❞

❝  i’m here,  i’m queer,  i wanna leave.  ❞

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adrian can't help but snort when rocky starts talking about the centrifuge aspect of the hail mary. they always love listening to him talk , even if they don't always understand what he's talking about. but they always listen , no matter what rocky's saying. they love him , more than they have words for. they laugh , shaking their head with closed eyes , leaning into rocky's hand as they open.

❛ i'm glad it's spinning properly. & i'm glad everything's going well on your side of things , too. ❜

aquamarine gaze flickers away for just a moment , a clear sign of how they fluster under any kind of praise. really , it's nothing special ; armando is a personal project they hadn't expected stratt to take any interest in. but at the very least , someone — or rather something will be up there to take care of all of them. adrian can do that much , at the very least.

❛ armando isn't quite ready for anything besides basic medical procedures just yet. but he'll be able to keep an eye on everyone while you're up there. hopefully you won't need him to actually do much , but just in case ... he'll be there. he'll take care of you. ❜

adrian nods at the mention of grace , having met him a few times before. he seemed nice enough , if not a bit of an overgrown child. but he was smart , smarter than most other people. if he said it'd be only a few more months , that was probably true. & adrian hated that. a few more months wasn't enough time. no amount of time would ever be enough.

❛ ... think you guys'll — actually be able to do it ?? find a way to save everyone ?? ❜

they have to believe it'll all work out. adrian can't stand the idea that rocky will die for something that may not even work.

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What Rocky had long made peace with was death either way . 30 years sooner was a tough pill to swallow , but ... but Commander Yao had put it perfectly . You just need to find someone to be brave for . Rocky had long had that someone , and he was the best damn person for the job . Handing the job to someone lesser was putting the earth in more danger -- Stratt had made that abundantly clear to Rocky . It boiled down to basic statistics in the end , not personal feelings .

... and still , statistically , the Hail Mary was a goddamn shit show .

And ... statistically , yes . Rocky would die for something that's bound to fail .

Such thoughts were pushed to the back of his brain with little effort . He had gotten good at shoving those particular ideas down ... letting old terrors like that conquer the brain was far under him . He had long been past that sort of fear ! Years past , technically . While searching for an answer , the correct answer at least , he let out a deep exhale ( rehearsed , really . same face for everybody , every time they asked that question . ) He shook his head , really playing the weight of the question , eyebrows raised . Considering .

" ... Tough question , " he huffed . Dark brown eyes drifted down , quiet for a moment .

Did Rocky believe that a spacecraft designed and built within a few years , tested within Earth's gravity , with nukes built in the fuel tank , will safely make it to Tau Ceti ? Did he believe that travelling at light speed would be safe for humans ? Or that the four year coma will come and go without complications ? Or that the earth won't turn on each other and starve ? Or that , if all goes well , and they make it to Tau Ceti ... that they'll even find anything worth sending back ... ?

" We have to . That's why we're sending the best . " A grin . " And the handsomest . "

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// More Rocky thoughts on this poorly disguised Rocky blog: Grace-Friend edition // Do I ship Grace and Rocky? No, I do not. Do I imagine a possible QPR? YES, beyond a shadow of a fucking doubt. THAT IS HIS BESTEST FRIEND IN THE UNIVERSE. Somewhere between saving his life and saving his entire freaking race forged a connection beyond friendship, and that is where I imagine them to be. No, Rocky is not Grace's pet, and Grace is not Rocky's pet. They're best-friend-cosmic-soulmates, and Rocky would fly headfirst into the sun if Grace needed him too. // There are three things that matter to Rocky more than his own life. Erid, Adrian, and Grace. Headpats for both of his favorite people.

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My dad: ...Are you watching Project Hail Mary?? Me, finally on my first rewatch and at the grass scene: ShUT UP, IM WATCHING PROJECT HAIL MARY RIGHT NOW!!!

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// like this for me to pop into your inbox, and pls specify muse or I’ll just choose at random!! Gotta find something to do as I make a thread tracker

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my friend wanted me to make this

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// okay so. bad bad bad. I stayed up the entire night and finished the phm audio book, and holy shit it was everything I could ever want it to be but it was day by the time I finally shut my eyes. Laugh at me, I don’t care!!

// ANYWAY, now rocky is on my mind. His arc in the book is highkey better than it is in the movie btw don’t quote me…and oh?? AND he also fucking skips right over ‘fist my bump’ and tells Grace to, quote, ‘fist me’. Which fucking annihilated me. BUT I DIGRESS I gotta work on my class now, on zero sleep. And then I’ll get my threads. Maybe even make a thread tracker. I’m gonna try not to fall asleep

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PROMPTS FROM THE LITTLE MERMAID *  assorted dialogue from the 1989 film, adjust as necessary

i can't make out a heartbeat.

this has got to be, without a doubt, the single most humiliating day of my life.

look! he's breathing. he's so beautiful.

you really delight in these sadistic strains on my blood pressure, don't you?

a girl rescued me.

she was singing. she had the most beautiful voice.

i think you've swallowed a bit too much seawater.

we're just gonna forget this whole thing ever happened.

hmm. teenagers. they think they know everything. you give them an inch, they swim all over you.

my nerves are shot! this is a catastrophe!

don't you shake your head at me.

now look at me.

you'll have your looks, your pretty face. and don't underestimate the importance of body language.

i'm surrounded by amateurs.

you want something done, you've got to do it yourself.

first we've got to create the mood.

if only i could make him understand.

i just don't see the way he does.

i just don't see how a world that makes such wonderful things could be bad.

look at this stuff. isn't it neat?

i just don't know what we're going to do with you.

it was ruined! that's all! completely destroyed!

now thanks to you, i am the laughingstock of the entire kingdom!

you went up to the surface again, didn't you?

how many times must we go through this?

they are dangerous.

i'm not a child anymore.

don't you take that tone of voice with me.

if you would just listen...

so much for true love!

i consider myself a reasonable person.

i set certain rules, and i expect those rules to be obeyed.

is it true you rescued a human from drowning?

he would have died.

one less human to worry about.

you don't even know him.

know him? i don't have to know him. they're all the same.

have you lost your senses completely?

the solution to your problem is simple.

the only way to get what you want is to become a human yourself.

gee, you must have really been through something.

i can't stand it. it's too easy!

i'm really looking forward to this performance.

listen to me. the human world is a mess.

are you sure about this?

have i ever been wrong? i mean, when it's important?

this... i haven't seen in years.

do you think i was too hard on her?

we haven't dicussed the subject of payment.

i'm not asking much. just a token really, a trifle. you'll never even miss it.

life's full of tough choices, isn't it?

do you hear what i'm telling you?

i hope that you appreciate what i go through for you.

you gotta look your best.

you gotta bat your eyes. you gotta pucker your lips.

you are hopeless. you know that? completely hopeless.

i've never seen a human this close before. he's very handsome, isn't he?

i'm going inside.

have you noticed she's been acting peculiar lately?

i know you've been keeping something from me.

i feel really bad not knowing your name. maybe i can guess it.

you're under a lot of pressure down here. come with me, i'll take you home and get you something warm to drink.

any sign of them?

what have i done?

isn't this great? the salty sea air, the wind blowing in your face. a perfect day to be at sea.

perhaps you haven't been looking hard enough.

believe me, when I find her, i'll know. without a doubt it'll just... bam, hit me like lightning.

time to come out. you've been in there all morning.

where are you going?

she's a demon! she's a monster!

there's something different.

i lost her once! i'm not gonna lose her again!

you've gotta get away from here.

no, i won't leave you!