Head Steam

My thoughts of fire and ice are combating their way way into words, and pictures, a process I call....Head Steam.

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Look

Look at me, look at you, look at us.  Going on.  Living. Being strong. Doing what needs to be done to make it though another day. Learning.

We can be happy again.

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People Talk

 Person 1:What is the worst part about knowing you don't matter?

Person 2:That everyone matters so much to me.

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When’s it our turn?

Why is it that when we find something that brings us a twinkle of light, there is some thing there to take it all away. Are there some of us that are not destined to achieve our simplest desires? Are we not deserving? We hear all the famous quotes and words of wisdom that tell us, the end is near and that all in good time we will get what we need and have worked for. But I beg to differ... I think the people like me.... people like us..... we live for the fight, it drives us. We NEED to have something to attain, even if it is unattainable. We crave a challenge, and I believe if we were to obtain the things we think we long for, that soon we would be discontent, we are the stories they tell of the one who got away, not the ones who stay. Our journeys are different,our needs and wants are as well, but there is no shame in boycotting the norm. Be strong be proud and be driven my lovlies.

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Your challenges aren't there to tear you down, but to prepare you for greater and better things then you could have imagined for yourself... that concept may seem a bit far fetched, but what have you got to lose by believing it?

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That's the pain and beauty of it isn't it? We don't know, so sometimes we cause our own pain, but because we don't know there is always hope for the future.

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Whoever has pushed you away, let's go find them today. For love is ours to give away! WHO HAVE YOU LOVED TODAY!??

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.... I think I see a lighthouse in the distance, will you help me get there?.....

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Its 8:00am - You roll out of bed and head out the door. 

12:00pm- Lunch for one

5:00pm- Commuting home from work

6:00pm-Dinner for one

8:00pm- Shower

10:00pm-Wide awake in bed

Now it’s 2:00am

the witching hour... where reality and fantasy intertwine..the time when you realize every room is empty except the one your in... the numbers on your phone you promise you won’t dial after the last time... they call your name..old memories replay on a loop....regrets... so many... pain.. so consuming.........finally your eyes close....

It’s 8:00am- You roll out of bed and head out the door

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SELCOUTH:

                  (adj) 

                       unfamiliar 

                                  rare 

                                        strange

                                                                                                           ........and yet.... marvelous.                  

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So often we are told that we are limited in our lives, we are told that our dreams are unattainable, we are told that we are who we are and we can become nothing more. But if everyone were to listen to those words no one would be ever become anything. We would all be stuck, some are... Don't let the soot of someones' enmity tarnish the silver that shines with- in you.

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When I write, there are a two things that have to happen for it to be succesful. I have to be tormented internally, and on the brink of exhaustion. So in other words.... I can always write.

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Re-charge me

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B&W

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You never know what someone is going through, and sometimes that someone is you, don’t forget, life is hard for everyone, just in different ways and different times

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..... don’t we all.....

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A CALL TO ARMS

My love, the drums are calling

A red sky

A warning

No sense in hiding from the front lines

They've been here the whole time

I sleep to keep my mind at ease

I wander through a dream

of what I once believed

No rest until we face the truth

and draw it to the light

This is a call to arms

Will you embrace me

before its too late, baby?

Take care of all the love you spend

It's wasting to nothing

Beware of wolves who hide their teeth

They'll take you and leave you

Should I be like a Russian doll?

A statue in the cold

as empty as a shell

Or make a final stand

go back to what we had

I'm stepping out from my defenses

This is a call to arms

will you embrace me

before its too late, baby?

This is a call to arms

will you save me?

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Friendship is a Lost art

Do you have one or several of those friends that really only seem to be your friend because you have something they need or want? Or maybe the question to ask is, are you one of those friends? I think all of us at some point or another have used people, maybe a little unconsciously, but we are human and we are imperfect. What about those friends that we can tell are only keeping us around temporarily. You can sense that they are on the prowl for something else.But for now. “You will do” The friends that jump at any chance to spend time with someone other than you, when their other plans fall through so they come to you. Why do we even have those friends? Does anyone even know how to be a friend? We see those lucky friendships like Carrie Bradshaw, and Samantha and the others in the Sex and the City posse, over coming deceit and heartbreak,lies and let downs. Yet over here in the unscripted world it seems almost impossible to meet anyone genuine, much less stay true through thick and thin. I find myself looking back over the years and recent months and the people I came to call my “friends” and jump to the present and look around me and ask, “ Where is everyone?” Well my darlings, they are gone... why? Well there are some friendships that I can gracefully say, no love lost there, and there are others that I may have shot myself in the foot when it came to the friendship dying, you also have the ones that you simply grow  apart.... onto different things, but the majority have been people who let me down. Friends who only let me call them that because I had a connection they needed, or resources, or I was just a place holder until they found a friend that could TRULY benefit them. i’ve found the definition of friendship to become the following:

Friendship( noun ) When you find someone that can benefit you in anyway more then anyone else in your close network and they agree to supplement your needs.

It is unfortunate, but also unfortunately accurate.

Live deliberately

XOXOXO