HCRGROVE

18+ semi-selective twin oc michael 'mikey' hargrove written & loved by dani. twin exclusive to @hargrxve's billy. i will not interact with any other billy's on this blog, though head over to @sersumdeorsum because i would love to interact with more there! that is also where follows come from as this is a sideblog.

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                                                  HCRGROVE

                                  private, independent, oc, mikey hargrove                                   i don’t give a damn about my bad reputation !

a  study  in  trauma,  ambiguous  sexuality  &  gender,  resentment,  addiction,  forgiveness,  abuse,  absent  parents,  siblings,  loss,  pretty boys  &  mental  illness  vs  mental  wellness.  CARRD.

                     loved by dani, 26, uk. minors dni, anti-billys dni, feel free to reblog! 

- credit to @daemoniumgladius​ for the beautiful promo graphics !

- mikey is exclusively the twin of @daemoniumgladius​‘s billy hargrove and i will not write with any other billy. 

- mikey is multi-ship, but his main ship is @daemoniumgladius​‘s robbie munson. please also note, if an eddie is mentioned it’s most likely @cultesdesghoules​‘s eddie, and if a jason is mentioned it’s most likely @jockprophet​‘s jason. 

- the four characters mentioned are hugely important in mikey’s life, being his twin, his main-ship, his main-ships brother/his twins boyfriend and being an important ship/person in mikey’s life so they are very likely to be mentioned.

- there will be dark content and nsfw content written here; mikey’s upbringing alone is entirely traumatic, never mind everything else he has been through. please do not follow if you are easily triggered

- all follows come from @sersumdeorsum​

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WHAT CRYSTAL ARE YOU?

black tourmaline:  you have a strength to you that has been hard earned. you don't hesitate to cut out the parts of you that you despise, you're unafraid to call out others. your bluntness can off-put people at times, but you're unwilling to compromise your personal code. once your loyalty has been earned it is not easily shaken. you're a protector and you purge away anything you believe could harm you or those you love. when was the last time you relaxed, though? when was the last time you let down your guard? there is just as much strength in vulnerability.

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survivedbefore​.

“   scared   of   him?   i’m   not   scared   of   him   and   dolls?   really,   mikey?   i’m   not   four   years   old.   ”   at   least,   max   tries   not   to   be   scared   of   billy.   she   knows   how   billy   is   and   he   pisses   her   off   more   than   anything.   especially,   when   he   tries   to   control   who   she   is   friends   with.   “   it’s   not   my   fault   that   i   thought   that   he   wasn’t   going   to   wake   up.   ”   the   skateboarder   feels   an   immense   amount   of   guilt   for   how   she   has   treated   the   both   of   them   in   the   past.   she   is   relieved   much   to   her   surprise   that   billy   is   alive   instead   of   the   opposite.

“   so,   maybe   i   wouldn’t   have   taken   his   shit   or   snooped   around   in   his   room   if   i   knew   that   he   was   going   to   be   okay.   ”   max   thinks   of   the   item   that   she   took   of   billy’s   that   once   belonged   to   his   and   mikey’s   mom.   she   knows   now   just   how   important   the   item   is   to   mikey’s   brother.   “   i   just   didn’t   want   him   to   be   forgotten.   i   know   he’s   an   asshole   but   he   was   very   brave.   he   could   have   let   my   friends   and   i   die.   —-      where   are   we   going?   ”   needless   to   say,   max   is   curious   as   to   where   mikey   wanted   them   to   go.

“you sure about that? because you’re acting like it.” he responded, brow raised as he looked over the redhead. “i told you that he would. multiple times.” mikey couldn’t lie and say that he’d always been so sure that his brother would make it, that he wouldn’t just lay there in a coma for the rest of their lives but he had never voiced it. he always had hope... and he could still feel him there, never feeling disconnected from his twin. then again if he truly thought about it, max wouldn’t have been able to take a damn word he said seriously with how fucked up mikey had been between the time they had thought that billy was dead, and when he woke up. he didn’t spend a single day of it sober, in any means, and it was still a fucking struggle to not go out and revert to that. more often than not, he failed in his attempt to stay sober.

“you say his room like we don’t share a fucking room thanks to you, so that means you snooped in my shit too. you just... you need to give him back whatever it is you took that belonged to lori. as soon as he has it back, he might be able to open his fucking ears long enough to listen to why you did it. he’s a fuckin’ hard head, but even his dumbass might just understand.” mikey never felt the attachment to their mother that billy did; sure, he was upset when she left but more so because she had chosen to leave them with neil instead of taking them with her, or hell instead of taking her favourite fucking child with her at least. he would’ve hated being separated from billy, but at least he would’ve been away from neil. “where do you think we’re going? to billy. he’ll be in one of a handful of places, but he’s probably at the garage still fixing up his camaro.” 

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@survivedbefore​ asked:  “ i love you.  nothing’s gonna change that.”

“i don’t need you to love me just because daddy never did, max.” he found himself snarling, and though mikey would like to yell he would rather neil not overhear and come back for round two. it had been a long time since his father had drawn blood, yet here mikey was tending a freely bleeding nose. he had taken responsibility for something that neil was about to blame billy for, and god the beating would’ve been so much worse if billy had been on the receiving end of it. mikey stood up to their father a long time ago, had it all out with him and laid him into the fucking ground; but then, he was never as frozen in fear as his twin was when it came to neil. yet here he was again, bleeding because of him. the hargrove twin didn’t mean to shout at her, didn’t mean to take it out on her but she practically walked in on it happening; it was hard not to have a bruised ego. usually, he’d have no issues with hitting neil back but this time he hadn’t done so. he wasn’t about to start a brawl with his sister in the room, or to end up encouraging the anger in neil. 

“you, stay away from neil as much as you can, do you hear me? don’t think he won’t hit you too, because he will the second he sees reason to, the second he has your mom on the end of his fists too.” mikey really couldn’t care less about susan; she wasn’t his mother, she wouldn’t protect him (not that his own mother did) but even he had to admit that he wasn’t sure he’d let sleeping dogs lie if he saw bruises on her, and he certainly wouldn’t if they started showing up on max. “i mean,” he scoffed, “look what happened to our mother.” 

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daemoniumgladius​.

It didn’t surprise him that as soon as Robbie had found out that Billy was going on tour with Eddie and the rest of them, that he would have asked Mikey to tag along, too. He remembered last time that Robbie looked so pathetic when Billy had surprised Eddie on tour ( with Robbie’s help, surprisingly ), because he didn’t think to offer Mikey to come, either. The main drawback of this was that hr knew they’d have to bring their goddamn rodents, which Billy wasn’t…a fan of, and everyone knew why. He didn’t have to explain it.

Mikey was supposed to be doing his biomechanical tattoo— his entire right arm was going to look like it was torn open with mechanical parts showing through. Billy nods, sitting on his brothers couch as he goes to get his book, blue gaze moving to the table to see a book there “𝐇𝐞𝐲 𝐦𝐚𝐧—𝐈 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐈 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝—“ he was cut off as he opened the book, blonde brow raising and face twisting into confusion, and borderline disturbance.. it was all about Robbie—which wasn’t surprising, but it looked like something a stalker would make…

He glanced over to his twin brother, eyes slightly squinted, expression twisted into one of confusion. “𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐟𝐮𝐜𝐤 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬?”

well, shit. he stopped in the door way for a moment, before rushing over to billy, reaching behind him to slam the book shut. “it’s nothing i--” how in the hell was he going to explain this one to his twin? mikey’s cheeks had completely flushed red, and he knew there was no other way to explain it other than telling billy what it was. “yes, it’s stalkery, yes he knows about it. no, i’m not a stalker. it’s for, well,” fuck this was harder to explain than he thought, especially considering billy was the last one to ever want any details on their sex lives. “robbie was inspired by you and eddie pretending to be total strangers at a bar except... well, we decided to go a little darker. i really wouldn’t look much further through that if i were you. you’re lucky you didn’t open the page to naked robbie.” 

he was chewing on his lower lip, sketchbook in hand, gaze focused on that instead of his brother, “it’s for the fuckin’ fantasy alright? obsessed stalker manages to meet and bed robbie. and he’s gonna find the book and realise what’s going on.” besides, who didn’t want a book filled with pictures of their better half? it was certainly something to flick through, or would be when it was done. maybe he could make a non-stalker version. “ask him, if you don’t believe me, or if you’re concerned i’ve gone crazy. or you could stop snooping through my shit, and look at the designs.” 

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↪     ᵗʰᵉ 𝑫𝑼𝑺𝑻𝒀 𝑻𝑶𝒀𝑩𝑶𝑿 .    (  a  collection  of  various unsorted sentence starters .  adjust  phrasing  as  necessary .   will be updated frequently .  )

why are you here ?

drive .  drive fast .

i think we should make an informed decision .

are you coming or not ?

you’ve been avoiding me .

[ name ] ,  what were you thinking ?

this should be your priority .

let me hold you for a minute .

get out of my way .  i won’t tell you again .

that wasn’t supposed to happen .

can you keep a secret ?

i don’t know what i did to deserve you .

you seriously think i could’ve done something like that ?

you’re safe with me .

sorry isn’t good enough .

where is all this coming from ?

who told you about that ?

sorry i’m late ,  i got caught up .

you’re being paranoid .

why are you looking at me like that ?

you’re the single most important thing to me .

all i’m asking is that you hear me out .

whatever they told you ,  it’s a lie .

we shouldn’t stick around here .

hold my hand ,  i don’t want to lose track of you .

[ name ]  …  truth or dare ?

i love you .  nothing’s gonna change that .

can you tell me what happened ?

you can’t come around here anymore .

back off ,  okay ?

what ,  you don’t have time for me anymore ?

you’re asking for too much .

i’m trying to start a new life .

what do you mean ,  you aren’t coming back ?

sometimes i think you must hate me .

why can’t we just talk about this ?

i know i fucked up ,  you can stop rubbing it in .

you’ve got quite a reputation .

i’m not usually like this ,  i’m sorry .

please ,  just let me explain myself .

i love watching you work .

we’re on the same team .

did you ever tell anyone ?

you’ve got a lot of explaining to do .

really funny ,  you’re very mature .

you call THAT a PLAN ?

can we get out of here ?

i thought things would be different .

this is not up for debate !

do whatever you have to do .

karma’s going to get you for that .

it could’ve been a lot worse .

i asked you to leave me out of this .

maybe it’s time to take a leap of faith .

i never want to see you again .

can you see how many fingers i’m holding up ?

i’m gonna be there when you get what’s coming to you .

you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me .

i’ve been waiting all night for this .

i told you not to contact me .

sometimes i really think you have a death wish .

what do you need ?  —  what can i do ?

i would do literally anything to keep you safe .

that was supposed to be a secret .

you haven’t called me that in years .

stop telling me to calm down !

we make a pretty good team .

i have so much i want to say to you .

i’m not going to let anyone hurt you .

can we please not do this right now ? 

wait ,  wait  …  just breathe for a second .

how are you holding up ?

why don’t you stay the night ?  i’ll take the couch .

i don’t need your protection !

you’re not making this easier on yourself .

are you going to let me in ?

i’m supposed to be protecting you .

i will kill you if i have to .

do whatever you have to do .

this is going to hurt ,  i’m sorry .

what happened to you ,  where have you been ?!

there was nothing you could’ve done .

you’re all i need right now .

i don’t believe in love at first sight .

have you been following me ?

i need you to believe me .

what do you remember ?

i’m not a good person .

what the hell’s going on with you ?

you’re being followed .

just when i thought my day couldn’t be any worse .

i’ve been having weird dreams .

so you’ve been lying to me this whole time ?

are you trying to get us killed ?

this is the worst thing that’s ever happened to me .

i never asked for your help .

you’re being followed ,  pretend you know me .

why has it started to feel different with you ?

don’t worry ,  i have a plan .

i heard everything .

do you need to sit down ?

i have the right to know what’s going on .

i’ve just gotta catch my breath .

stay out of my business .

what did you think was going to happen ?!

don’t cause a scene .

tell me something about you that i don’t know .

can i buy you a drink ?

what if  …  we played spin the bottle ?

this was never a problem until  [ name ]  came around .

you can’t ask me to make that choice .

are you seeing anyone right now ?

i need you to listen to me ,  we don’t have long .

you’re lying ,  that doesn’t make any sense .

you look  …  stunning .

what are you trying to prove ?

who died and made you the boss of me ?

you can’t just show up here like this .

let me make it up to you .

there’s no way i’m leaving you like this .

can we stay like this ?  just for a little longer .

i don’t need you to fight for me .

so  …  you lied to me ?

you’re the only one that can help me .

i can’t help you if you won’t let me .

i never introduced myself ,  i’m [ name ] .

i expected more from you .

you have no idea who i am ,  do you ?

are you real ?  is this real ?

can i stay with you ?  just for the night .

you’re going to get yourself killed .

why did you help me ?

tell me what i can do to help .

pick a card ,  any card .

i never wanted any of this .

i love you .   you don’t have to say it back .

do you wanna get out of here ?

what the hell are you talking about ?

i should have trusted you .

get your head out of the clouds .

how is any of this MY fault ?!

what aren’t you telling me ?

i can’t help you if you won’t let me .

it’s never just one with you ,  is it ?

you’re not supposed to know about that .

shut your mouth .

i haven’t kissed you yet ,  today .

where is this coming from ?

come over here and make me ,  then .

keep lying to yourself ,  see where it gets you .

i’m not a bad person .

is that what you wanted to hear ?

we can’t be seen together .

i can’t give you what you want .

i need you to leave .

are you drunk ?

i’m here ,  i’m here .  i’m not going anywhere .

you might want to take a seat for this .

have you been listening to anything i’ve said ?

i haven’t heard from you in weeks .

you’re jealous ,  aren’t you ?

who do you think you’re talking to ?

what are you reading ?

you could’ve killed me !

come on ,  we don’t have time for this .

i just need ten minutes of silence .

really ?  that’s all you have to say ?

we could leave ,  you know .  go far away .

you don’t look too good .

i never want to see you again .

why can’t you just leave me alone ?

i thought you died .

you’ll do anything for attention .

give me another chance .

how’s the weather up there ?

all you do is hurt people !

i’m sorry ,  none of this makes sense .

you need to get out of here before anyone sees you .

i told you i didn’t want you around here .

is that supposed to be a threat ?

you’ve changed .

don’t look at me like that .

it’s a beautiful day ,  don’t you think ?

i did what i had to do .

you never know when to stop .

i’ve got to get home ,  it’s getting late .

i have nothing to prove to you .

stop LYING to me  …  all you do is lie .

you don’t have to be nice to everybody .

don’t tell me what to do .

pull your head out of the past .

nobody can help me .  i can’t even help me .

we are not talking about that right now .

are you new around here ?

you have no idea what you’re starting .

i’m gonna get us out of here .

whatever you came here to say ,  i don’t want to hear it .

everyone’s staring at us .

is there anything i can do to help ?

i won’t cause you any more trouble .

– just follow my instructions for once !

do you want to come in ?

i just didn’t know what to do .

you need rest ,  lie down .

i’m not who you think i am .

i don’t know what you want me to say .

you’re not like anyone else i’ve ever met .

i feel like i’m going insane .

stop asking ,  you’re not going to like my answer .

i didn’t want you to see me any differently .

i wish i knew what to say to you .

don’t give me that look ,  you know what i mean .

you should be afraid .

do you still love me ?

i never thought i’d get this far .

the world doesn’t revolve around you .

i need you to give me some space .

i know what you’re doing ,  don’t play games .

you left me to die .

i’m beyond repentance .

when are you going to get it through your head ?

i missed you more than i thought i would .

i’m in love with you .

what do you need from me ?

i’ll kill them ,   just say the word .

[ name ] ,   what are you doing here ?

how can i help ?

you’re pathetic .

i need you to come pick me up .

where have you been ?  it’s eleven o’clock .

i couldn’t live with myself if i let you get hurt .

i can’t just pretend it didn’t happen .

you’re a real piece of work .

do you remember how we first met ?

when did all of this fall apart ?

that’s not what i came here for .

i would do anything for you .

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@daemoniumgladius​

he had agreed to go on tour with robbie, and they’d already come up with many plans to keep them occupied. one included a project that he had to work on, for one of the scenarios that they’d come up with. it was a book, with all kinds of pictures of robbie and very detailed writings that varied from his day to day goings, to much more intimate things. he had completely forgotten that he’d left it on his desk when he asked billy to come over to look at the design he was drawing up for his tattoo. it wasn’t done yet, nowhere near done and not full size either but he wanted to know if billy liked the style, and then get measurements for his arm so he knew how big to make it. something this detailed needed that, because some bits wouldn’t look good if he just stretched them out for the stencil. 

“just take a seat man, i think i left my sketchbook in the kitchen.” mikey turned on his heels to go and get it, and when he came back his head was basically buried in the thing trying to find the page he was on. “i drew up a couple things, so you can choose the vibe you’re vibing with the most.” 

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@survivedbefore​ liked for a lyric-based starter. candy store from heathers. 

“If you lack the balls, you can go play dolls. Let your mommy fix you a snack.”

mikey was the nicer hargrove twin, that was widely known, but even he had his days. if things grinded on him too much then his temper could come out, and at this point he was pretty sure the hargrove anger was infamous in hawkins. “i’m giving you a fuckin’ opportunity here, max. if you lack the balls, you can go play dolls. maybe susan will even fix you a nice little fuckin’ snack like the baby you’re being... or you can get over yourself, and put your big girl pants on and come with me. you’re scared of billy, i get that, most people are. but you need to fix whatever the fuck it is you’re done or he’s gonna stay mad. trust me, you don’t want that.” 

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@jockprophet​ liked for a lyric-based starter. sanctify by years and years.

“in the night you come to me, ‘cause i’m the one who knows who you are.” 

meeting at the pool was becoming a more than regular occurrence, and it was definitely mikey’s favourite thing to do. corrupting the closeted church boy was delicious, especially when he tried to deny who he was directly before or after blowing mikey’s back out. “you’re lying to yourself, baby. but that’s okay... we both know why you come to me; because i know who you are, who you hide from the world. and i drive you fuckin’ wild, don’t i daddy?” 

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daemoniumgladius​.

@hcrgrove liked for a lyric starter. ( vampire verse. Cancer / My Chemical Romance. )

“𝐈𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐚𝐲 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝𝐛𝐲𝐞 𝐭𝐨𝐝𝐚𝐲, 𝐈'𝐝 𝐚𝐬𝐤 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐞…'𝐂𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮.”

“what? why would i say goodbye?” he questioned, brow furrowed as he reached out for robbie. things were difficult, with him being a vampire, there was no denying that but mikey had thought they were dealing with it. “baby, what’s going on?”

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starter call. please like for a random lyric-starter from mikey !

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#jockprophet • sugarfm ( tumblr / wire ) an independent multi-muse exploration featuring jason carver of stranger things. as chastised by sugar.

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HEADCANON - tws: death, alcohol abuse, drug abuse, attempted suicide, throwing up. mentioned: @sentinel007 @hellfire010 @hargrxve @sugarfm

All I want is nothing more to hear you knocking at my door.

The ambulance came for Max, and he couldn’t believe that this had happened to another person he cared about. She had been dead. She was dead. He’d checked, there was no pulse. Mikey had no idea what brought her back, but suddenly she was at least breathing again. Paramedics said it was a miracle, and took her to the hospital. After Susan was called, and visiting hours were over, he went home ready to crawl into his boyfriends arms and be thankful for him, and reassured that they’d find a way to get Max through it. 

If I could see your face once more, I’d die a happy man I’m sure.

He knew the moment he saw Eddie, the moment he saw Billy trying to get near him. He wouldn’t believe it though, not until he saw him. It was like time slowed to a stop as he ran from the car, heartbeat thundering in his chest as he barrelled through the door towards Robbie’s room. He tried to get close, but Eddie snapped, yelled at him to not touch him. “Please…” He had begged, eyes filling with tears as one hand went to his chest and the other gripped his stomach. Physical pain reverberated through him, until he moved back outside and threw up. He was sick until his body physically couldn’t bring anything else up, yet still hyperventilating. Mikey knew he had to calm down, or Eddie wouldn’t let him anywhere near Robbie. He couldn’t stop the tears, but he managed to get control of his breathing and went back inside. “Eddie… please. I just want to hold him. Please.” He begged again, sniffling as the tears started to fall harder. Robbie looked so pale, so peaceful… it was like he was asleep; yet Robbie’s sleep had never been that peaceful. Part of him was waiting for him to sit up in bed suddenly, scare the shit out of him and say it was a fucking cruel joke they were playing. It didn’t happen. Not whilst he was in Eddie’s arms, not whilst he carefully climbed onto the bed next to him, and not when Mikey pulled Robbie into his arms and sobbed. He was still warm, how could he still be warm? He did everything he could to commit the others scent to memory, the way his hair felt tickling Mikey’s face, the way his hands felt whilst he was holding it. 

When you said your last goodbye, I died a little bit inside.

Sniffling, and wiping the tears from his eyes, Mikey reached into his pocket and pulled out the ring he was going to give Robbie once they’d defeated Vecna. Sure, he’d had a whole other plan in place, and it had been a romantic one, but after all the shit they’d been through Mikey had just wanted to get Vecna out of the way and then propose, start their life together. He took the ring that already sat on Robbie’s ring finger, putting it on his own before sliding on the engagement ring he had bought for his boyfriend. Mikey knew that had he asked, the other would’ve said yes. They’d talked about it so many times, Mikey was kicking himself for not doing it sooner. He should’ve done it the moment Robbie had said he’d say yes if Mikey asked. “I’m sorry, baby. I’m so fucking sorry.” He murmured, kissing his dead boyfriends forehead. “I love you, forever and always. I’ll always be yours, and you’ll always be mine.” He placed a shaky, barely there kiss on his lips before climbing back off the bed. Eddie had made his presence known again, it was clear Mikey’s time was over but he’d done what he wanted to do. 

I lay in tears in bed all night, alone without you by my side. 

The days and weeks after Robbie’s death, Mikey had drank more and done more drugs than he’d ever done in his life. It was a repeat of when he had thought Billy had been dead, but worse. A couple of times, he landed himself in the hospital with alcohol poisoning or an accidental overdose, when he wasn’t there he could be found in his bed, avoiding Eddie which meant not seeing Billy, and laying in tears all day and night. The week after the funeral, on a night where he was extremely drunk, he had decided that enough was enough. He couldn’t do this anymore. He couldn’t live in a world that didn’t have Robbie in it and fuck, he couldn’t catch glimpses of Eddie almost daily and have his heart get that flutter of hope that it was Robbie. It hurt too much. He got in his car, and drove away to the lake. Sitting on the hood of his car, he took a fuck load of pills with a whisky chaser and waited for death to take him, and reunite him with Robbie. 

But if you loved me, why’d you leave me?

A couple had come to Lovers Lake that night and found him passed out, called the ambulance. The paramedics found a note in his jacket pocket that had been addressed to Billy, and declared it a suicide attempt instead of another accident. He was in hospital on suicide watch, whilst getting a psych evaluation for 10 days until he was released. They gave him meds, and instructed him to undergo therapy. When he was about to leave, he heard the nurses talking about a patient who had to have been blessed by god himself to survive. He scoffed, and carried on walking until he heard the name that came from their mouth. Jason Carver. He had to tell Jason about Robbie, no one else had and being in hospital he hadn’t heard the news. It was horrible, but they both knew how much the other had loved Robbie, and Mikey finally found someone that could understand. 

You brought out the best of me, a part of me I’ve never seen.

He should’ve burned the suicide note, but he never did. It’s hidden in his room, among his things. Whilst he likes to pretend it never happened, for some reason he couldn’t bring himself to throw it out or burn it. Mikey struggles every single day, his trauma and grief is too much for him to deal with still most days, but he tries his best so that he can help care for Jason, and because he knows that Robbie wouldn’t want him almost killing himself every time he consumed alcohol or drugs. He tries to go to Billy, but his twin has made it quite clear that he can only pick up the pieces of one person whilst looking after himself, and of course that person is Eddie. Eddie, who Mikey can’t even look at because it hurts; it’s not his fault, though. And he doesn’t even blame Billy for not being able to help Mikey too… he just misses his brother and longs for him to just say something as stupidly simple as ‘it’s gonna be okay’ or ‘you’re gonna get through this’… but instead mainly harsh, thoughtless words are spoken because Billy physically doesn’t have the capacity to help Mikey too. Not even in the smallest way. But he has Jason… and that’s enough. That’s enough for him to stay, right? 

You took my soul and wiped it clean… Our love was made for movie screens. 

[hcrgrove]

i told you once, i can't do this again. i can't do this again, oh no.

love me again, john newman

[sersumdeorsum]

just letting y’all know i won’t be around much, if at all, this weekend because my grandparents are coming over!

[hcrgrove]

@sentinel007​ asked:  [ MASTURBATE ] ; the sender catches the receiver masturbating - REVERSED.

by now, it was known that mikey was able to just walk into the trailer. wayne was cool with him, and barely there thanks to work anyway. besides, robbie certainly wasn’t going to hear him knocking on the trailer’s door with the music blaring like it was. he could hear it turning into the trailer park, it was that loud. he let himself into the trailer, ears ringing from the music as he walked towards robbie’s bedroom and opened the door, “hey baby wh--” brow rose as he looked upon what he’d found in front of him. he was grinning as he moved over to the player and turned the volume down, before turning on his heels to face his boyfriend again. “oh baby boy... caught red handed. why are you doing that all alone?” he smirked, tongue coming to to brush over his lower lip, before teeth sunk in. “you don’t get enough from me, baby? is that it? maybe i need to step up my game...” mikey moved forward, climbing onto the bed and straddling a semi-naked robbie. he grabbed the others hands and pinned them above his head, lips coming to capture his boyfriend’s roughly. “and you know what, baby? i don’t recall you asking for permission to touch yourself.” he teased, tutting playfully at him. “what have you gotten yourself in for?”

[hcrgrove]

@hellfire010​ asked:  [ SPANK ] ;  the sender spanks the receiver - REVERSED.

eddie drove him fucking crazy every god damn time. he was so teasing, and that tone of voice that he took when he decided to get all demanding sent shivers through him and gave him goosebumps every time. this time, though? this time mikey was determined that he would at least have the upper hand for a little while tonight. he smirked as he walked into eddie’s bedroom, coming up behind him and wrapping his arms around him, pulling him close. “hey baby,” he murmured, pressing kisses along his shoulder and up his neck. “you look so fucking good today.” another kiss and he pulled away, quickly but harshly spanking him, so much his hand stung. still he chuckled, hand rubbing over his ass to try and soothe the skin before repeating it on the other cheek. “c’mon, babe, let me play. lay down on the bed so that i can get your ass all nice and red...” mikey purred in the others ear, nipping at his earlobe. “i promise that you can have your turn later. it’s just... you’d look so pretty all red, especially if i’m the one to make you that way.”