continuing to rest. focusing on myself. being grateful for the life I have and the new days to come. brand new wardrobe featuring classic 90s pieces. finding a new signature scent with citrus notes. smiling more. laughing more. exuding confidence. heavily moisturized, cashmere skin. enjoying solitude. prioritizing my health. quality over everything. setting myself up for success.
pampering myself. devoting all my time and energy to caring for me. being mindful. being consistent. reading for leisure. picking up new hobbies. maintaining interest in current ones. being okay with being alone. enjoying downtime without guilt. getting enough sleep. staying moisturized. cultivating my own happiness.
releasing what no longer serves me. moving to a new place. opening up my heart to love and be loved. living for me. loving myself unapologetically. enforcing my boundaries. enjoying the sun. being grateful for another day. appreciating the life I have. looking forward to the one I'm building. establishing healthy habits. being consistent. following a new routine. being intentional. being mindful of myself and my place in the world. taking up space. talking less and listening more. being extremely happy about the littlest things. giving myself grace. being disciplined.
Half the year has gone by, and it seems I don't have much to show for it.
I've lost what I thought was a lifelong friend, finally had and quit my highest paying job, to date, for my mental health, and soon I will be moving out of the state for the first time to stay with my little brother. I feel like I've hit rock bottom. No friends, no car, no income, no home of my own, no direction, no plan, no safety net, no plan b-z. Just no, lol.
I feel out of sorts. I feel lost. I feel free. I feel unburdened. The past six months haven't been all bad. Now, I can finally focus on myself. No excuses. And I'm finally in the head space to do just that without feeling guilty about it (oldest daughter/people pleaser problems).
So, here's to finishing the year stronger than we started. As I lay in bed, thinking, dreaming, planning, envisioning what my life will eventually be, I can't help but obsessively imagine what I want for myself by the end of 2023. 🍾
The next six months will look a lot like:
🌱 Prioritizing my well-being. I'll do this by taking care of myself:
Physically
Working out consistently
Eating healthier
Visiting the doctor regularly
Investing in my appearance
Mentally
Learning Spanish and ASL Moved to the beginning of 2024
Going back to school for Finance Accounting
Reading more of what I used to enjoy reading
Pursuing my passion for writing
Not judging myself too harshly
Giving myself permission to make mistakes
Removing unrealistic expectations
Bettering my social skills and improving my confidence
Emotionally
Showing up for myself
Putting myself first
Setting boundaries
Respecting myself, “People only do to you what you allow”
Speaking kindly to myself
Giving myself grace
Forgiving myself
Loving myself
Getting therapy
Financially
Securing steady employment (getting my CNA license)
Making a plan to become debt free
Securing personal transportation
Saving enough for the first 3 months of my next lease
Keeping a savings (no more transfers to checkings)
Budgeting monthly, no more late or missed payments
Spiritually
Journaling my gratitude daily
Being out in nature more
Monitoring social media/technology usage
Meditating
Finding my community
🧘🏽♀️ Being more intentional/mindful. I'll do this by:
Practicing Gratitude
Choosing carefully who and what I give energy to
Acknowledging my shortcomings
Being more open minded
🫶🏽 Getting to know myself. I'll do this by:
Healing my inner child, e.g., going to an amusement park and getting my roller skates
Allowing myself more creative outlets/hobbies and being consistent with them
Doing things just for the fun of it
Travelling (getting my passport) and getting out of my element
Doing more of the things I like e.g., going to the beach, seeing another opera or theatre show
Doing things I want to do e.g., going on a cruise, going camping in the mountains, going on a road trip
🙏🏽 Trusting the process. I'll do this by:
Setting SMART goals
Focusing on the things I can control
Changing the way I think about failures and obstacles
"The results we want tomorrow are manifested by the rituals we implement today. Focus on the rituals. It's all about the process. Take care of the small steps, and the results will eventually come."
what if everything goes right? what if it's everything you've ever dreamed and so much more? what if it's not as hard as you thought? what if it was made specifically for you? what if not just one but hundreds, thousands, millions can benefit from your authenticity, your drive, your determination, your light, your love, your energy, your creativity, your vulnerability, your transparency, your wisdom, your intellect, your voice, your art, your craft, you.
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