let it happen

caitlin // 25 // aus

[hauntmydreams]

I’m spiralling into a deep dark hole and I’m not quite sure how to get out.

[hauntmydreams]

feeling very reflective here in nyc listening to the rain trickle down the window and playing sad songs. starting to realise that 2018 was a year where I avoided taking chances and stuck very much in a safety bubble, and 2019 I became someone that began to take chances, especially with my career path. here’s to 2020 being a year where I can be myself and take all the risks I need in order to grow into a better person. to become someone that I can be proud of at the end of the year.

[errrinvia-deactivated20150210]

I wanna burry my face in someone’s chest right now til I fall asleep and wake up 4 hours later just to find I’m still in their arms

[grumpybearbutch]

me*suddenly is very very sad* me: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[richardmaddendaily]

“He’s with his children. That’s really defining for him, and for me as an actor, playing a father, not a son anymore. He’s always trying to be so strong for people, and he’s so ashamed of himself at that moment. He just wants a cuddle from his children, how powerful that is…. That’s the character I fell in love with; that man who’s starting to accept there’s something wrong with him and he needs help.” - Richard Madden

[trashboat]

part of your twenties is shedding the idea of grandeur that your life would have and just savouring the simple joys of being

[hauntmydreams]

feeling very reflective here in nyc listening to the rain trickle down the window and playing sad songs. starting to realise that 2018 was a year where I avoided taking chances and stuck very much in a safety bubble, and 2019 I became someone that began to take chances, especially with my career path. here’s to 2020 being a year where I can be myself and take all the risks I need in order to grow into a better person. to become someone that I can be proud of at the end of the year.

[four-toed-creed]

[ruinsmami]

how am i stressing and not giving a shit at the same time

[astronomyparkers]

i PERSONALLY would like to FALL IN LOVE please!!!!!! and have the SAME PERSON fall in love with me BACK!!!!!!! could i get some MUTUAL AFFECTION out here!!!!!!!!!!

[faggottt]

*stays home* i should’ve gone out

*goes out* i should’ve stayed home

[gulcayn2-deactivated20210101]

me @ myself: why is she doing this to herself

[brndnslvra]

finding somebody that pushes you to be better >

[thoradvice]

this isn’t all that there is!!! there are sunsets you haven’t seen, people you haven’t met, things you haven’t learned, food you haven’t tried, and places you haven’t visited. life is so much more than what you’re experiencing right now, and there will always be new things coming. there’s so much more out there for you!!

[prsephonies-deactivated20200815]

looking back on old photos of yourself is an act of mourning, always. how many times have you looked at pictures of yourself from even just a few months ago and thought “who is that? did i look like that? she’s beautiful” but fail to reconcile it with how you felt. that girl is me and that girl is beautiful but i have never been her, y’know? and the cycle is endless. i am always longing to be myself from two years ago, or six months ago, or last night. SHE was beautiful in ways i don’t know how to be now. i’m grieving for the death of my past selves, constantly, and grieving for the time they wasted mourning THEIR predecessors when they could’ve been feeling beautiful. in between disparaging remarks about the weight she holds around her midsection, my mother shows me photos from when she was younger and handles them gently; “i was kind of a looker back then, wasn’t i?” i wonder what i’ll be saying about this body in thirty years. i wonder if it’ll be kind

[hauntmydreams]

in 24 days I’ll be on a plane to spend 7 weeks travelling the usa and canada. god the things i would do to get me on that plane now

[charmingbarbarian]

Small things that exude Big-Dick Energy:

when a guy drives calmly and safely

when they cook so competently and unself-conscious and focused on making the food

when a man rolls up button-ups to his elbows

when their eyes become softer when looking at you

Being kind

Speaking passionately about pretty much anything

stretching all casual-like

the act of loosening the necktie