i wish i knew you wanted me - Eddie Munson x Sinclair!reader (chap.1)
- bad habit
a typical story where two best friends are in love and everyone knows it but them
cw: self deprecating thoughts, insecurities, lil steve x reader as well as eddie x chrissy
You rolled your eyes as you saw Eddie and Chrissy rub noses in the hall for the 5th time in the last 5 minutes. You watched from a distance as they giggled at each other's antics, your eyes twitched and your fists balled up to the point they were sore. You knew Eddie had a crush on Chrissy Cunningham since middle school. She was beautiful then and even more beautiful now. From her long blonde hair and her petite stature, to her glowing blue eyes and gorgeous smile that was contagious. You never really felt insecure when it came to how you looked until Eddie started talking about how beautiful Chrissy was all the time since they started dating. You started to notice the little things about yourself that you wouldn't have even given a second thought to before the constant mentions of Chrissy and her disney princess beauty.
You started to notice how your eyes weren't a vibrant electric blue, but they were more like a dull brown that was comparable to dirt or a swamp. You noticed you weren't as skinny and small as Chrissy was. You had a fuller figure than Chrissy with large hips and a pudge on your stomach that sat right below your belly button (THIS IS THE 80’S THIS BODY TYPE ISN'T THE BEAUTY STANDARD YET.) You weren't terribly tall and you weren't scarcely short, you sure as hell didn't look as dainty and delicate as Chrissy did though. The constant comparisons that you did between yourself and Chrissy got exhausting from time to time but you couldn't help yourself. You had a crush on Eddie since the 4th grade, you couldn’t find yourself being attracted to anyone else but him in the last 8 years. Seeing him with a girl who was far more beautiful than you thought yourself out to be was absolutely crushing. What was so wrong with you that Eddie didn't want you?
“EARTH TO Y/N!” You jolted up so you stood straight. You had been so focused on watching Eddie and Chrissy that you didn't even realize someone was trying to get your attention. You looked around until you saw Dustin Henderson looking at you with an aggravated look on his face.
“I’ve been trying to get your attention for the past two minutes! The hell has got you so distracted?” Dustin tried to follow your eyes to see what you were looking at. He didn't suspect that you would be so doted over Chrissy and Eddie. He knew that you two were best friends and you did a damn good job hiding the fact that the new relationship was eating you on the inside.
“It's nothin Dusty. What’s Up?” His annoyed expression got replaced with a dopey grin as he started to talk about the new hellfire campaign that he helped Eddie arrange. The giddy boy in front of you made you forget about Eddie and Chrissy for a quick minute. You loved Dustin with your entire heart. Since he was friends with your brother Lucas for as long as you could
remember, he slowly creeped his way into your heart. He was like a 3rd little sibling to you. You smiled at Dustin fondly as he went on about the new campaign.
Eddie caught a glimpse of you talking to Dustin as he cuddled with Chrissy by her locker. You looked very very pretty today. You wore a cropped red zip up and a pair of light washed denim jeans that hugged your figure perfectly. Your curly box braids were pulled up into a high ponytail and you had a little bit of red eyeshadow to match the color of your shirt, topped off with a red tinted lip gloss that made your full lips look so soft. Your smile shined as you listened to Dustin rant about the new campaign. Eddie felt his heart start picking up its pace. He looked at you as your brown eyes sparkled so beautifully in the shitty lighting of the hallways. He only snapped out of his trance when he felt Chrissy plant a small kiss on his neck. He looked down at her and gave her a matching kiss but on her forehead. She let out a small giggle and shoved herself deeper into Eddie's body. He looked back up and maneuvered his eyes back to where you were, just to find that you had now been standing there with Steve Harrington and not Dustin anymore. Eddie watched as you looked up at Steve through your eyelashes as you giggled at something he said. He felt his grip around Chrissy tighten as he tried to contain the feeling of jealousy racing through his veins.
“You look pretty today, Y/N. I mean you look pretty everyday but today you look REALLY really pretty.” You smiled up at Steve, him complimenting you felt like a breath of fresh air. You’d spent so long wallowing in your own self pity that hearing a compliment coming from someone like Steve made you feel like the most beautiful girl in school. Yes, the compliments from Steve made you feel good about yourself, but something in you wished it was Eddie admiring your every feature and looking at you in absolute awe.
“Thank You Stevie, I would never think someone as handsome as you would be complimenting me this way.” You gave him a teasing smile and he looked at you with a lovesick look on his face. “I don't see why I wouldn't be! You’re so pretty It feels almost illegal to NOT kiss the ground you walk on,” you looked at him with big eyes and let out another giggle. Sure, you wished it was Eddie but Sheesh, Steve knew how to make someone feel special. You shoved him a little before turning your attention to your locker getting ready to take your books out.
“Hey uh, Y/n, I don't want to leave just yet and I know the bell is about to ring, so can I walk you to class?” you looked back up at Steve and gave him a soft smile while nodding your head at him. He grabbed the books out of your hand and proceeded to walk you to your next class.
Eddie watched the encounter and felt his heart shatter just a little. Why did he feel this way? He’s been pining over Chrissy for over 6 years and he finally has the girl he wants. Why does he feel so hurt by the fact that Steve Harrington is walking you to class? He tried to shake the thoughts from his brain and focus on his girlfriend, but the lingering thought of you ending up with Steve made Eddie's heart pinch.
You and Steve had been together all day long. The previous conversations between the two of you had mostly been about Dustin since the two of you had that in common, but the more you talked to him and got to know him, you found out that you two had a lot more in common than just Henderson. You had been so infatuated with Steve that you didn't even think about Eddie and Chrissy all day long. You had never felt so at ease thanks to not constantly comparing yourself to Chrissy and wondering why Eddie didn't want you. At some point in the day you had briefly mentioned some of your insecurities and Steve somehow managed to discard every bad thought he was aware of. He genuinely was making you feel like the most beautiful girl in hawkins.
“I have to work afterschool, you can come along and we can get food afterwards if you’d like to.” Steve broke the comfortable silence, “I know you go to the hellfire club when school is over, so if you have that today it’s okay if you can’t-”
“No! It’s totally okay! I’d love to come see where you work. I can miss one day of hellfire.” it’s not like you actually played D&D anyways. You only went because you knew it was something Eddie was into and he was normally your ride home from school. The last time you’d been on a date was in the 7th grade with Jason Carver. He was the same asshole then that he is now, so you can only imagine how the date turned out. Maybe this date with Steve would help you move on from Chrissy and Eddie dating.
“Y/N!” you turned and saw Eddie jogging over to you leaving Chrissy behind by his van, “The campaign me and Henderson arranged together is today and I really want you to see how it turned out. I’m super stoked about it.” You looked at his big smile and his eyes as he went on about how proud of himself he was. You felt guilty that you couldn't come since you had already planned a date with Steve, but you haven’t felt wanted or special in such a long time. A date with Steve felt way more worth it than watching Eddie and Chrissy make out on his throne.
“M’sorry Eds, I have a date with Steve today. I’m sure the campaign is going to be amazing! Tell me how everything went tomorrow, okay?” You felt so incredibly terrible, watching his mood deflate as you turned him down. You put a hand on his arm, “Chrissy is going to be there. She’s your girlfriend and she’ll be so proud of you Eds!”
You turned your head towards Steve and stepped into his car. Eddie was still standing there with a look of defeat on his face. The engine started and you and Steve were off. You could see Eddie in the rear view mirror, looking like a puppy who had just been kicked. You felt awful for leaving him in the dust. But all of the guilt melted off as you felt Steve slot his hand on your plump thigh. You let the wind hit your face. For the first time in a long time, you felt secure and happy.
this isn’t my first time writing but it is my first time writing for stranger things i hope u like it:)
cw: angst, mentions of eating disorders, self deprecating thoughts, insecurities, chrissy x eddie as well as steve x reader, blood, eddie and reader are dumb
