Call me Dee, if you must.

Any/all pronouns, 30-something, polyam, sexuality: I have it. Not good at interaction, mostly lurking. English is my third language and I made it my goal to be as obnoxiously good at it as possible. Can't promise my poetry being sfw.  

[headpatslut]

Peppering your face with kisses Pouring salt in wounds created By none other than your favorite Demon, teaching you what bliss is

Learning how to love you mildly Though my love is hunger, passion Thirst for blood and blades a-clashin' So, my love, forgive me kindly

If I cook you in your juices Cover you in pretty bruises Pluck your wings, my precious angel

You're a treat borne from the heavens I can't help but want for seconds When you tell me it was painful

Dee

[headpatslut]

A body blank and nigh unmarred You offered yourself up to me To be my canvas – willingly I'll leave you beautifully scarred

I will embroider all your bones You will become my tapestry Of overwhelming majesty For centuries it shall be known

That I have loved till fingers bled No effort have I spared nor thread To gift you immortality

I've woven you a pretty noose So put it on, I'll set you loose Forever you'll belong to me

Dee

[headpatslut]

Addiction, lust, dependency Play once again a siren song And I know that it won't be long Until desire turns into need

I'll ask permission just this once I tell myself - a shameless lie I'd thank you still if you deny Me now, for it's a trained response

I'll hold my tongue, I'll still my lips But I can't stop my fingertips From hanging on your every word

I get attached too easily Without you I can't find release Affliction that cannot be cured

Dee

[headpatslut]

Beyond a wish, it is intent My lips and teeth shall know by heart The shape of you and all your scars I do not wait for just assent

I look for opportunity To breach the distance, touch your skin Though more than just a prize to win I'll claim you yet, love, you shall see

Your heartbeat calls me, strong and fast, To coax out every plead and gasp That you may give me in the dark

I will make sure you don't forget So if you lose yourself, don't fret I promise I will leave a mark

Dee

[headpatslut]

Offering you love syllabic Put together puzzle pieces As the letter count increases Words are formed, it's systematic

Sentences in mouths divided Not for long, dear, that I promise Speech has ceased, we found our solace And bilabially collided

Allophones have turned erratic Tongues syncategorematic Meaningless without the other

For intentions shared between us Words, for now, are simply needless And we really can't be bothered

Dee

[headpatslut]

Drink me like a bitter draught Drink me like you know you need me Like the last time you were bleeding And then through the pain you laughed

Eat me with disgust unmasked Pills dropped on the dirty staircase Entering a foreign headspace Answers when you hadn't asked

Darling, I'm the medication For an illness and sensation That you didn't know before

I'm the treatment for the sickness I maliciously inflicted You can't shake me anymore

Dee

[headpatslut]

Eyes are wide, a head is rolling Limply falls the jester's body Executed, far from shoddy And the crowd's beyond controlling

Pick the head up, king, they're taunting Kiss the lips that so upset you Blue now, not a lively red hue Looking forward to your haunting

Place the skull next to your head When you settle in your bed First to grace your eyes come morning

Lose yourself in your remembrance See the mutual resemblance You are just a dead man walking

Dee

[headpatslut]

My sweet, neurotic loverboy I'm keen on making you my bride I'd play with you until I died You would make such a pretty toy

And when you're tearing at the seams I'd mend the signs of daily use I'd tighten up the loosened screws And tame your nightmares into dreams

My jack inside the box you'll be My doll, I love your company So won't you be my concubine?

I'll offer you a special place Inside my heart, in silk and lace So darling dear, won't you be mine?

Dee

[headpatslut]

Growing words like in a garden Flowers to adorn you with Promising to always pardon Any crime we might commit

I encourage sweet transgressions In the shade of poetry Born from seeds of my obsessions With our soft asymmetry

I extend an invitation Give your soul to cultivation Bones to fertilize the earth

Blood shall water ripe and tender Fruits that grow in luscious splendor Feed us for a lifetime's worth

Dee

[headpatslut]

Many words there are for craving None whose magnitude suffices Right at home among my vices Are the urges that I'm braving

Mine's a hunger unrelenting Appetite which can't be sated Has me dazed and captivated Dizzying, disorienting

You're an offering so charming Your demeanor nigh disarming Can you quench my wretched compulsion?

Fill me up, I feel so hollow As I feast, I hope to swallow Both your love and your revulsion

Dee

[headpatslut]

You'll never be a king of hearts Perhaps of diamonds, clubs, or spades I'd serenade you - night and day I'd be your jester, be your bard

If you don't lead me, I'll obey I'll never follow your command But offer me to hold your hand And I shall vow to never stray

Of all the words you said to me Produced by serendipity I cherish most the ones you skipped

I lack your sensibility And made you my soliloquy Of pesky inhibitions stripped

Dee

[headpatslut]

Gushing, flowing, dripping honey From my lips - the words I utter When you're near, they're smooth like butter On a day it's bright and sunny

Till I startle - disconcerted That I stuck the knife too deeply Scraped myself out indiscreetly Hoping I'm not too assertive

Want you more than just for dinner Breakfast, lunch - I'm but a sinner Hungry, craving for temptation

Want to pour myself on you, love Lost my balance in pursuit of Dropping any expectation

Dee

[headpatslut]

I'm not a teacher, just a guide I don't instruct, we'll find it out Together, so beyond a doubt I'll prove that you can touch me right

I'll be your textbook, be your source I'll train you, so you kiss me well I'll only show, but I can't tell Not while my lips are pressed to yours

I'm but a silly scientist Confounding variables missed Could not withstand the peer review

And yet I want you either way So should you then consent to play I shall experiment on you

Dee

[headpatslut]

Filled with abject adoration My disgust is near poetic For desire that's so pathetic That it borders desperation

It's not love if you're not frightened Sweetest horror pulls you deeper If you let me be your keeper I'll make sure the bonds stay tightened

Coiling clumsily around you I'll make sure you're strictly bound to Promises that can't be stated

Only lived by us, not uttered Understood by hearts uncluttered From tradition, unabated

Dee

[headpatslut]

I want to hold you like a gun Nigh trembling, aiming for the kill You know me well, you know I will If I don't load you, where's the fun?

Take you apart down to the bone Caress the trigger, if I may I always hoped to see the day That I'm your each and you're my own

For now, quite surreptitiously Your only bullet lusts for me How long will you be shooting blanks?

We edge towards the final act Applause erupts as I fall slack I take a bow and give my thanks

Dee

[headpatslut]

You're just some guy, but I'm a sonneteer And if I write until my fingers bleed It's just my calling's noble creed And not because I hold you very dear

It's such a waste - denying love for you And yet I play the game to pass the time I find the rhythm way before the rhyme My puppet monarch - I'm your loyal fool

You grant my wish and make me spin and dance And it's your duty then to clap your hands My words are strings, but I can't pull you close

All I decide is when we move and pause Like you I must abide by rules and laws But break them - and I'll crumble into prose

Dee

[headpatslut]

I bite and burst the taut skin of the fruit Two drops of blood escape my lips and run Well past my chin - with more in quick pursuit Until my throat is red just like my tongue

I've stained the sheets through my own negligence The messy price for my debauchery I've satisfied the need for sustenance And yet I take more than you offer me

It is a rotten, yet fulfilling task And this is why without remorse I ask Forgiveness rather than permission, dear

So darling, don't extend your hand too soon I'll take your arm, your heart, your liver too But I'll make sure it's worth it - don't you fear

Dee