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if you see this blog no you don't. there are purposefully bad thoughts here i know it's trash

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need my housemate to stop being in the house rn. he kinda smells and i hate the tv he watches but he's downstairs where the food is. so i can't eat breakfast

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the tragedy of only caring about internet things. irl might as well die. but i have Responsibilities in my internet thing and also i want to keep doing it. so i guess i can't die. even tho i otherwise have no reason not to

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i know being bigoted is bad. but sometimes marginalised people are annoying based on their marginalisation. like man shut up or at least be quieter or at least take a hint whether someone doesn't want to talk anymore (literally walking up the stairs away). and to top it off he said something racist and i should have pulled him on it more than i did but i don't want to talk to him more than i have to. even though he's loud i have to try so hard to understand the words he's saying

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the hate in my heart is heavy but i will continue to carry it

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hate having to do things. I'd rather not

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who invented getting up and being a functioning member of society. i just want to sleep and jerk off

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I am garbage

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hypothetically what if I'm the worst and should kms

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why is existing and doing shit so hard I'm fucking useless

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oopsy I drank so much last night that it's the morning and I'm still drunk, not hungover yet

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I am the worst and need to die but also I quit my job on two weeks

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sometimes you just need to masturbate for uh. 9 hours

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maybe I could do a lot of lying on in tuesday, make it to Wednesday no problem, and then if I'm going to do that I should probably make it to Friday? but then I can yeet (because all the lying will have consequences) (I mean there's also other things I may fail to do this week and that constitute yeeting) (but like future problem)

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so I can't make it to Tuesday. but I have to make it to at least Wednesday. but like I cannot do Tuesday. so I guess we'll see how she goes!

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wow that certainly was dead dove. it did what it said in the tin! but unfortunately it well compellingly well written with plot, which made it feels so much worse

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low-key wish i didnt have anything to live for, then i could die in peace, but no i really want to be part of this one specific thing in a long term way, so i guess i have to deal with everything else that's going wrong. even tho id rather die than do any of that

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just want to kms