Be the dream, not the reality

Mercy || 23 || Single Widow Hello to all! My name is Mercedes Jones. Things about me, I love music and movies. And Yes I am also a Grammy winning Diva. I took some time off to enjoy the quiet. If you have any questions let me know. Sebcedes 1x1

[hauntedcedes]

Text || Hunter

Hunter: I will share what I can with you.

Mercy: I can only stay for a few...

[hauntedcedes]

Text || Hunter

Hunter: My cousin is out there somewhere and I will bring him home one day.

Hunter: I am always nothing but a gentleman with you :).

Mercy: Would you be okay with me talking to you about him?

[hauntedcedes]

Text || Hunter

Hunter: I did not know her so it was no loss to me but it affected my cousin greatly. Even into adulthood. My uncle and I were never close. He's not a very warm man and only hardened with age. But not all is lost and has to end in tragedy.

Hunter: Now, back to my question. Will you come see me?

Mercy: Wow, I mean that is horrible but what do you mean not all is lost.

Mercy: If I come you have to be on your best behavior... and could you tell me more about your cousin?

[hauntedcedes]

Text || Hunter

Hunter: ...we do not speak with him.

Hunter: Yes, i'm sorry to inform you that his mother has passed on. If you are wondering if my uncle is alive, he maybe. The last time I saw him was after my cousin went missing. He returned to France.

Mercy: I am sorry for your loss, and that you not only lost her but your cousin and uncle as well. It must have been hard.

[hauntedcedes]

Text || Hunter

Hunter: A personal unrelated matter.

Hunter: No? Not really. She died of an illness when Sebastièn was a child. She had long since been deceased when I was born. Why?

Mercy: Oh okay...

Mercy: And his father?

Mercy: Ever since you told me about him I have been curious...

[hauntedcedes]

Text || Hunter

Hunter: I am in town researching. I told you now.

Mercy: Researching What?

Mercy: Which reminds me... your cousin... do you know what happened to his mother?

[hauntedcedes]

Text || Hunter

Hunter: [insert motel address] Come see me

Mercy: I thought you left? When did you get back? And were you even going to tell me?

[hauntedcedes]

Text || Hunter

Hunter: What if I was in town?

[a beat]

Hunter: Would you come to me?

Mercy: If you were here I might, but you aren't so there is no use talking about it.

[hauntedcedes]

Text || Hunter

Hunter: Who says you have to fly?

Mercy: What do you mean?

[hauntedcedes]

Text || Hunter

Hunter: I miss you

Hunter: Come see me.

Mercy: Trust me if I could I would, I could use some time out of this house and I do miss my best friend, but I am working on finishing my album I can't fly out.

[hauntedcedes]

Text || Hunter

Hunter: How so? Am I not speaking to you freely as of now?

Hunter: You can apologize to a person but it is up to the person to decide when they accept it. Simply stating an apology doesn't make the feeling going away instantly. It's just a verbal bandaid.

Hunter: You are my girlfriend. I have patience for you. Which is extremely annoying to me but beneficial to you.

Mercy: Its not on your part.

Mercy: You are right and I will be here when you decide to forgive me

Mercy: There is that word again...

[hauntedcedes]

Text || Hunter

Hunter: Which is why I stick with animals.

Hunter: I am not difficult to speak with.

Hunter: You're misplacing blame when your previous actions offended my feelings. Would you really expect me to keep reaching out so foolishly?

Hunter: You're also sidetracking. Did you need something from me or to just talk?

Mercy: Wise choice.

Mercy: You are...

Mercy: I apologized but you didn't want to hear it. You are allowed to feel how you feel and if you want us to stop talking then I won't bother you anymore.

[hauntedcedes]

Text || Hunter

Hunter: Animals are kind, provide unconditional love, loyalty and are harmless. Humans are the opposite. Possibly the most stressful creatures to walk the earth.

Hunter: Am I only good to speak with when you feel like a failure? I am not very good at consoling self pity, Miss.

Mercy: Humans are horrible...

Mercy: I don't know how to talk to you and when I am down and feeling low you are the only one I can think to talk too.

Mercy: You don't message me either...

[hauntedcedes]

Text || Hunter

Hunter: No.

Hunter: Correction, with animals, yes. Humans, no.

[a minute]

Hunter: It's been awhile.

Mercy: I wonder if its the same thing? Or the same feeling...

Mercy: I know, I have been dealing with a lot and I know its no excuse though. I just... I keep screwing up you know. With you and with others...

[hauntedcedes]

Text || Hunter

Mercy: You ever just feel like a failure? Like someone depends on you and you have no idea how to help?

Mercy: Also Hi.

[ghostlyseb]

12.9.2016

[hauntedcedes]

I have come to terms with nothing. I am miserable, scared and angrier than I’ve ever been. You keep mistaking my will to acknowledge I am not who I thought I was with being comfortable in this form I was forced into. I never asked to die, Mercedes. This isn’t me questioning shit because i’m indecisive. So you continue to be a chienne (bitch) and demanding because I won’t magically get over MY GRIEF so you can go back to pretending we’re this happy couple. If you’re here to help me then HELP ME! Not your damn self. [The walls start to shake.]  Because to me your actions seem purely selfish to just get us back to that place without the consequences of the shit you unleashed when you told me the truth. Now deal with it.

[She moved close to him, tears shining in her eyes.] That is the first and last time you will call me a bitch. How about when you deal with your issues you come find me. [Moves past him and walks out the door.] 

[ghostlyseb]

12.9.2016

[hauntedcedes]

I question everything! And you give up on everything the minute you can’t have your way. So allow me to be skeptical.

BECAUSE NOTHING CHANGES WITH YOU!!!!!  [She rubs her forehead] Every time I talk to you about something you question it. You say you want me but you push me away! I thought you coming to terms with everything would make it better, would make us better but I am starting to think I was wrong.