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it's strange what desire will make foolish people do.

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lrplair:

Rafael quickly realized how almost grumpy he had sounded there, but sometimes it was hard for him to keep the feelings work often stirred up in him at work. However, he knew that that was no excuse to let those feelings be poured upon Nick and Sonny. “No need to turn anything off,” he answered, “Don’t let me ruin your fun.” It wasn’t like Sonny and Nick were all that much younger than him but apparently even a decade was a big enough gap when it came to things like activities for entertainment purposes. He had come into his apartment with every intention of pouring himself a scotch but, on second thought, he knew he should probably stay away from booze as tomorrow promised to be an even longer workday than today had been. “Some coffee,” Rafael told Sonny, “Thanks.” He took a much needed seat on the couch, wishing he had a little bit of Sonny’s eternal optimism right now. He wished he could see the world however it was that the detective managed to see it.

truth be told, they have been just doing this for most of the day now and it was simultaneously something that has bonded them a little closer and an easy way to pass time. so nick decided that since half of that equation was taken care of, that maybe it was time to give the games a rest and switched it over to the tv on some light sitcom comedy with the volume set a little lower.

sonny went off to the kitchen to make rafael some coffee while nick sat across from rafael on the coffee table, patting his lap directing him gently in spanish to prop his feet up so he could take off his shoes. once he did, nick untied them and pulled them off his feet, setting the shoes off to the side before returning his hands to his feet and rubbing them through his socks. 

by this point, sonny came back with some coffee and handed it over before taking the empty spot next to rafael. “long day?” it usually was the case, so the question might be redundant but at least it presented rafael with the opportunity to talk about it, if he wanted to. “wait until all three of us manage to get a day off together. shit, i bet that’s gonna require some magic huh?” needless to say, he wouldn’t mind a lazy morning in bed with the other two & maybe, just maybe, he could find his way in the middle of that sandwich.

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All things considered, that insane idea he had had months ago was going much better than he had ever expected. The three of them were getting along together fine. Whatever bouts of jealousy that Rafael had felt early on had disappeared completely. He cared about the both of them much more than he had ever thought he would care about anyone, and the two of them seemed to be growing fond of each other too. He had given them both keys to his apartment a couple of weeks ago, giving them his full permission to hang out there whenever they wanted to. He trusted them…ish. He would be lying if he said he wasn’t afraid that he’d come home to a giant mess one day. But, so far, the two of them had managed to behave themselves rather well. He could only hope that they would be able to keep that up. It was already dark when he found himself standing outside of his apartment complex. It had been a late day at work and all he wanted to do was pour himself a drink and relax for the rest of the night. When he opened up his door, though, he was greeted by two loud shouts and the sound of what sounded like cheesy video game music coming from his TV. So much for relaxing. With some trepidation, he made his way further into his apartment. His eyes went from the TV screen to the bottles of liquor and then to Nick and Sonny. “What’s going on here?” he inquired, his tone mostly curious but with a tiniest hint of something that was dangerously close to anger. They hadn’t quite made a mess but there was certainly the potential of a mess having been created if he had come home an hour or two later.

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of course sonny respected rafael’s apartment a lot more than he would’ve his own. whenever he used any dishes, he either washed them himself or made sure to at least put them in the dishwasher. if he accidentally made a mess, then he cleaned it up right away. point being, he didn’t want to make rafael feel like this was becoming less and less like his home and more like a frat house. 

had he not been a little drunk, he would’ve felt those nerves stemming from that fact a lot more than he did. 

“we’re just playing some games to pass the time until you got home.”

while sonny spoke, nick paused the game and set the controller down, opting to rise from the couch. “we can turn it off, if you want.” nick doubted that rafael was a big fan of video games and it wasn’t exactly conducive to a relaxing evening. 

“do you want a drink? i can make ya somethin’.” sonny offered as he abandoned his controller on the coffee table. 

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it’s taken a little time for nick to adjust to having sonny around and ultimately, it was a feat that wasn’t that hard to accomplish. sonny’s energy was different and he’s actually helped him while he tackled his new position at the academy. he’d gotten used to having less stress in his life while he’s been out of work and being thrown back into it was more of an adjustment than having sonny around. rafael helped him as well in keeping him grounded and his head clear and having sonny throw in his own light energy made for a positive mix for nick. 

after a long days work, it was just he and sonny in rafael’s apartment, waiting for the third to come home from work. sonny brought his video games and nick couldn’t help but feel amused because he wasn’t sure how rafael would react to this being brought into the mix but for nick, it worked like a charm. they were playing mortal kombat and whenever someone won the best two out of three rounds, the loser would have to take a shot. by the time they heard the door open, both of them were loose and jovial from the alcohol. 

“rafi -” 

“raf!”

they both called out simultaneously. 

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Rafael was one of those people who had no idea what Nick was going through. He, it need not be said, had no children–or at least no children that any woman he had ever been with cared to let him know about. And his family was a small one with no cousins for him of his own that had children that he had to be around all that often. He wished he could say that he regretted never having kids but that wouldn’t quite be the truth. He wouldn’t have had the time for them. He believed Nick’s answer and was certain that he he had asked more for his own benefit, to ease his own worries, than to make sure that the former detective was doing all right. It was still nice to know, though, that Nick was okay. Rafael, however, wasn’t going to allow himself to completely relax yet. As he had just told Carisi, there was still plenty of time for this night to take a different turn. Hopefully they would all just lay down and crash, instead of want to discuss in detail what this night meant going forward. Nick’s caress brought a smile out of him and a further feeling of relaxation. “When you tell someone to relax, you know it usually has quite the opposite affect,” he teased him, “but I’ll try my hardest.” Rafael laid his hand on top of Nick’s. “So, does that mean that Sonny can spend the night with us?” He wasn’t going to presume that he knew the answer to that. It was a long way from feeling fine to being willing to let sonny spend the night. 

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“All I can ask is that you try.” Nick smiled back at him, marveling at the difference of Rafael’s body language from what he’s seeing right now and what he’s seen prior to the start of their relationship. It could be due to the fact that he wasn’t privy to seeing Rafael outside of work but he felt it was safe to assume that he was more relaxed and happy now, which made Nick happy since he was part of that now. 

“He can.” Nick only hesitated slightly at the question and again, there might be a small part of him that was doing this for Rafael and it would take some time for that feeling to subside. If he wanted to get comfortable with Sonny, then he’d have to spend time with him and there was no better way of seeing if this compiled relationship would work between them unless he gave it his best shot and stepped outside of his comfort zone. “However that is configured,” He gestured with his hand towards the bedroom, “I want to be next to you.” That would be his only stipulation on the matter.

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As soon as Nick’s phone had rang, Rafael’s mind had gone through every awful possibility that it could be on the other end twice over. So he was more than relieved when Nick smiled at him. But, then again, good news to Nick might not be good news to him. As much as he knew Nick had every right to go and visit his family as much as he wanted to, Rafael couldn’t help but selfishly want Nick to himself. He would never say that out loud, though, so he listened to Nick make some not too substantial plans for the next time he went out west. Rafael squeezed Nick’s hand, finding comfort in the fact that the former detective would always come back home to him…and maybe Carisi too, although that still seemed to be up in the air. He let out a short, involuntary gasp at the unexpected embrace, and it quickly turned into a delighted chuckle. “I’m glad that’s all it was,” he said, pushing aside the slight guilty feeling he had at being the main reason that Zara did not have her father to go to in person every time she had a bad dream these days. He let go of Nick and took a step back, only so he would be able to look him in the eyes when he asked a question he needed to get off his chest sooner rather than later. “How are you holding up?” He knew he didn’t need to elaborate. Rafael wanted to make sure that Nick was not having any second thoughts, any regrets or any doubts about what they had just done with Carisi. He would toss Carisi out of his apartment if that was what Nick wanted. He would hate doing it but Rafael was certain there wasn’t anything he wouldn’t do for Nick. 

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It would never be easy to be away from his kids like this and he missed them like nothing only a parent would understand. He was no long immersed in the kid life where he had to know other parents so he could set up play dates with their kids. Being a parent was like having a second full time job and of course he felt incredibly guilty when he felt relieved that he didn’t have to do that much anymore. There was a lot of guilt weighing on his shoulders but he tried to balance everything the best he could given everything he had on his plate. 

“Yeah, me too.” Lord knows what he’d do if something happened to either Zara or Gil and he was clear across the country. Actually, he knew what he’d do - He’d jump on the first flight available. He looked at Rafael when he stepped back and he wasn’t surprised when he received the question he did. “I’m fine.” He was going to say that it was fun but he felt like it might come off as too casual, like he was referencing to something that was only a one night occurrence. 

“Relax Rafi, I’m not running out the door.” He assured the other as he reached out and placed his hand on his cheek and stroked his thumb against his skin. “There’s still some jealousy but I’m working on it.” It was possible that it would never go away completely but as long as he wasn’t harboring any resentment or flying off the handle, he figured he’d be fine. 

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He knew, logically speaking, that Sonny was correct: no one was being forced to do anything. But that inkling that Nick was only going along with this to please him was never going to leave him, despite what anyone tried to tell him. Rafael supposed, though, that he would eventually learn how to quiet it up. Until then, however, he was going to be keeping a close eye on Nick to see how he was handling everything.

Rafael did smile. “The eternal optimist. I wish I could be more like you.” He leaned over and planted a quick kiss on the detective’s lips. “I’m gonna go check on Nick.” He got up, albeit reluctantly, and found his boxers to put on. He left his bedroom, shutting the door behind him, as he had the suspicion that Nick might not be comfortable with Sonny hearing whatever he had to say. He didn’t say anything himself, not wanting to disturb Nick right away. Rafael would let him share what he wanted to share on his own time.

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Sonny smiled back, knowing that Rafael could have some of that if he allowed himself to but it wasn’t easy to do and probably wouldn’t be for him. Both he and Nick were two tightly wound people and Sonny couldn’t understand how they carried so much with them on a day to day basis. He returned the kiss before nodding his head, watching the other leave the room and once he did, he put on his own boxers and laid down on the bed to wait for the other two to return so they could have a moment to themselves. 

Meanwhile, Nick was on the phone with Zara, who had a bad dream and his heart strings were immediately tugged upon hearing that. He wished he could be there but even if he was out there in California, he still wouldn’t really be there. Regardless, he was able to calm her down some and got her talking about how much she was having on the soccer team she joined. He’d been listening to her when Rafael came out and he offered him a smile, signaling that everything was fine, so he wouldn’t have to worry. 

He walked over and took his hand into his own, just as he promised Zara that they would go to the aquarium next time that he came in. By that point, he urged her to try to get some sleep and that if she needed him, he was only just a phone call away. After he ended the call, he set his phone down on the table and enveloped Rafael into his arms and hugged him closely and he couldn’t even say why he did it other than he simply wanted to. Maybe he was still processing everything that just happened and for the moment, he was thankful that he had the simplicity of having just Rafael there, whom he was still more comfortable with. “It was Zara -- She had a bad dream.” 

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He returned Sonny’s smile. Rafael’s words had been sincere. Nick wasn’t the kind of man to do anything that he didn’t want to do. Both Rafael and Sonny had made sure that what Nick had done tonight had been done because he wanted to do it. Rafael didn’t think that Nick would decide to back away from his decision to give this all a real shot. But he couldn’t be one hundred percent sure about that, especially because Nick had more to think about than himself; he had two kids living across the country to care about.

Rafael grabbed the detective’s hand and placed a kiss on top of it. “You could say that. I was his first.” He let out a small sigh as he thought about the full import of those words. “What does that make me? I mean, wanting to be with both of you, making Nick be a part of an even more unconventional than usual relationship.” He could tell himself all that he wanted to that Nick was not doing this for him but a part of him would always wonder if that wasn’t as true as he believed it to be.

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“Oh wow.” Sonny didn’t know it was to that extent and if he’d been the one in Nick’s shoes, he probably wouldn’t have handled it so well. He would’ve been a bundle of nerves, stammering over his words and easily making a fool out of himself. So he really had to hand it to Nick for going through it without any visible problems and that probably had a lot to do with Rafael. 

“You realize it’s not like you’re holding a gun to his head and demanding that he do it. You’re not doing that to me either, so you’re not making anyone do anything.” He didn’t see anything wrong with doing this if all three of them were happy with it and Sonny was elated to know that he did factor into the equation. “It’s consensual, Raf.” And everyone present knew the importance of that. He pushed his hand through Rafael’s soft hair and smiled at him. “You know, it’s okay to smile.” Sonny prompted as he playfully poked Rafael in his side, hoping that it would pull him out of his own head.

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Rafael didn’t want this night to end. Better yet, he didn’t want this moment to end because now would come the aftermath that might or might not be awkward. Did Nick want to spend the night here? If he did, would he let Sonny stay too? Rafael wanted them to both spend the night but only if they were both up for it. He didn’t want to push his luck any further than he already had. A lot more had happened than he had expected, and he would be happy with that for now. 

He, like Nick, wasn’t sure what to say–a very rare event for the ADA. Rafael, however, knew that Sonny wouldn’t be at a loss for words because he never was. True to form, he was going to break the silence but was interrupted by Nick’s phone. He hoped it wasn’t serious but any news this late at night wasn’t bound to be good news. Hopefully, this call would be a general exception to that rule. 

He wasn’t given any time to worry about it, though, as he turned his full attention on Sonny at his words. “Not yet,” he said, “but there’s still plenty of time for that to change.” He, of course, hoped that no second thoughts would enter Nick’s head. “I think he likes you, though.” And he thought that this could work out. It would be tough and there were plenty of things they would need to figure out but it could be done.

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Sonny watched Nick leave the room, wishing that he knew what was going on inside that head of his because then, Sonny would know where he stood. This whole thing has been a process of waiting for him and while he understood it and could outwardly be patient with it - On the inside was a completely different story. He wanted to dive right in and tonight was the first instance where he could and he couldn’t wipe the smile off his face. 

“Yeah..” Sonny sighed before he glanced back at Rafael and he perked up a bit at what he said. “I hope so.” He smiled as he traced his fingertips against Rafael’s chest and up across his collarbone. Sonny waited a beat before asking, “He doesn’t uh.. Have a lot of experience, does he?” It certainly wasn’t a bad thing and he’d done well in getting Sonny off but it was his gut instinct that told him that he might not be as experienced with men as he was with women. 

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Rafael was glad when Carisi pulled away from him because he needed a breather. Now he could watch the two of them without having to worry so much about what it was going to do to him. Seeing Carisi reach his end was just as lovely a sight as Rafael had remembered it to be. And there was something even more tantalizing about it knowing that it was Nick who had accomplished that result tonight. He, however, wasn’t given much time to admire the sight. Nick was soon back with him, and Rafael wrapped his fingers in his hair. As soon as Carisi was back around him again, Rafael blindly groped until his free hand rested on the detective’s head. He kept him going at a steady pace. But, with all of the attention focused on him now, he knew he wasn’t going to last for very long. Sure enough, only a few minutes later, and Rafael reached the finish line, moaning into his kiss with Nick and tightening his grip on both men’s hair.

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Sonny felt rather accomplished with himself and he eagerly swallowed back everything that came out of Rafael. Truth be told, his body was thrumming with excitement and he hardly wanted it to go away because he wasn’t ready to come down off the cloud that he was floating on. Nick was feeling something very similar but the worry was starting to gnaw it’s way back into his brain as he wasn’t sure how he was supposed to act after this. What does he say? It’s almost as if any and all past experience had been wiped away from his brain and he was left clueless. Shit. 

Sonny pulled away and pressed a few kisses to Rafael’s inner thigh before he shakily pushed himself up to his feet and sat down on the bed on the other side of Rafael. “So that --” Sonny’s words were cut off when he heard a phone start to ring and since he didn’t recognize the ringtone, he knew it wasn’t his. Nick, however, stood up and walked over to his pants and pulled his phone out, seeing that it was Zara and he worried instantly because it was late and she should already be in bed. “I gotta take this.” He said as he hastily pulled on his boxers and answered the call, leaving the room so he could have some privacy. 

“He doesn’t seem to be freaking out.” Sonny observed as he leaned on his side, propping his head up in the palm of his hand. 

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Nick wasn’t exactly right in surmising that Rafael was not going to have any regrets about tonight. He hadn’t wanted any of this to happen tonight. He hadn’t wanted to move so fast. So there would be at least a little piece of him that woke up tomorrow wishing he could take all of this back but only a small piece of him. He would mostly be okay with it because regretting it too much would lead to him doubting himself, and doubting himself would lead to him questioning this whole arrangement that he so desperately wanted to make a reality. 

But the morning had not yet come, though, so he could continue to focus on the here and now. There had been a lot of good signs tonight but best of all seemed to be Nick leaving his side to take care of Carisi. It was a beautiful sight to see. And he was certain now that Nick wasn’t doing any of it for him because, if he was, then Rafael would have wanted him to stay by his side, as he did not like the feel of the empty space next to him. 

Rafael curled his fingers into Carisi’s hair, not pushing him yet, as he didn’t mind the steady pace the detective had set for now. He wanted to watch what Nick was doing to him but knew that would only make things unbearably pleasurable. So Rafael kept his eyes focused on the top of Carisi’s head. He eventually applied some pressure, urging him to go a little bit deeper and move a little bit faster.   

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Turns out, it was difficult for Sonny to concentrate on both men and he almost wanted Nick to stop because just the simplicity of having his hand around him was almost too much. At this rate, he wasn’t going last long and that fact became apparent very quick when he had to pull away from Rafael just in time for Nick to coax the orgasm out of him and he moaned loudly as he pressed his forehead against Rafael’s thigh. 

Nick took care of cleaning up that little mess at the foot of the bed before he rejoined Rafael on the bed and he kissed him, just to buy Sonny a moment to compose himself and finish up the task at hand. It took a minute but Sonny came back around and took Rafael in his mouth again and now, he was ready to pull out all the stops and offer Rafael a pace that would get him over that edge. 

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Space Oddity

[lrplair]

He had watched every second of it. It had been a great pleasure in and of itself to witness and might have been enough to finish Rafael off, without anyone touching him, if Nick had been able to last a few minutes longer. As it was, though, Nick had finished when he had, leaving Rafael the chance to get to experience all that Carisi was willing to offer him. He felt a tinge of guilt for being so excited for it but he pushed that aside as quickly as he could. 

Rafael let out a moan that was probably just a little bit too loud as soon as Carisi engulfed him because it felt better than he had anticipated. Rafael had immensely enjoyed what the two of them had done their one night together but this was even better. If only they both hadn’t been so hurried that night…but why dwell on that when it was happening right now? Rafael could already tell that it had been well worth the wait. 

He couldn’t help but lean into Nick’s touch. If his mind hadn’t been so occupied at the moment, then he might have thought Nick’s question was a trick one, that Nick wanted to hear that he was better than Carisi. But his mind was occupied elsewhere and he couldn’t believe that Nick would be so cruel or clever to pose him a trick question right now. “Very…very good,” he managed to get out between labored breathing. 

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Nick wasn’t sure where his thoughts would be once this was all over and he had even just a little bit of time to reflect on what happened here tonight. Whether he’d be okay with it or if he’d regret it but at the moment, he was leaning more towards the former but later, he might wonder what he’d do if he did regret it when he was pretty certain that neither of the other two men didn’t. 

As it was, all he was concentrating on now was getting his turn to watch the other two and he couldn’t help the little bit of jealousy at hearing Rafael’s answer but it was quickly washed away when Sonny moaned in response and adding a brief extra to Rafael’s pleasure. Nick was torn as to whether he wanted to keep watching Rafael or if he should pay it forward and do something to Sonny, who seemed to be too busy with them to pay much attention to himself. 

That thought alone decided his answer and he gave Rafael a brief kiss before he moved off the bed and got down beside Sonny and pushed down his boxers so he could wrap a hand around him and started to stroke him. Now the moans were starting to come out more and maybe it would be a nice challenge for him to try to give and receive both at the same time. Sonny bucked his hips into Nick’s hand and he grabbed Rafael’s and placed it on his head, encouraging him to touch him or move him if he wanted him to go faster or deeper than he already was. 

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Rafael couldn’t pay attention to how much Nick was enjoying himself because he was too busy kissing him and paying attention to what Carisi was doing to him with his hand. Unlike Nick, Rafael couldn’t say that he had never experienced these two things at the same time because they could easily be done by the same person. However, he had been with Nick enough times to know that it wasn’t his hand down there. 

He almost–but didn’t–whimper when Carisi pulled his hand away. And then Nick pulled away from him too, giving Rafael the perfect opportunity to take a step back and watch the two of them together. The ADA kept his hands at his side, despite the great urge to continue what Carisi had started on him. He watched Nick reach his end. He watched Carisi swallow and grin. They were both very beautiful sights, and he hoped he would seeing plenty more of them again and again and again in the future. But he wasn’t given much time to dwell on them because the ache in himself was too great to allow his mind to focus on much else. 

He didn’t need to be told twice to sit down on the bed. He took a seat next to Nick. He thought about telling Carisi that he didn’t have to do anything to him, if only because a part of him still believed Nick might become too jealous and let his temper get the best of him. But Rafael wasn’t able to open his mouth and say anything. All he was able to do was anxiously await the same treatment Nick had just gotten. 

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As soon as Rafael sat down, Sonny shifted over so he was between his legs now and he smoothed his hands up Rafael’s thighs, thinking about how much he liked it that he’d been watching everything happen. Sonny only hoped that he could make it worth the wait and since he’s waited enough already, he leaned in and licked a stripe up his arousal and fully took him into his mouth. Sonny groaned half at his enjoyment and half at the dull burn in his jaw. 

Nick was far too relaxed to feel any overwhelming sense of jealousy, though it was still there a little bit. Of course he wanted to be the only one to make Rafael feel good but that was just a selfish thought of his own. If he were to really think about it, the two of them were far more experienced than he was and he could easily learn a few things from them but only so if he could put his pride away and allow himself to. 

As it was, Nick sat up and leaned in towards Rafael and pressed a kiss on his shoulder and then up to his neck. “He’s good at that, huh?” There was no way Nick could deny it but he wasn’t so much as interested in the answer to the question but hearing the sound of Rafael’s voice when he did. Rafael really did sound amazing when he was in the throws of pleasure. Nick moved his hand down to rest on Sonny’s head, not pushing but going with the motions that he was already setting. 

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Space Oddity

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Carisi didn’t need to do anything for Rafael to want to never let go of him. That had been accomplished during after their one night together. He, though, of course, couldn’t speak for Nick. Was this going to be what Nick needed for him to realize that he really  did want Carisi with them forever? If Rafael had to make an educated guess, then he would say that no one here was going to forget this night but Nick was still going to need more time before he came to a final decision about Carisi’s status moving forward. But Rafael might be wrong there for all he knew. 

Rafael watched as Carisi began to take care of Nick. He was jealous, not because he wished he were doing it all to Nick but because he wished that Carisi was doing it all to him. Carisi loved to talk and he was a great kisser; he was probably equally as good at what he was doing to Nick right now. It, however, would be improper of him to ask Nick at the moment how talented the detective was. Rafael hoped that he would get the chance to find out himself soon enough. 

He wasn’t given very long to savor the sight because Nick drew him into a kiss. His hand on Nick’s back moved down to his ass, while his other ran over his chest. He bucked his hips a little bit into Carisi’s touch. But his main focus was Nick. His tongue slipped into his mouth as soon as he had the room to do so. 

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How Nick was feeling while enjoying Sonny’s mouth was easily figured out by his body language, which was relaxed and it was probably as relaxed as he’s been this whole night. Plus there were the moans that were coming out of his mouth as well. He’s never been in a position where someone was doing that to him and he could kiss at the same time since it was usually one or the other but not both. It enhanced his pleasure ten fold and if they kept going at this rate, he’d finish quicker than he would’ve liked. 

At some point, even his legs started to shake and that made Sonny all the more confident about what he was doing to the former detective. When he thought Nick might be getting closer, Sonny took his hand away from Rafael, thinking he was next on his list anyway and he looked up at Nick - at the two of them - and groaned. He felt lucky to even be witnessing this, let alone be included. 

Nick couldn’t hold it off any longer and he pulled away from the kiss just moments before he came. He let out a wrecked moan and tightened his grip in Sonny’s hair, making the other groan around him as he greedily swallowed everything Nick gave him and pulled away when he was done. Since Nick’s legs were so shaky, he decided to sit down on the edge of the bed and tried to catch his breath while Sonny grinned, feeling quite proud of himself. Then he turned his head to Rafael and gestured to the bed, “Take a seat.” His jaw was already burning from the first round but he’d be damned if he was going to give up and not do the same to Rafael.

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Space Oddity

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Rafael had no problems with feeling like he belonged where he was now. Some of his older friends might tell him that he didn’t belong where he was but they were wrong. What Rafael needed was someone or someones to help him remember that there was more to life than his work. Did he need more than Nick for that? No, but Rafael couldn’t control what his heart wanted, and he was lucky enough to like two men who seemed to understand that.

He loved seeing Carisi get down on his knees. He could already guess where this was going to go, and he had no problems with Carisi wanting to take charge. What he did have a problem with, though, was speaking too much for Nick. He knew what Nick liked to do with him but that didn’t mean that he would enjoy doing the same exact things with Carisi. 

“Well,” he said, “from my own extensive personal experience, he enjoys a lot where you’re headed right now. Isn’t that right, Nick?” Rafael placed a hand on the former detective’s back and placed a kiss on his shoulder. That was as much as he dared to speak for him at the moment. 

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Never once did Sonny expect that he’d be in this situation and it was a sentiment that was shared by Nick as well. Nick had Rafael to his left and Sonny on his knees right in front of him and it just seemed very surreal to him but he was genuinely enjoying himself. He listened to the two of them speak about what would please him and he found that even more arousing than he ever thought it would. 

“Yes.” He managed to breathe out lowly when his brain snapped to the fact that he had been given a direct question. Sonny smiled up at him before he slowly pulled down Nick’s boxer briefs and he licked his lips once Nick was fully revealed to him. He shouldn’t have been surprised when Sonny immediately dove right in and he let out a shuddered moan as one of his hands pushed into Sonny’s hair. 

Since Sonny wanted to be all inclusive, he reached over with his free hand and attempted to tug down Rafael’s boxers as well. To which Nick helped him out before he pulled his boyfriend into a kiss and moaned into his mouth at Sonny’s ministrations. Sonny wrapped his hand around Rafael’s arousal and started stroking him and god, he was swinging for the fences here in indulging in his naturally giving nature and he really hoped it paid off. That it would leave an impression that neither man standing before him would forget and subsequently, wouldn’t want to let go of. 

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Space Oddity

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Wanting to add Carisi into the equation had had nothing to do with what was going on at this exact moment. Oh, Carisi had been fantastic in bed but Rafael wasn’t so shallow to want to add a third person into what he and Nick had just because sex with him had been fantastic. Rafael had meant it when he had told Nick that he thought Carisi would be good for both of them, that he would offset their highstrung tendencies.

It was too early to tell anything. Nick seemed to be enjoying the physical aspect of being involved with more than one man but the emotional part of it…Well, just because the three of them had enjoyed playing a little bit of beer pong together, it didn’t mean that long-term that side of the equation would work out. And that part was even more important to Rafael than this part going on right now was.

He didn’t want to stop anything that he was doing but he did when Carisi suggested that they change location. Rafael looked to Nick, as he would defer to him each time something new was put out there because Nick was the one likely to get cold feet at any point tonight. When he nodded, though, Rafael took both his and Carisi’s hands in his own and led them to his bedroom.

He stopped them shy of his bed and wasted no time in pulling Nick into a kiss. His hands worked on unbuttoning his pants and pulling them-and just them down. He then turned his attention to Carisi and gave him the same exact treatment. Not for the first time tonight, he couldn’t believe how lucky he was. He had never thought he would end up with either one of them, let alone both of them at the same time.

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Sonny definitely wasn’t in this for the sex - Though he had to admit that it had a good deal of appeal to him and even he couldn’t believe that this was actually happening. The biggest motivation for him was just like it was in anything else, albeit in a different context here, and that was to belong somewhere. He’s jumped from one place to the next and never having much of a chance to establish any bonds like he would’ve liked to. Here though, he was finally able to do that and in ways that he never would’ve saw coming. 

He liked the idea of actually coming home to someone and whether that be one or two people, it was obvious that he was very open minded about that. Rafael led them back to the bedroom and as they walked, Sonny looked over to Nick and put his hand on his arm, just because he wanted to touch him as well and he let go of him once Rafael pulled Nick into a kiss and he happily watched the exchange that Nick seemed to easily melt into. His body language seemed to relax whenever Rafael touched him or even looked at him and he knew that would be a really good tool going forward. 

While Sonny got the same treatment, Nick took that moment to take off his shoes and socks so he could step out of his pants and he moved to do the same to Rafael. Might as well keep them on even ground so no one felt excluded. Once Sonny was free of his pants, he decided it was his turn to take charge and he smiled at the both of them, placing his hands on their chests. Once a thought got into Sonny’s head, he always tended to run as far as he could with it and that was the same strategy he was going to use here. 

Nick watched as Sonny dropped down onto his knees in front of both of them and he felt Sonny’s hand on his thigh and when he looked, he saw that he was doing the same to Rafael. What he wasn’t expecting - but he should’ve - was for Sonny to lean forward and mouth at his arousal through his boxer briefs and he moaned as his hips instinctively jerked forward. “What do you want me to do to him?” He heard Sonny ask Rafael.

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Space Oddity

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If Rafael had known that, at first, Nick had been doing this more for his benefit, then the ADA would have called the whole thing off. He had meant it when he had said that this wasn’t about just him. He wanted Nick to be completely up for this too. But Rafael didn’t know couldn’t bother him. As far as he was concerned, Nick was doing all of this because he was enjoying it as much as he and Carisi were. At times, he was hyper-aware of both men touching him at the same time. At other times, his mind insisted on shutting one of them out, if only not to overwhelm himself with too much pleasure all at once. This was all so wonderfully new to Rafael. He wasn’t sure what was going to happen once they reached his bedroom, if they ever reached it, as he couldn’t even be sure that that much was going to happen. He wasn’t ready to say goodbye to Carisi’s lips yet but he didn’t fight it as Nick pulled his head around so he could begin kissing him. He wrapped his hands in Nick’s hair. He might have quickly gotten himself lost in the familiarity of the feel of Nick and forgotten that Carisi was there if the detective hadn’t begun to unbutton his shirt. Rafael wanted to press himself up against Nick but, for the sake of what Carisi was doing, he remained far enough away so the detective could continue his good work. Rafael let out his loudest groan yet as soon as Carisi’s hand found itself on his arousal. He pushed himself into it, wanting and needing the friction that created. He broke off his kiss with Nick so he could breathe and finish what the other two men had started. Rafael took off his shirt and undershirt, and then he moved in to kiss the tender flesh of Nick’s neck, sucking here and lightly biting there.

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Nick could understand how overwhelming this was because he too was experiencing same feeling. Sometimes he felt that way with Rafael but it should be mentioned that it was in the best way possible and now this was quickly sliding into place alongside that. He was even starting to understand why Rafael couldn’t let Sonny go because before, he’d foolishly been under the impression that he simply hadn’t been enough to satisfy Rafael. That he lacked the experience which it was clear that Sonny possessed since he seemed to be assured in every move he’s made, even when asking Nick’s permission to touch him. 

On the flip side of that coin, Sonny wondered if it was idiotic of him to think that both he and Rafael could be the ones to teach Nick in both the physical intimacy aspect and the emotional acceptance of their relationship. Then again, that was assuming that they’d reach that point and it was still too early to tell. Both men watched as Rafael took off his shirt but Nick occasionally glanced over at Sonny, who’s hand was still on Rafael and moving at a leisurely pace. 

Nick groaned lowly when Rafael’s lips moved to his neck and he tilted it to give him better access but then he looked over at Sonny, he was busy taking off his own shirt and then moving to do the same to Nick. “Rafi..” Nick breathed out in a moan as Rafael was doing an excellent job winding him up and Sonny started to add to the mix when started placing kisses on Nick’s bare chest as he was trying to figure out for himself what Nick liked because he was the type that was eager to please and that still extended to Rafael when his hand went back to what he’d been doing previously. 

A little while later, Sonny broke the silence - Well, aside from the moans and heavy breathing - and asked, “Bedroom?” Sonny was ready and he was pretty sure that Rafael was but he wasn’t sure if Nick was ready for that step just yet. Nick swallowed and nodded his head but in that moment, perhaps he was too afraid to lead the way himself. 

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Diamond Eyes

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“Liv is the best kind of liar,” Rafael pointed out. “Ya’ never expect it from her, so when she lies… you’re taken like a whirlwind and knocked onto your ass,” he explained. “And, you, sir, are – should be on your ass,” he insisted. Granted, it wa sa lie. Rafael liked Nick, he was a good guy. A bit much at the time, but Rafael liked that about him. He just would never admit that to Nick. The man had enough dirt on him, especially now. 

Once Rafael was out of his seat, he decided fuck it when it came to buttoning up his jacket again. Suits were difficult. He let out a noise of surprise as he was pulled into the man’s side and had an arm securely around his shoulders. His cheeks tinged and he snorted, walking with the man out of the bar to head to the restaurant directly across the street. “Sushi – they have sushi.”

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Rafael had a point about that since he’d hardly expect it from Liv but given everything they’ve been through since he joined SVU, he doubted that she would. “Then what’s her motivation for the lie?” There was always some kind of intent behind a lie and for the life of him, he couldn’t imagine what that could be - If it were the case, which he still highly doubted it was. Rafael was just evading and keeping people beyond arm’s length. “And you’re redirecting.” Though, he really should be on his ass by now.

“Sushi?” Nick let out a good laugh as his eyes landed on what was indeed a sushi restaurant. “You really are ivy league, aren’t you?” Usually sushi wasn’t anywhere near the top of the list when it came to eating while you’re trashed. It was usually some diner with greasy food - Comfort food. “C’mon, we can do better than sushi.” He insisted as he started to leave them down the sidewalk once they got across the street.