in the end they'll judge me anyway, so whatever.

[hayleejane]

Yesterday was good, but I really feel like I could have had way more steps in than I did. I even took a couple walks, so I'd hate to see what my step counts were before I started making a conscious effort.

I had a subway wrap with turkey, cheddar, lettuce, tomato, green peppers, banana peppers, black olives, pickles, vinegar and oil, mustard, and a little bit of ranch with some baked lays bbq chips and a large unsweet tea for my first meal.

Then I had this for dinner. It was supposed to be a Greek salad but it was just a dinner salad with beets and feta 😒 I put my own shredded chicken in it and a little bit of the ranch they gave me but I added lemon juice, Mrs. Dash's garlic and herb seasoning and some salt. It was fine. I also had 2 of my husband's rib tips and one of his wings.

Before bed I ate my usual bedtime snack of a piece of bread folded with peanut butter.

[hayleejane]

Dead ass serious this time bro.

Here are some salads I ate today

I also had peanut butter toast and fruit, and 2 shots of ACV. My husband claims it just melts pounds right off of him when he drinks it regularly so here's to hoping.

I'm honestly making getting into shape and losing weight a priority right now because I have been suffering from sciatic nerve pain and the only thing that keeps it semi-at bay is being active 🤷

I also got an Amazon fitness tracker but I can't get it to connect to my phone so idk man.

Check in tomorrow.

[hayleejane]

Welp. Here I go again.

Today for breakfast I had Starbucks egg bites (bacon and cheddar) and a Trenta green tea.

I re-downloaded MyFitnessPal.

Let's goooooo

[hayleejane]

I literally just typed out a whole fucking entry, feelings included, and it wouldn't post, so heres the bare bones:

Saturday:

Boiled eggs, 1 babybel, half a bag of turkey sausages, a turkey and cheese sandwich on wheat with mustard and mayo, 1 liter of alkaline water and a liter of tap water, 2 Starbucks espresso drinks, and a buffalo chicken personal pizza with cauliflower crust. I only did squats because I was too tired.

Sunday:

Cheesy scrambled eggs, bacon, 2 slices of wheat toast, 2 pieces of leftover buffalo chicken cauliflower pizza, and chicken with broccoli and rice. 2 body armor lytes drinks, lots of water, and 3 glasses of wine. I did the remainder of Saturdays workout (35 high knees, 20 second plank and 12 push ups) and then Sundays workout (35 jumping jacks, 20 sit ups, 20 lunges, and 13 push ups).

Today:

Ham and cheese omelette, 2 slices of wheat toast with jam, and 2 sausage patties. I've drank 1 liter of water with liquid IV in it and a can of Liquid Death water, and I also had a can of Starbucks nitro Cold brew. I'm waiting on wings from Bingo that my husband is bringing home and deciding whether or not to eat before he gets home. I still have to do my workouts but I have a killer headache.

[hayleejane]

Yesterday was a huge win in my book. Not because I did anything perfectly but because I didn't do anything that completely derailed my healthy habits and make me feel like shit today.

As we know, I had coffee and omelette bites from Tim Hortons for breakfast. For lunch I brought salami and a Smart Ones stir fry meal.

Wonderful.

We were supposed to go to Texas Roadhouse for dinner but the wait was fucking ridiculous so we ended up at the olive garden instead.

Uh oh.

Bread sticks??? Pasta??? Desserts??? Wine??? Fuck.

HOWEVER. I decided on grilled chicken margherita, which was 2 thin pieces of grilled chicken, each with a dollop of pesto and covered in mozzarella and sliced cherry tomatoes and it came with steamed broccoli. I ate a big bowl of salad (no croutons because I don't like croutons) and I had about 3/4 a bottle of a dry red blend. That's it. I passed on the bread sticks, I passed on the appetizers, and I passed on the dessert that were all sent around the table. I was very proud of myself, and as I mentioned before, I feel great today. I had a very healthy poop this morning and I am not hungover, even though I also drank 2 glasses of wine when we got home while we watched Harry Potter. I did have a yasso ice cream bar too.

Healthy choices are just coming naturally to me now. It was not a struggle to pass up the most calorie- and carb-laden parts of the meal, and the entree I got was delicious. I love having options.

Also, my hardness that was really tight when I first bought it is fitting loosely!!!

[hayleejane]

Hello hello!! I did not update yesterday so here's the rundown:

Didn't work til 11:30 but I still ran myself out of time for breakfast and coffee so I brought a bag of salami and a lean cuisine for food lol. I also had a water bottle here from the day before because I did not want a repeat of the dehydration day. I ate maybe half the bag of salami and the lean cuisine meal, and I also had an orange Olipop.

We had my little sister's nursing symposium last night so I went to that (got a decent walk in from the parking lot 🤣) and then came home and I ate a huge salad with dark greens, pecans, berries, capers, and shiitake mushroom dressing. I also finally got around to making a delicious whip dessert out of whipped cream cheese, sugar free cool whip, a bit of sugar free lime jello mix and a bit of sugar free cheesecake pudding mix. It was fucking delicious, I just wish I would have had some granola, then it would have tasted exactly like Key Lime Pie 🤤 I also had a yasso salted caramel chocolate ice cream bar. They're really good, and only 150 cals.

I also did my challenge even though I didn't want to. 30 high knees, 18 lunges, 18 second plank and 11 pushups. I just did it. I didn't think about it or hesitate, I just said "well if I do it now then it'll be done" and it was. I'm so happy to be to that point.

I did drink 2 glasses of wine last night. I have been the last couple of nights because we got a wine advent calendar and I think that's fun. I'm not going overboard and I'm not losing my inhibitions as far as eating whatever sounds good while I'm drinking.

This morning was kind of wild, my husband brought me to work and I realized half way here I forgot my phone so I had to go back between clients. I did have a lot of time though to stop off at Tim Hortons and grab some breakfast and coffee. I know I should have gotten oat milk, but honestly I just needed something comforting and familiar this morning, and I know what I'm getting when I order my iced coffee at Tim Hortons. They were out of large cups though which was horse shit, so I got a medium and 2 orders of omelette bites. I also had 2 cuties on my way to work.

We have my sister's actual graduation commencement tonight and then afterwards we are going out to dinner for my stepdads birthday at Texas Roadhouse. I'm going to look up the menu beforehand so I know what I'm getting. I also brought the rest of the bag of salami and a smart ones meal for lunch.

[hayleejane]

Yesterday I messed up and didn't drink nearly enough water at all throughout the day, and at the same time I drank way TOO MUCH caffeine. Awful, 0/10 do not recommend. By the time I got home from the grocery store after work I was very nauseous. I also just realized I only pooped 1 time yesterday. Is that right? That can't be right...

Yeah, nope. Only 1 time. I'm sure the dehydration didn't help that either. I drank some water while my husband made air fryer chicken nuggets, and I had a savage slim Jim which only upset my stomach further. Then we went to the bedroom, I did have some peanut butter and 1 187ml bottle of Pinot grigio (we found a wine advent calendar on clearance at Meijer and my husband couldn't resist).

I had a smoothie bowl for breakfast today. It was premade and pre-frozen at Meijer but now I want to start making my own because it was good but fresh would be way better. I also have 2 probiotic sparkling drinks for the day, this Doctor D's Concord Grape and a Poppi Raspberry Rose. My dad is bringing me lunch, I think I'll request a salad from Souper Cafe.

I did do my exercises yesterday. Its getting easier and easier and less daunting to just go in my bedroom and do it instead of thinking about how much I dont want to do it.

[hayleejane]

Good morning!!

Today for breakfast I had 2 boiled eggs with Lawry's and Red Hot. My first clients cancelled so I am going to go get some coffee, I'm just not sure where yet.

Yesterday was my "rest" day for my daily challenge, so I can't forget to do my workout when i get home tonight. Today is 30 high knees, 16 second plank, 16 lunges, and 10 pushups. I like the high knees and plank days better than jumping jacks and situps for sure.

Last night I did have 3 tbsp of peanut butter and a bag of popcorn before bed. I ate the rest of my PotDots and my last gummy as well so I have to go stock up!

I don't know when to try on my jeans again. I tried them on the other day and there was no change. In fact, they might have been even harder to button 😞

[hayleejane]

Last night we had chicken quesadillas for dinner. I ate 6 slices (1 1/2 quesadillas) and they were just made with taco seasoned chicken and shredded cheese in flour tortillas, and I dipped them in Pace salsa. I did have some peanut butter in bed because it was the only sweet treat I could find lol. I forgot about my other half of the protein cookie I have. I ate some PotDots and smoked and went to sleep 🤷 we did take an almost 1 mile walk with the dogs, and I did my daily challenge which was 30 jumping jacks, 16 squats, 16 situps and 10 pushups. It was so easy, even the situps. I'm so proud of myself.

Today when I left the house I didn't take anything but a Replenish Zero drink, so that's all I had until after 1:00 when my brother brought my Starbucks order to the salon. I got a cold brew coffee with extra oat milk and salted caramel cold foam on top and some egg bites. I got lightheaded because I didn't even drink any water until we got to the restaurant we are at now for bingo.

I have been looking forward to dinner all day. I got a buffalo chicken salad (grilled chicken, buffalo sauce, dark greens, onions, tomatoes, shredded cheese and 1 sauce cup of ranch) and 5 very little buffalo wings. I couldn't finish the salad and I am very full from my meal!

I don't think I've mentioned before now, but I decided to give up drinking for a while too. It has been 2 weeks today since I had my last drink (it was actually here, at this restaurant, and it was the shittiest bloody Mary I've ever had 🙃). I feel like drinking, for me, leads to a "fuck it" attitude as far as following a healthy eating plan goes, not just while I'm drunk but the next day when I'm hungover and need a hamburger and fries and lots of coca cola to get through. I definitely feel like drinking has been a big downfall of mine when it comes to maintaining a good weight, so I wanted to cut it out for a while and see how it goes. I am much more into weed and probiotic drinks these days anyway.

Its been almost 2 weeks since I started logging. I think that's better than last time??

[hayleejane]

Ok. I haven't updated since Thursday, and Ive been really bad at taking photos, but I promise promise promise that I have been sticking to my guns and doing amazing. Let's see what I can dig up in my photos to document the last couple of days...

Friday I had a late start at work which was great. I was able to just hang out in the morning and enjoy my husband's company. He made me eggs and bacon before work and I was able to pull a couple tarot cards (both encouraging and positive, as they have been when I get a chance to pull them!)

I did drink that whole water bottle throughout the day as well (1.5 liters), and I did not eat again until I got home from work because I had a super busy day. For dinner I had white people tacos again, but this time I put some Rotel/Velveeta dip on them 🤤

I snacked a little bit for sure at night, but I have been really good about my snacks. Mostly peanut butter, pickles, outshine popsicles, and maybe a Hershey bar here and there. I also did my daily challenge. Every time I consider not doing my daily challenge, I think about how easy it is and I just get up and do it. I am definitely getting stronger with every jumping jack and every pushup even though my pushups are modified. I am very proud of myself.

Yesterday I did not take any photos at all. For breakfast I had 3 hard boiled eggs, for lunch I had maybe a cup of menudo with 2 corn tortillas and half a flour, and then for dinner I had a poké bowl with sushi rice, spring mix, tuna, salmon, seaweed salad, yum-yum, eel sauce, and some other toppings I cant really remember. I got the 16oz bowl and it was delicious. I also had a little bit of popcorn, half a protein cookie, a couple pork rinds (Chile lime flavored 🤤) and some peanut butter, probably. I did my challenge-25 high knees, 14 lunges, 14 second plank and 9 pushups.

Now my husband is cooking breakfast for the family, biscuits and gravy. Not the greatest for the diet but anything in moderation, I figure. I have had a small cup of the Califia farms Pumpkin spice cold brew as well as a cup of my blueberry pancake coffee. I'll probably have another. I love sitting on the couch drinking way too much caffeine to start out my Sundays.

I am also very stuffy and cough-y which is super annoying. I can't smell anything. Gross.

[hayleejane]

I am proud of myself today!!

I walked to Fralia's to get a salad and some soup. It was just under a half mile round trip, but that's better than nothing. I also walked really fast because it was freezing 🤣 Here's my lunch. It was a goat cheese salad and butternut squash soup. The salad was to die, the soup tasted like Thanksgiving flavored baby food. Not bad, just not what I would normally choose I guess.

When I got home I ate right away because my husband had made taco meat. I opted for romaine leaves instead of tortillas. I call that White People Tacos™️. I put some cheese, pico, and red hot on them. They were delicious!

Right after I ate I did my 12 lunges and 12 situps. I almost didn't, honestly. But I realized today that I started my challenge on December 1 and there are 31 days, so if I follow through with it I will be done on new years eve. I think that's fitting, and a great way to step into the new year. I'm not going to give up. I can already feel myself getting stronger every day.

[hayleejane]

We had ribs for dinner again last night. They were delicious and i was starving so I forgot to take a pic. I also had some strawberry Halo Top and 3 spoonfuls of peanut butter. We finally finished Wednesday! I also did almost all of the workouts I skipped and yesterday's, I only have 12 lunges and 12 situps left. I did also carry 3 loads of laundry upstairs and put them away which I think should count for something 🤷

Anyway. I've gotten into the habit of not eating breakfast which isn't great??? But again, I think being on my period is actually suppressing my appetite. I have pumpkin spice cold brew this morning.

I do really need to drink lots of water today though.

I might walk down to the cute little sandwich shop a few blocks away for lunch to get my walk in. I wore my converse and everything.

[hayleejane]

So last night for dinner my husband cooked ribs and I ate about 4 of them. They were delicious and juicy, he makes the best ribs ever. We opted for Famous Dave's Rich & Sassy sauce, which was amazing. I know there are sugar free options for sauces but honestly, sometimes the extra sugar and calories are worth it 🤷

Big ol hunk o meat 💯 I also had an Olipop but I actually didn't do any more snacking than that besides my PotDots (8 of them). We had brought the veggie tray we got at Meijer into the room but didn't even get into it, so I brought it for lunch today with extra hummus. Its actually my first meal of the day, but I haven't been super hungry??? I think my menstrual cramps are affecting my appetite. I had an Olipop and some peppermint mocha cold brew this morning.

Also gotta keep the water flowing. I'll probably just reuse this one because I don't feel like going to get more water. Also I don't need to be spending money when I have everything I need right here.

One thing I did not do yesterday was my daily challenge. That means today I have to do:

25 jumping jacks

25 high knees

15 pushups

12 second plank

12 squats

12 situps

12 lunges

Yikes.

[hayleejane]

I have not given up!!!! I just haven't found a minute to sit and update properly until right now!

So last night for dinner we were feeling snacky. After the $400 Meijer trip we took, my husband made really delicious (and appropriately sized) Angus steaks and sauteed some imitation crab for a little surf and turf. Then we got a meat and cheese tray and I had a few pieces but honestly the meat tasted a little gamey. I also had a couple tablespoons of peanut butter and 2 probiotic drinks. I honestly think that's it??? That's all I ate for dinner??? I mean I know it's a decent amount of food but it truly is a lot less than what we normally eat. Especially considering that I had only eaten a ham and cheese omelette with a sausage patty and 1/2 a piece of toast with jam the rest of the day.

Today for breakfast I ate a little bit of my Nana's leftover omelette that she left with me yesterday with some Califia Farms Pumpkin Spice cold brew and an orange squeeze Olipop. I ran to Rite Aid to get some lunch and walked out with some miso soup, some salt and vinegar almonds, and 2 waters.

Here are some photos

Oh yeah, I forgot about the star fruit!!

[hayleejane]

So last night I rounded out the day with a Hershey's bar, a popsicle, about 3 tablespoons of peanut butter, and a small bag of popcorn that was fucking incredible and only 210 calories. Amazing. Things like that make it not only more bearable but actually enjoyable to be eating cleaner. Heres a photo, I got it at the 711

Incredible. Go out and try it if you get a chance.

I haven't had breakfast yet today. I had to bring my Nana to a doctor's appointment and was going to grab some egg bites at Tim Hortons but she was paying for my coffee and I didn't want to get greedy, so I just got an iced coffee with oat milk. It's fine, but I'm used to half and half so it's kind of bitter. Better than it would be at Starbucks, though! Now I am sitting here waiting for her test results while she is passed out on the table 😂 so sweet.

I don't know at what point I should try on my jeans. I don't feel like my midsection has gotten any smaller just yet and I don't want to be disappointed. I am feeling not so intimidated about doing my daily challenge today, and I'm very excited to get a salad and maybe some wings at Bingo tonight. Maybe even some soup??? Idk I'm just hungry right now, honestly 😂

[hayleejane]

We did it. We went for a walk, and I mapped it out and it was actually 1.22 miles. I'm so proud of my husband for sticking it out.

I also got home and immediately did my daily challenge. 20 jumping jacks, 10 squats, 10 situps and 6 pushups. I can feel myself getting stronger for sure!! I'm so happy to be on this journey.

Photo for tax, and for a future TikTok when I lose 50-75 lbs 😊

[hayleejane]

My husband made my favorite chicky nuggies in the air fryer 🙌 they came out looking more like cheddar bay biscuits because they're so huge but we are just sharing the plate with forks.

Canned chicken

Shredded cheese

An egg for adhesion

Ranch seasoning

That's it. Air fry them til they're crispy and you've got the best guilt-free snack or lunch! I've also had 2 more cups of coffee. I've pretty much just been lounging but we are going to take a walk soon.