in my heart

Jenna Hayes. 24. Thermokinetic. Studying Medicine at Nightingale Institute. I survived because the fire inside me burned brighter than the fire around me.

[hey-addie-blog]

“I’m not quite sure if you realised, but that’s actually the opposite of cheering up!”

[hayesxfire]

“I’m not sure if you’ve realised, but i’m mourning the loss of my baby.”

[hey-addie-blog]

“No… You go drunk, you’re home… It’s a party, not a funeral, cheer up!”

[hayesxfire]

[erinderossi-blog]

Jaicob should have known that this reunion would happen one way or another, but yet he still wasn’t prepared. His brown eyes couldn’t help but search out the place that once sported a bump… except it wasn’t there anymore. It was like Rachel never existed in the first place. “Go home, Hayes,” his voice was gruff. He wanted nothing more than to slap the bottle from her hands. No, he thought. She wasn’t his problem anymore.

[hayesxfire]

The fact that his eyes wandered to her stomach didn’t go unnoticed by the brunette, and she took another mouthful from the bottle in her grasp. “You can’t tell me what to do.” She counteracted, but after studying him for a few moments she outstretched her arm and offered him the bottle. “Drink?” Hell, they both deserved to get eternally smashed from what they’d gone through lately.

[erinderossi-blog]

Ever since the news of Rachel’s fate had reached Jai’s ears, he had gotten up and left without a word. While his insides were torn up, his outsides were a mask of cold hardheartedness, and it was that that had held him together all his time. Now back, Jai watched the bonfire from afar. The time was coming, and this time he wasn’t conflicted about it. He knew what he was supposed to be now and there was nothing holding him back.

[hayesxfire]

Now that she could drink, Jenna had taken this opportunity to get absolutely trashed. Depression had ultimately slipped it’s way into her life. She didn’t care for the consequences of tonight, she just wanted to forget. The alcohol swirled and fogged her mind, and she found herself accidentally spying a familiar face not too far away. She didn’t hesitate to take another swig of the vodka before standing and making her way towards Jaicob. Jenna knew deep down that she couldn’t avoid him forever, especially because the feelings that she refused to succumb to had only grown clearer since the death of her child. “Look who decided to join the party.” She slurred.

[nicosross]

“See? I can have fun. Why did you say I couldn’t have fun, I’m having very much fun.”

[hayesxfire]

“Yeah, sure. You’re having as much fun as I am-- which is zero.”

[invisiblexav-blog]

“Well would it help to tell me what you’re hiding from? Or to at least come sit and share this giant cookie with me?”

[hayesxfire]

“I can’t. I’m sorry. But... I will help you eat the cookie.”

[littlemiss-lena-blog]

“I’m not sure you do know what I’m thinking, because I was going to ask you what you needed.”

[hayesxfire]

“I don’t need anything, thanks.”

[hayesxfire]

“I know what you’re thinking, but I don’t need it, okay? I know I can’t hide forever, but I sure as hell wish I could.”

[the-cruel-beauty]

[sebcarlson]

The second the younger Hayes sibling could get into the room where his sister was sleeping, he would be there. The chair in the corner of the room, and he would just sit there, watching her as she was sleeping. The doctors said she was stable, but that she had already lost her daughter in an involuntary abortion. His heart had stopped, but he didn’t think of himself right there. The only person on his mind was the girl, lying in the bed before him. He would’ve called Leonette and Edith, but he couldn’t afford to take his eyes off of his sister, however, after he had spent hours in the emergency room, it’s not a wonder that he had fallen asleep in the chair after some time. His slumber was interrupted though, by what he first thought was a dream, but then when he heard her for the second time, his eyes shot open. “J-Jenna.” He said, a tear also streaming down his cheek, seeing his sister like this. He quickly got up and walked over to her bedside, taking a gently grip around her hand. “D-Don’t move too much. The doctor said you lost a heavy amount of blood.”

[hayesxfire]

Her fingers loosely clasped his hand as it enveloped hers, nodding gently before placing her head back down on the pillow. The last time she had spoken with her brother, Jenna had completely lost her shit. She had hurt his friend, and honestly, she knew that was a decent reason to be angry with her. Yet here Marcus was by her bedside. "Why are you here?" She inquired, eyes flicking slowly between his own and their intertwined hands. "I... I'm sorry... about everything." Her chest rose and fell in uneven huffs as she spoke. She paused for what seemed like a long time, but not enough for him to cut her off from her following question. "What happened?" Her memory was blurred. She remembered being in pain, and there being lots of blood, but other then that... It was like there was a black hole in her mind.

[hayesxfire]

The sound of a monitor was heard as she roused from the darkness that had swallowed her whole. Groggy and confused, Jenna barely recalled where she was or how she got there. Green orbs moved to her right after seeing a figure shift beside her. Blinking slowly, adjusting her gaze on her brother, a confused moan forced through her lips. "Marcus...?" Her entire body froze momentarily as she recognized her whereabouts before trying to force herself upright and failing due to the morphine that clearly ran through her system. A dull pain coated her body in a thin sheen of sweat. "Marcus." Her voice quivered. Memories came flooding back, and Jenna couldn't stop the tears in her eyes as they continuously welled and fell down her cheeks in swift droplets. She couldn't recall the last time she had been a patient in the Hospital, and whilst she was scared, she also knew that she was in good care. 

[hayesxfire]

                                                     It all happened so suddenly.                                             a jenna hayes self paragraph.

Saucepan in hand, the fire manipulator filled the metal bowl with water before placing it on the electric stove. Tonight’s feast would be delicious spaghetti with a creamy mushroom sauce, so she had decided. After turning it to full heat, the water began to boil; but before she could place the spaghetti into the steaming pot a pain struck her abdomen, a single gasp escaped her lips in a harsh breath, following another pang of agony. A scream echoed through plaster walls, the pasta falling onto the tiled floor. Jenna placed her hands on her inflated stomach— baby nestled inside. Another strike of pain overwhelmed the elite, and despite how much it hurt to move, she reached over to grasp onto the phone and dialed the emergency services hotline. Something wasn’t right. She needed help. 

”I need an ambulance.” Her voice was obviously filled with discomfort, and after giving them her home address another surge of pain shot through her body. Screaming out once again, still on the line, Jenna couldn’t hear the urgent inquiries evoking from the telephone. What was happening? Tears fell from her eyes in utter confusion, and it was only then that the elite felt the hot blood against her skin. The cell fell to the floor as she moved to press her shaking hand against her inner thigh before pulling it away again only to see her fingers coated in the crimson discharge. She felt like her heart stopped beating, or at least slowed to an impossible rate, before racing increasingly inside her chest. She knew what was happening, but Jenna refused to believe it. She refused to come to that conclusion.

Her legs buckled beneath her, and with the remainder of her energy she forced herself against the counter to keep herself upright-- trying ever so hard to keep herself awake. Come on, Hayes. Stay the fuck awake. Jenna thought, unable to force them from her lips. Her vision flickered from darkness to her surroundings periodically as she fought consciousness.

It seemed like seconds until the paramedics finally reached her home, the Hayes descendant in a tragic trance as she sat on the floor with a pool of her own blood surrounding her. Her skin had grown pale, still attempting to resist unconsciousness. She couldn't even feel the woman's hands who now held her head firmly upright as a torch shone in her eyes, and didn't respond to being lifted onto the gurney. Her home disappeared from her sight, vision blurry and heartbeat slowing as the dark night and cold breeze completely engulfed her body. The last thing that crossed her vision was that of her brothers frantic face and horrified green eyes before she lost to the darkness.

[alexander-volk-deactivated20150]

Please do not throv up.

[hayesxfire]

I hope I don't.

[catalinaalbertelli-deactivated2]

I guess I’ve never asked.

[hayesxfire]

"I guess i'm used to everyone asking. Her name is Rachel."

[catalinaalbertelli-deactivated2]

I know. So, do you have a name yet?

[hayesxfire]

I had a name a long, long time ago-- remember?

[theolderbeck]

"Yes, you can. Jenna, calm down.”

[hayesxfire]

[nicosross]

"Oh really? Any idea how come? A cup of lemon tea helps your mind relax, I’ve used it before.. Anything I can help you with?"

[hayesxfire]

"If I did, I'd be feeling better right about now. You know what? You can make me a cup of lemon tea."