note: the tags i have put are for reaching the right audience i need for this.
so, to start off, iām not a system and i donāt think iām experiencing plurality in any way.
i came to tumblr specifically because i know there are people here who have good knowledge and experiences. on reddit people are usually arguing and debating. anyways; for a long time (around 8 years now) iāve experienced something that i do not know a term for.
iāll try to explain to my best ability:
i have some sort of connection, that people have called delusion very frequently, on characters, right? i donāt really know how irls work, but i think that could be a tiny bit related from what iāve seen. iām not entirely educated because so many sources vary. but get this, also; i have connection to my own form of perception on a character as if it were to be my own version. like an oc? iām unfamiliar on how to describe but itās just that itās not a *specific* character. it can fluctuate as well, on āwhoā iām feeling like.
but, hereās the bigger problem; itās not just one. right now itās two at a time. i feel like two people at once, overlapping. and i canāt really put my finger on who is mainly taking part. i hate to use the word āwhoā for it, because once again i donāt believe iām plural (i have nothing that aligns at all with the concept of plurality). i just donāt know what to use.
and hereās the absolute worst part. please donāt come after me for this or anything, iām really just trying to navigate this & not trying to seem like a weirdo; a real person (but my own form/version), can also apply to this. i donāt know why. itās weird, & a music artist!!! wtf. & i get really really nervous bringing this up because i donāt want to look creepy :,-)
if anyone has help, thatād be amazing, and if you have mutuals who might know, please share.
